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you mentioned wanting to live somewhere in the carolinas, once. do you think you’d be willing to push that up a bit — northern virginia, maybe? closer to dc? you go there for your conferences, i think. i’d like to work in dc eventually. do you still want to go to mit for your master’s? there’s a dozen good law schools in boston. harvard, even. do you think we could get an apartment together? i think i’d follow you to the end of the earth. i’ll settle for the carolinas, though.

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i think i’ve mentioned it before, but i sleep better after we talk. i sleep best when you’re next to me, though. that’s a rarity, especially considering the complications that have become intrinsic to you and me. i think i’d be content if we were in the same house. that might be too much to ask, though. city, maybe? state? i cannot fathom us ending up on different coasts. i don’t think i could handle it. not again.

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you’re my best friend. did you know that? i feel like that’s an important thing for you to know. i think that means something vastly different to you, though. i never felt particularly important in your life, not until the last time i saw you. as bizarre as that trip was, it was so important to me. it is so important to me. i’m glad i’m important to you. i cried over you last night. you didn’t do anything, i just couldn’t stop thinking about us. i feel silly, but i wish you were here. you calm me down. where we are now is important for both of us, individually, but i wish it wasn’t. i miss you.

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something something i wish i valued my family as much as i did my friends so i could call you my brother