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Do any other monocon systems have the experience of not remembering things in the third person like other systems say but experiencing them in the 1st person and still feeling like someone else did that instead of you or are we just weird

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What is your opinion on the movie Split, if you have seen it, with regards to how it depicts DID? Because like I feel like someone with DID would be offended but at the same time don’t KNOW whether they actually would be? Like when I see anti-asexual or anti-Irish sentiment and think “Hmm. Well that is certainly offensive from an objective viewpoint, but am I personally offended?” I do feel like if the twist behind the ‘Beast’ alter being superhuman was that he had been bitten by a werewolf, because there were so many hints towards him being a werewolf and the whole backstory they gave the protagonist about being a hunter, I feel like it would have suited the story better and avoided the ‘all people with DID are evil’ trope. Am I saying this right?

Although I haven't seen the movie itself I have read and listened to reviews and plot lines, etc, to get an understanding of it without having to watch a horror film (I avoid horrors at all costs lol).

I wouldn't say I'm offended by it - like I wouldn't say that I'm offended by 'girl interrupted', 'its kind of a funny story', 'to the bone' or possibly any other movie that is depicting the mentally ill regardless of genre. I say this because like any art it has come from a perspective, and possibly a more creative perspective, of a person who may or may not have insight into (in this case) a mental disorder which they are trying to portray. Though I wouldn't say that it isn't a little distasteful that this particular film 'the split' portrays DID in an evil very uncontrollable way, I think that's the purpose of horror films or psychological films. The purpose is to explore disturbing realities, which may or may not exist in the real world. The purpose is to make you feel uncomfortable in some type of way, and using mental illness is something that many directors/writers have done in the past with many disorders already. So no, I'm not offended by the movie.

I would be offended however if the writer and director pushed the narrative that this is based on real events, and that those with DID are dangerous in the real world, but they (seemingly) haven't (please direct me to info if I'm wrong on this one) with surface level googling.

I know that might be rude to say "it's just a movie", because some will hold the sometimes correct opinion of "but the public will see this and think we're all really crazy/violent" and to that I say; if they researched anything about DID after they watched the movie then they will see that it's not like that at all, and those who didn't research anything don't deserve to talk about it in the first place and if you come across those people I'd just walk away with no comment.

I hope this is what you were asking?

- April

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We've been switching a lot at night to an alter who has major amnesic barriers, and I have no idea who they are and we're losing memory and complete control over the system when this happens.

I'm too afraid to sleep, but I'm so tired. It's 2am. We took our sleep medication an hour ago; I'm just fighting it.

It's just traumatizing every single time coming to after they've been out. We end up in full panics and flash backs.

This is a hurdle that's going to take a lot of inner discussions and figuring out... With University coming back soon I don't think we have the capacity to deal with this right now.

I just don't know what to do

- April

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“Why is there so many of me”

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there are no mental or physical health problems that can not be solved with a few deep breaths

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Somewhere for these thoughts

We need a place to talk about whats been going on in the last... Year. Somewhere to make sense of it all.

Sometime in March, or February, shortly after I (April) started gaining access to the front room and hallway, Nine decided to blow the library up and shuffle all the memories about. He wanted to destroy everything, to try and start anew. Alyson, built up with anger from being 'controlled' decided to take Nines side, and together created a house in the woods where they combined and formed Omen. Pieces of Nine and Alyson still float around, but Omen is what was created from this aftermath. I talk about this like it happened quickly. This took weeks, maybe even a month. I was in such a haze, I couldn't help but pay attention to Nine and Aly combined in a blanket of pure darkness forming about them, moulding, changing, slowly. Noone in our headspace dared to go near them in fear of becoming part of the darkness. Eventually, the house was empty. Omen was a free, walking man in the headspace, but noone's seen him. Noone knows what he looks like, even to this day. Once everyone realised that this .. transformation was over and that Omen has disappeared, Violet had a huge mission of recovering all the memories and re-organising everything within the library. Literally rebuilding our sense of self. She's been overwhelmed, overworked, sitting in that library for hours every day sorting. It doesn't help that we have learnt so much over the last three years as well. She's finally finishing up, I think she'll allow me to view the library soon... But I doubt I'll be able to read anything as it's all encoded and needs herself and Ethner to unlock.

Maybe I'll have access to the headspace again.

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Relatible asf

Being a system is weird because we don't all have the same spice tolerance and I was eating some Red Hots with my coffee which was going perfectly fine, then Micah got pulled near front over a WWDITS post and now they're spicy. Red hots. Spicy.

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Hey, I just wanted to let you know that furious-goldfish is marked red in shinigami eyes, and believes people with npd are inherently abusive. /nm

Ah, thank you for bringing this to my attention. I use mobile so I can't use browser extensions for this type of thing.

I don't like to jump to conclusions or get involved when it comes to people and situations that I am not directly invovled with (involvement other than reblogs), but after reviewing their content and upon reading screenshots and archived content I have decided to remove their content from my page due to the cited disrespectful behaviour, especially as someone who is a trauma victim themselves and has likely experienced bullying and/or harassment themselves due to their own mental status; it's unacceptable behaviour.

It is a shame, but we cannot ignore the plain obvious.

Again, many thanks.

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Dear everyone who is currently working on a Thing, whatever that Thing may be,

Good luck with the Thing. You can do the Thing. You will do the Thing. You just have to do the Thing.

Best wishes,

Someone who is also doing a Thing

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i don’t think people understand that people can ‘love’ you and not actually love you

like my grandmother ‘loved’ me, but she also was always trying to change me.  she tried to take me away from my (catholic bisexual) mother.  she made me wear dresses when i was there.  she always tried to get me to go to church and was always asking me if i was dating a boy yet

i spent years feeling guilty that i wasn’t what she wanted me to be until my mom told me one day “she never bothered to know the real you”

and it’s true.  any time i tried to show her something about myself, even cook for her, it would be dismissed, and a replacement would be offered.  even northern food was somehow a sin.  

she loved me what she thought i should be, she never loved me.  

bc people who love you, they love you for all the stuff that makes you you.  they never consider that it makes you inconvenient.

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sensory overload, or, as i like to call it,

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A lot of people online follow a sort of "template" with DID, including making parts lists, using pluralkit or otherwise always having it known who's fronting, and being very openly a system all the time, among other things.

And this isn't wrong! But it's also far from the majority. Many people with DID, myself included, treat our DID differently. However, since the folks above are the ones most actively and openly posting online, it can feel like that's how everyone experiences DID. That was really overwhelming for me when I first got my diagnosis, because I didn't relate to the way a lot of people acted and thought.

My biggest advice for folks who either are diagnosed or are considering whether they have a dissociative disorder, or any other disorder really, is to take time for yourself first. Figure out independently what works best for you and your system. The internet will still be here. The community will still be here. Peer pressure isn't always a conscious thing. You can feel the pressure all by yourself.

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i love saying i will be "without access" to email. it's a lie. i am fully capable of accessing my emails. i simply will not be.