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might fuck around and drink the daily recommended amount of water

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the affection of a virgo...

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i feel myself yearning for affection again and i am so scared

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Friend: Don't you want to have a romance?

Me: I'm good, I have romance at home.

Romance I have at home:

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Five and a half years and somehow I forgot that the last time I was here, was the day I drove away from you. It hits me all at once, riding in the backseat on the way to the river.

And so then four days spent wondering, should I call? Could I? But what would I even say after more than three years.

I asked the yes/no wheel-- this is how I make decisions now-- and though I often find it weighted more towards no, this time I get two yeses. I still don't call. What would I even say?

So not this time. Not this trip. But one day, maybe.

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I'll know I've made it when I have some of these 🙏🏾

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yeah I think I cracked the code

oh.

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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oh.

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oh I need therapy so bad

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wtf wtf wtf wtf

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I got to bed on a pillow they made me. And I want to screenshot every text they send.

But it's still you that comes to mind, any time I hear a love song.

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as the kind of girl who always has a plan, always keeps it together, always knows what to say — i think i deserve to be pinned down, told to shut up, and reminded that i’m actually just a dumb little thing who needs to be handled and is easy to ruin… i guess??

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Got beat the hell up by my masseuse today and loved every second of it 👍🏾

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Being Kind and hopeful and recklessly good is an act of rebellion

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No one is going to convince me that this song isn't about Shannon. Sorry.