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ari b. cofer, Unfold: Poetry + Prose

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Fun Fact: I am not capable of blind faith.

This hit me like a ton of bricks.

I was talking with my boyfriend and he was explaining that he has blind faith in me as his partner, and I couldn't help but look at him utterly dumbfounded.

I really thought about it and explained I have blind faith in nothing. That piece of me was taken at an early age. No religion or person or inanimate thing could really change that I think. When it comes to people, everyone wants to play games or refuse accountability when they choose, or purposely not choose, to make a mistake.

The kind of life I was forced to live as a child makes me want to have a stern talking-to to any and every God out there.

Nothing in this life is trustworthy. To have blind faith in a world hellbent on destroying itself, I just don't think I'm capable.

I'll find my own corner and fuck off eventually. Jim Carrey was right; you're in competition with my peace. And that's a dangerous game.

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Gentle reminder

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“If you hesitate between me and another person don’t choose me.”

— Unknown

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It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

God I feel old

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I am the human form of glue;

here to fix you when you need, and forget about in a drawer until you need me again

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Small anger-based vent:

I realized I was concerned over this person who is, in actuality, a ho. Who brought countless suitors around their single-aged child, who's other parent is all but nonexistent. Who is currently dating the person who's likely been in love with them their entire life only for this ho to likely break their heart because the sign between the legs read 'free'. Who my person reached out to (previous to us) literally only because my person knew they were easy, and went for it. I keep remembering when I talked to my person about my concern, they said "why would I ruin everything I've got going and everything we're building for 10 minutes?" Another quote would be "they just aren't someone I'd want to build a life with, there's a lot going on there and I don't need any of that drama." My person wants to maintain the friendship, which does predate this by a few years. Which I understand, but I will never trust or like this person. I will be civil, but I would never allow them to be any kind of staple in my life assuming my person and I continue. If you wanna go out and do whatever fine, I'm not harping on the lifestyle. But bringing that literally in front of your child all the time, literally banging 4 different guys all the time and having them over. That kids lovemap is going to be all sorts of fucked. I find myself no longer concerned about the ho who can't keep their legs closed, I find myself pitying them instead. Which I've heard is debatable worse. Kindly get fucked cunt, I don't know why I was ever worried about you in the first place.

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I'm taking the risk in feeling lucky,

That you reached out to say you needed me.

You want to do it right this time,

Knowing that 'us' is on the line.

We spent 15 hours straight talking,

Working together and mauling everything.

Breathing you in as much as I can,

Hopeful that we'll work out in the end.

You've shown me what you're willing to do,

But it's your actions I need to follow-through.

We will walk side-by-side,

Through the water against the tide.

You need to believe in you the way that I do,

So you can accept the *ove I have for you.

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I'm taking the risk in feeling lucky,

That you reached out to say you needed me.

You want to do it right this time,

Knowing that 'us' is on the line.

We spent 15 hours straight talking,

Working together and mauling everything.

Breathing you in as much as I can,

Hopeful that we'll work out in the end.

You've shown me what you're willing to do,

But it's your actions I need to follow-through.

We will walk side-by-side,

Through the water against the tide.

You need to believe in you the way that I do,

So you can accept the *ove I have for you.

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