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I'm probably gonna abandon this blog; it makes you guys do too much.

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I just showed my suicidal friend my note and their goodbye and it made them cry.

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I'm terrified that when I try to overdose I'm going to end up puking.

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Why do you want to kill yourself :(

It's better explained in my note.

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Suicide is hurting yourself.

I don't much care; I'm not going try anything right now, anyway.

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My suicide note and goodbye compendium are all finished and in my drafts on my main blog, finally. Now I'm ready for the day, if things don't get better.

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I'm such a waste of space in my current condition. What's the point of me. I've become useless and nothing but a worrisome burden to others. I have no value to myself anymore.

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Today my therapist made me sign something saying I wouldn't try hurting myself.

L o l.

I'm not gonna try anything yet, but it didn't say anything about suicide.

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Six remaining?

Six goodbyes.

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People not liking other people because they're too skinny more like wow fuck you.

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Six remaining.

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goodbyes?

Yes, my last words to my friends if things don't get better and I decide to end it one day.

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Working on my goodbyes instead of my homework oops.

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People have told me I won't be around or actually get to feel relief if I kill myself, but relief to me is knowing I'll be going to sleep for the last time. 

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I know Emerson is online but I must have upset her or angered her because she's not answering or she doesn't know what to sat what else is new.,

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Unless I talk to someone else who's suicidal, I always get the subject changed on me, and then I just get swept under the rug again.