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in my tetris era.

3:23 pm 27.04.24

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Convincing myself to go home: mango milega yaar khaane ko.

9:10 pm 21.04.24

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At the heart of it all, the one thing that still brings me infinite joy is a well written line, and even more so if it's written by me.

Yeah, I am great at organising and managing accounts by that's not why we got into it. And I think it's important to remember this.

Yeah you got tired of the feedback and revisions and logic thrown out of the window, but I would hate for you to forget what brought you here.

I will not hold it against you if you don't end up writing for the bulk of the career. Writing and career do not have to happen at the same place.

But you have a habit of forgetting good things and I don't want you to do with writing. Do bad writing till you can do good writing. Cause that line you just wrote makes the four pages before seem worth it, don't they. Even thought they are absolutely crap and full of shit.

Please don't give up on your writing, of all things. It has literally helped you survive everything. It would make me really happy to see you happy cause you wrote something well.

Back to writing five more pages of crap in the hopes of another good line.

2:33 am 21.04.24

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I've never been this tired and relaxed at the same time.

10:46 pm 20.04.24

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Go however deep you want, the waves will bring you back.

10:44 pm 20.04.24

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The way I give arguments out loud in an empty room to justify my pointless purchases as if someone's come and contradict me.

Sure woman, shut up and go ahead.

You know you are going to do it even when you don't have a good argument.

Why bother.

9:48 pm 20.04.24

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Everyday i think I want to watch something nice today. And then I scroll for an hour and find nothing.

Cause I don't have it in me to watch anything that takes up the bare min emotional or mental space.

And I think I am above mindless shit. I am not. It's what I end up watching on most usual days.

But these days it's different. These days I remeber just in time that IPL is going on.

Why even bother with anything else. It's the best mindless show they ever came up with.

And I can also let myself believe I am watching it for the ads.

And the ads actually used to be good at one point. Like some of the best work of the industry.

Now it feels worse that reel concepts I shit out just to complete the scope.

Idk. It's expensive air time. How can you even consider wasting it like that.

Whateves. Nobosy cares at this point.

To another day of waching a match I don't give 2 shits about.

9:23 pm 20.04.24

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One of these days I am going to do something so stupid, there will be no coming back.

It's just waiting, looming, hanging in there somewhere. But I can see it creeping closer.

Everytime its more difficult to resist not doing stupid shit. And I am starting to wonder why I am holding back even. Like let go, how does it matter?

It's not like I am gonna be in this age and moment again, ever, like ever.

Idk. There's this other rational side that believes that your actions add up. And I know the older me won't approve of it. Heck, the current me doesn't approve of it either.

It's dumbfuck by every possible measure. But I still want to do it.

Should you still fuck around if you already know what you'll find out?

12:21 pm 18.04.24

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4 saal ki em toh samajh hi nahi paayegi ki 4 bje uthke koi khush kaise ho sakta hai.

6:08 am 10.04.24

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My options right now

1. Smoked greens - but then I won't be able to focus on the work I have to share by tonight.

2. Sandwich, with prob a pastry to complete the min order - but I am trying not to spend but also I am hungry

3. Sleep - this is the cheapest, healthiest and most fulfilling option but then I'll feel like I did nothing fun on a weekend

What will it be?

4:25 pm 07.04.24

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What is it about April that makes me wanna kill myself?

4:35 pm 06.04.23

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Khud ka dhyan rakhti hun toh kaam ki haalat tight ho jaati hai. Kaam ka dhyan rakhti hu, toh khud ki haalat kharab ho jaati hai.

Kya karun?

04.04.24

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Not me embracing the exploited employee image to get out of social situations I don't like. Helps to know what actual exploitation is like.

8:53 pm 03.04.24

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I think I'll about it for the rest of my life.

10:53 am 31.03.24

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Feels even a lil jittery and I immediately want coffee. Doesn't even begin to cover everything that's wrong with me.

1:12 pm 28.03.24

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Just for today, can I stop being an adult please? I will be back tomorrow, I promise.

1:37 pm 27.03.24

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I keep waiting for you to change your mind, even though I know you won't.

Worst part? I know I won't either.

12:10 am 26.03.24