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Choosing a direction: my inspiration vs. my preferences and me being a picky idiot.

This is sort of the first wall ive ran into. Firstly i have this weird fixation with the idea that i dont have to rely on anyone else to make whatever im making. so like, i would want to make the majority of the project myself. My choice of artistic medium is heavily influenced by this idea and ive weighed my options. I think the conclusion ive come to is that the medium i can both crank out everything by myself at a reasonable pace while also having the best chance at actually making a profit is literature. However the problem is this: most of my influences and inspiration come from music, animation, and graphic novels/manga/comics. i have attempted drawing and after practicing it for 2 months i could definitely see myself improving, but i found the actual act of drawing to be unpleasant and had the realization that i probably couldn't make comics at a reasonable pace without help anyway (both problems of course rules out animation but i never even expected to be able to do that so w/e). or at least not the kind of comics i would try to make anyway. So then i had the idea that i could maybe learn to make beats and make a rap album, but honestly not only do i not trust myself to be good at writing lyrics but i also think trying to pursue a rap career is kind of a stretch in general. so im left with being a fiction author, and just making all the comic ideas i originally had locked in my brain for eternity into the written word instead, however i also have not read that many books so im worried that i can never be a good writer because i literally dont know what good writing is to bad writing in literature aside from like, things anyone with education could probably point out. 

“just read more books then you dummy!” yeah i plan on it, but i cant just sit down and read 100 books as much as id like to do so. ill just try and write something and see what the reception is if i actually finish it and post it somewhere. my goal is to write something that, at the very least, could pass for a pretty good light novel or something. 

TL;DR i want to be able to make as much as possible with the least amount of time/effort and the biggest return but the only way i believe i can do that is in the medium i barely even have experience consuming let alone making. 

but enough of my nitpicky rambling garbage. in other news i actually did write something down today, sat down for an hour and got out about a couple hundred words (not much) of some idea. its about a planet full of people that live in giant trees and stuff, going for sort of a Kino’s Journey meets One Piece kinda thing. will post updates and random thoughts as they come to me. hopefully this is a path i can stick to this time. (tfw this post is probably longer than what i wrote of my story so far)

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Things need to change

im mrtangelo. I made this blog as some sort of weird way to motivate myself to pursue some creative/artistic outlet. Both because I hate not leaving behind some sort of work to be remembered by and because i need to escape my blue collar future as quickly as possible because im going insane. The reason i think having a blog like this will motivate me is because something i really fucking hate is letting people down. I know this because its something i have consistently done, hence why im a college dropout doing city work in the first place. so in other words the more followers the better. This way ill be sort of holding myself at gunpoint because not only will my failures be documented forever for everyone to point and laugh at but also people might actually follow me and i will be scared of letting them down. 

I have sort of tested the waters in a lot of outlets such as drawing, music, and even a little writing. however, ive never REALLY hardcore devoted myself to any one thing because im a fickle and lazy piece of shit and all i want to do is sit around and watch anime all day.

well, uh, here goes (probably) nothin. will update frequently-ish.