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Every couple of days, I get this insane waterfall of ideas Everything I read, sparks another thought Everything I write, births another one And I feel like this ingenius creature Irresepective of the actual quality of my output

Love that for me

1:39 am 27.06.25

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I have a tendency to lose myself in the environment. To do things and behave in a manner that everyone expects, even if that is not what or how I would like to or not like to do something. Or if I would like to do something completely different. Like a very high tendency to confirm, and check others comfort over my preferences.

Maybe in an ideal situation I would work on myself to build the resistance to do what I like but that sounds really really tough. Which is why it's my responsibility to put myself in environments that encourage me to be myself, to actually work on the things that I want to, to not get dragged into ten other things.

3:06 am 26.06.25

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Whenever I do worldbuilding I try to keep this image in mind

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I think of you less each day. I wonder if I am making a mistake.

3:29 am 24.06.25

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I haven't even started, and it already feels stupid to have even dreamt this.

4:23 am 22.06.25

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(Pretty + interesting) 🫶🏽

12:08 am 22.06.25

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So the thing is, I haven't written that much professionally and publicly. I don't count tumblr as public, nobody even knows about this.

And I tend to remember most things I write. Like not in the sense that i can recite everything I have ever written, but in the sense of I see my writing, I will know it's my writing, I can explain why I wrote the way I wrote, possibly what inspired the thought or that way of writing and just the general broader context of the writeup in question.

So it's flattering uncomfortable to see someone, usually some random ass brand copy my style. I never even thought I had a style to begin with, but it just seems so very me, I can't help but wonder why they are writing it that way. Now it's not an exact plagiarism and I tend to take inspiration without realising what the original source is too, but like, idk how to feel about this.

It's extremely flattering, but also why do I struggle to find a job so much if I am that good. And am I good? Or is it just a shitty brand using shitty (mine) references, because then again my public work does not exist in my name, it exists in the name of other brands.

Oh oh oh oh, what if it's chatgpt or ai generated copy and my copy happens to be the inspiration for no particular reason. Flattering. Annoying.

11:06 pm 21.06.25

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Career villain arc

11:51 am 21.06.25

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I bitch so much about my family, but I am still the kid that everyone will look after, no matter what.

2:47 am 20.06.25

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You know what always gives me ideas to write? Reading.

And I don't mean ideas as in plagiarism. I mean ideas as in reading something completely random brings up a completely unrelated or complicatedly related thought that I want to explore further.

Except I don't remember this when I am in a writing slump. I'll say something stupid, that oh my life is not that interesting right now, or I am too busy with other things, or I have already written all the thoughts I had (really?) or the last thing I wrote was pretty pointless and convoluted or 10 billion excuses I will come up with not realising, that too is a kind of writing.

Anyway, the point is READ. Or watch something anything. You do have an endless sea of thoughts and ideas within you, but you need a catalyst to access them.

Catalyse. Photosynthesize. Sterilize.

10:29 pm 19.06.25

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I join the Discord server

I mute the Discord server

I'm never seen again in the Discord server

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Love expressed as anger is not love.

True or false?

7:43 pm 19.06.25

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hey quick question, why is this the funniest reddit comment i have ever read in my entire life

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This kid I met in a college club. I see a lot of myself in her. I sound like a granny but I hate the fact that age difference and senior junior bullshit can hinder so many friendships. I really like her. I always wanted a younger sibling and if I had a choice, I'd have chosen her. That's a different thing that we haven't spoken since I left college. Just her reel came up on my feed.

2:46 am 19.06.25

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Sometimes (every second of every minute of every hour, every single day) I feel that I'll never get over you. But then that's what I felt about the first guy I ever had a crush on so maybe my feelings aren't very reliable.

12:41 am 17.06.25