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Day 8 & 9 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Day 8 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Today was the easiest day yet. I had energy to do a lot of things, and I was very motivated. I was thinking extremely clearly. I started getting things in line for the future when I am well. Very confident. Random discovery: I seem to be better at math, lol. 

I am in the horrible routine of napping around 7/8 for an hour, then being unable to sleep until 5/6am. Blah. 

I had a very insightful spiritual experience last night. I am learning so much about myself.

Much love to you all. 

Day 9 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Absolutely wiped today. I pushed myself way too hard yesterday. I stayed in bed from 7am til 5:30pm, which is good, but it wasn't enough. I could barely move again.   I need to really force myself to lay down even on days with tons of energy. I tried to shower and my heart raced so bad and I could hardly move after for quite some time. I have never been so exhausted. I can't even pick my clothes up off the floor, my place is becoming a mess, and I wish so badly that I had help.

I need someone to help me do day-to-day things like tidy up so desperately right now. My partner won't even tidy up after himself, much less think to assist me. He generally just makes more mess here. He already helps me out with money right now, so I don't want to ask him. He will just throw it in my face like always. If I do ask him to help with something really important, it feels like pulling teeth. God I need help around here. I wonder if it's too late to go to a fasting center, ugh.

I have had dreadful nausea all night. 

And my mouth is driving me crazy - the taste is absolutely disgusting and that alone is making me nauseas too. I constantly feel parched in my mouth despite drinking a ton of water. Whenever I wake up is the worst. It's just horrible. 

Hopefully tomorrow will be another high energy day to balance out this hell. If it is, I need to keep mentally reminding myself to still take it very easy. 

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Day 7 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Today was not like yesterday at all. I was very weak and tired again all day, and it slowly got worse...Until I decided to slam my body with water and I had a bowel movement, then I felt half-better. (Let me tell you, if anyone was watching me in bed today trying to get my water bottle from my night stand for a drink you'd think I was dying.) So, because I felt so much better after a BM, which was ALL mucous, I decided to do a very small gentle enema and holy jesus batman - I felt like a new woman. Incredible.  Absolutely incredible. What's even more incredible is the amount of mucous I have, but we won't get into the details. I can't understand why some fasting advisors recommend not using enemas when fasting. It really makes all the difference. (I know their reasons...I've done the reading, I'm just saying...it's nonsense and the pros so far out weight the cons in this instance. We don't have to be in so much agony. As long as it's not like 2L of water and you're shocking your system, I say go for it. I only used a couple cups and my detox symptoms were vastly relieved.)

I was super emotional today, by the way. I mean, an absolute rollercoaster. Things I haven't thought of for years I started thinking about, and old mind programs I had before started coming up again. 

My skin is peeling off my in huge layers in addition to this horrible cystic acne. I'm taking the peeling as a sign that my skin is being worked on now and hopefully my body will stop trying to purge through my skin soon and instead use my colon and kidneys. 

Now, on a very positive note...

Here are some things that are improving:

My nails are hard as rocks! Because of a chronic calcium defiency before they were cracking constantly and so bendy. I was slamming calcium and I just couldn't get my numbers up! Now, they're fungus-free, shiny, hard, and beautiful. Incredible. Just outstanding, honestly. "Don't fast, you'll have vitamin deficiencies." LOL! Let's all just get informed, shall we? Your body normalizes and harmonizes like no other time in your life during a fast and uses it's YEARS worth of stores. I have never been so vitamin and mineral rich it would seem. People fast to CORRECT vitamin deficiency problems, assuming they're not related to poor diet, which mine obviously weren't.

My eyesight is improving?! I have horrible eyesight. -5.00 right now, which improved by -6.00 in the last year, and I'm pretty sure my sight has improved quite a bit again.

My joints don't creak and crack as much with every move I make! AMAZING! With that, comes relief from some of the chronic pain I was experiencing throughout my body because there is notably less inflammation. One exception is my neck - it is still creaking more than I'd like, but that's a BIG job to correct my screwy neck. In time. :) 

Molluscum SEEMS to be fading. I really pray it takes care of this issue. This is just too much to add to my list of things to tackle. It's not gone, and i hope I don't jinx it, but it does seem to be fading.

Upper right shoulder "injury" is (almost) healed? There's muscles up by my cervicle spine and right shoulder that have atrophied and I have constant pain there.  I no longer have pain there and those muscles seem to be coming back! This is amazing to me. It's only been 7 days. I knew my body was trying to correct that spot since I started, I could feel it, and it's showing big time. There's was also always a strange spot right next to spine that if I press on it will send a localized unimaginably painful "shock" - um, that's pretty much nonexistent now. I am so happy.

Sometimes we just have to get the hell out of the way and let our bodies take care of themselves. I am already convinced entirely that this is exactly what I need. This is exactly what I was suppose to do. This is exactly the right decision. 

Much love to you all, and sorry about all the poop talk, hehe. But hey, this is a fasting diary, what do you expect? 

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Day 5 & 6 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Day 5 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Today was rough. Really rough. I did have a bowel movemenet first thing in the morning but I continued to get naurseas throughout the day and was quite exhausted perpetually. I spent a large quantity of time on the couch because I didn't even have the energy to sit up. At  one point it was too difficult to even lift the water jug to drink out of.

All this seemed to resolve around midnight though, retaining only the normal weakness. Then I got this  surge of energy and wasn’t able to sleep again until late. This is a very consistent pattern.

I’m having this very unpleasant experience whenever I drink water. At least whenever I drink more than a mouthful. My stomach churns and really aches and then there’s immediate gas and I often feel like I need to go to the bathroom. Very strange. I think it’s from candida die off, what with the gas. 

This is all the energy I have to write for now.

Much love to you all.

Day 6 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Today was the easiest day yet. I had energy to do things. I did them slowly (like water flowers, do a few dishes, germinate a few seeds, etc) but I nonetheless did them! I’m in MUCH better spirits today and I’m going to try to get some sunshine everyday from here on out because I think I have weathered the storm by now and things are clearing. Weakness periodically got worse and then better throughout the day. I think I need to prioritize drinking much more water because I notice my detox symptoms really lesson when I do chug a lot of water. Unfortunately I am still having that bad reaction to water where my stomach really aches if I drink more than a mouthful or two at a time. Bleh!

The only really notable thing today was that I got very bloodshot eyes around midnight. In fact, the blood vessels are so red it almost looks scary. I’m reading that it is direct detox  (acidosis coming out from tissues is corrosive.) It's a very good sign that your liver is really working! Better out than in! Yay! 

I also seem to be in a pattern of having one mucous-y bowel movement everyday.

I contacted a colon hydrotherapist today to schedule an appointment for a colonic toward the end of my fast. Just waiting on a reply. Very excited about this.

Oh, my sense of smell is absolutely super human. I am actually sitting beside this delicious bar of soap I have. It smells heavenly. I can't believe I never noticed how amazing our sense of smell is and all the pleasure we can derive from it. 

 I have been watching videos on people who started refeeding after 21 and 30 day fasts and the taste of the watermelon brings them to tears. Your taste buds completely renew and change during your fast, coupled with not tasting anything for that long…they all cry with joy and are so thankful and glowing and beautiful. I am so excited about refeeding with organic, ripe, beautiful fruits and vegetables and nurture my now pure body.

Sending so much love to each and every one of you! 

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Day 4 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Well, today was very up and down. I didn't actually fall asleep last night until 5am, but I woke up at noon and felt...alright. Seriously, I felt almost completely fine with the exception of mild weakness. I had to double check to make sure I didn't eat anything. Jay was coming over so I got up and showered. I had one bowel movement today again. (Woo!) By the time I finished showering and putting on clothes, my energy started plummeting again slowly. By 4pm I needed to nap again from exhaustion (and I didn't do anything strenuous) So, I did have a nap for an hour. But,when I woke up, I seemed to be worse off than before. I was getting out of breath just lifting my bottle of water to drink from. My breathing was actually very troubling for some time, but it resolved in a couple hours. It was starting to make me a little anxious, which in turn doesn't help my breathing, lol. :P But, get this...later in the evening I got this huge energy surge, which is where I'm at now. With the exception of my legs, my mind, my body, my energy, my ambition...all top notch. I can't believe I'm into day 5 already. If my energy levels even out like this, the rest of this fast will be a relative breeze. It really was the weakness and exhaustion that I was worried about dealing with for the duration. I can handle aches and pain and all things related to detox, I'm used to that, but being completely useless from weakness...nah, I can't dig it. I did have a dull headache today and general stiffness, and my liver had sensations in it again. It's safe to say I can feel my body cleaning house and my hunger is essentially GONE. My nose did start to expel some mucous today too, which is fantastic. Oh, and my breathing has improved 10 fold? For some reason I can suddenly breathe deeper and more "steadily". I used to have choppy breaths all the time. So, that's cool. 

I have to start a new paragraph for this because I'm very excited about it: MY NAILS LOOK AMAZING. Seriously. The fungal infection that had taken over them only a week ago is all but completely resolved. I'm ecstatic about that. I'm flippin' ecstatic. In fact, I can't remember my nails ever looking this good? Well done body, well done. It got right to that infection without delay! 

On a less positive note, my skin is just explosive with no sign of slowing. Every pore on my face is plagued with either a whitehead, blackhead, cyst, or molloscum. Brilliant. Every case I've read about the skin it always worsen considerably, in all skin conditions (rosacia, rashes, acne, etc) while fasting. I'm not freaking out, it's just inconsolably embarrassing. I know I have to go through this cycle. It's not discouraging. The magic number for skin regeneration seems to be 10-14 days. So, hopefully there will at least be a marked improvement in 5 more days. 

I really can't believe it's been 5 days. I am extraordinarily proud of myself. 

It's really weird not being hungry...I keep having to double check that I didn't mess up and eat something out of habit! It really does feel like my eating habits haven't changed at all right now.  The more I experience, the more I read, it's absolutely true that our bodies were made for this process. Our bodies are incredible machines. 

I'm looking forward to see how day 5 goes. This day has definitely been the easiest so far. I'm curious to see if things just keep healing and getting easier.

I love you all! Here's to our beautiful bodies and their innate ability to heal!

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Day 3 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Well, it's officially been 3 days! Hurrah! As of 9 tonight, I've entered into day 4. Today was significantly easier than I ever thought it would be. In fact, I woke up, and was like, "That's it?" I was expecting severe nausea, etc. It was relatively uneventful. I'm still very weak, and I don't think I'll ever get used to that. It is a serious drag. Some people say they get more energy by now but I seem to be an exception. I think it's me really feeling the adrenal fatigue. I kept compensating for my lack of energy before by smashing through tons of fruit, etc.

I had two bowel movements today which I'm SO happy about; to think that stuff was just hanging out inside me for god knows how long. I hope I can continue to see waste matter leave me through the bowels, as opposed to through my skin or urine. It's the easiest way. I think it's a pretty good sign that my body is starting to heal my digestive system too which is great. 

One of the more unfortunate developments: Not long ago I got the molloscum contagion out of nowhere. As of last night, it has spread into the worst case it's been. It is all down my left arm, partially on my chest and stomach, and my FACE. My FACE. My...FACE!!!! :( :( :( I couldn't be more embarassed or depressed about this. There's simply too many spots I can't go around lancing them off and treating each one directly like I did before.  I already have ruthless cystic acne that's been getting worse and worse the cleaner and cleaner I eat, and now I have molluscum on my face too. On the bright side, this only has encouraged me to stay with the fast for as long as possible. IIf there's anything that will provide a miracle, it's this. Molluscum is notoriously hard to be rid of. Hopefully once my immune system starts healing it will swing into action. I've also been reading about how a fasting body will literally CONSUME bacterial infection, tumorous tissue, and any general inflammation within your body that isn't meant to be there! Amazing. The miracles of fasting are endless and I can't believe this isn't a more common practice. I know it USED to be, but it just further solidifies to me how far out of touch with nature we are becoming everyday, and how much SICKER we are as a result. 

The weird sensations in my abdominal cavity (liver and GI tract) have greatly subsided today, and i have experienced no more releases in my joints (sadly).  I think my body has switched over to ketosis. I'm extremely happy about that. The hard part is done (hopefully!). I know some people can have seriously intense detox reactions later on too, but the battling with hunger pains and what naught is now a thing of the past. Like I said, I am still alarmingly weak, and I did have great difficulty falling asleep last night. Plus, I woke up early today. I remained seated all day, but I think I should stop using my brain so much now. It can use up to 35% of our energy and here I am playing puzzle games to pass the time sedentary, lol. It's certainly not facilitating but I just can't seem to force myself to stay in bed as recommended. I just woke up from a nap, which only lasted a little over an hour. I haven't even got 10 hours of sleep today total. Weakness did not subside after the nap, I'm really hoping for some relief from that soon.  I can't imagine getting used to it. I just feel so helpless and unmotivated...but I guess that's exactly what you want when you're healing. Still, I wish I had the energy to do some dry skin brushing, maybe clean the tub to run a bath, etc.  I really wish I could just fall asleep and stay that way for 12 hours, gr. 

Oh, my stomach is as flat as ever now especially after those BM's, haha. I can't believe how bloated I was before. I actually can see my ab muscles. I always knew I had some sweet muscles under there. Yoga really works the core, and it's one of the only forms of exercises I've stuck with over the past year. My stomach really does look and feel fantastic compared to before when I constantly sucked in and still looked about 5 months pregnant in comparison to my actual body size/weight, which isn't big at all. 

Speaking of weight, I haven't dropped as much weight as I thought I would. Only about 4-5lbs so far, which is a little strange, but it will be less alarming to Jay at least. I have a very very large body fat percentage, but a "skinny" body in the eyes of most people who are not educated on what health looks like. My body has stored a lot of physical fat (A LOT!) because of how obscenely toxic my life was before. Mine has pooled in under my arms heavily over the years, which I'm actually happy about because my body tried to keep it away from my abdominal cavity as much as possible, as is traditional with heavy toxicity in a smaller frame. As we all know, fat functions as a toxic waste dump, to keep the toxicity away from important organs, etc. . It's why we can eat all the raw organic fruit and vegetables we want and literally not gain a pound of fat our entire lives. Clean burning fuel.  Whatever is in excess, is burned up through dietary thermogenesis completely. I can't wait to shed the toxin bullshit, and start working on building strong, beautiful, CLEAN muscle mass!! :) 

My computer chair is still uncomfortable by the way. I've put blankets down and everything and I just can't get comfy in it. It's really bothering my lower back and my knees and shoulders. Any suggestions to remedy this?

All in all, I am exceptionally proud of myself for getting through the first 3 days and settling into ketosis! Onward to recovery! :) I love you all. 

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Water Fast Diary

Day 1 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

 I had very low energy all day because I am so used to eating a ridiculous amount  of food on this low fat raw vegan lifestyle. I never FULLY realized how much energy fruit gave me. My body was like, “Whaaaa? Where's our mangoes?”. I remember when I was teen that abstaining from food used to not effect my energy levels, not even slightly, not even remotely,  which is appalling and really boasts of how deficiently ill I was. So, the fact that I have so little energy is actually quite reassuring in a sense. There were no other symptoms today other than low energy. Fungal nail infection still kicking. Bloat still raging. Aches still aching. Face still breaking. I had a bowel movement in the morning, which I'm happy about, but no more throughout the rest of the day, despite feeling like I needed to. I'm used to about 4 bowel movements a day now, so that was different. I had a nap around 6pm, and woke up around 9pm. Jay was going to cook his dinner here when he got home but he politely decided not to, which was great. I don’t think I could have handled the smell of veggie burgers.  I’ve been in good spirits all day and proud of myself for making this empowering decision. I've been watching fasting lectures most of the day and reading lots of great information on the process of extended fasts. I am becoming even more confident and motivated, if that was even possible. I don't think commitment will be an issue at all. I am glad to have a boyfriend who is supportive and understanding with all of this. He SEES what I go through, and he is always willing to learn. We only listened to one lecture on fasting together and he immediately saw how much sense it made. Did I mention he is eating predominately fruit now too? I am so proud of him. 

I'm sure tomorrow will be significantly more difficult than today. I can tell my body is getting very weak. It's obviously converting glycogen from muscle stores right now, which means ketosis is upon me soon. I've never done a *purely* water fast before, and I'm sure it's going to kick my ass before I settle into ketosis.  

Day 2 - Water fast for systemic candida, adrenal fatigue, leaky gut, and hormonal imbalances.

Woah. Today was considerably more difficult than yesterday! I awoke very tired and weak around noon.  I went pee several times throughout the night, and I remember barely being able to walk to the bathroom. I really should have stayed in bed for as long as I felt like, but I got up because I thought Jay was coming by and I wanted to see him off before he left for the weekend. I couldn’t ask for a more understanding and supportive partner. Sadly, I didn’t see him because there was tour bus trouble and in retrospect I really should have stayed in bed. I ended up going back to sleep around 4pm for a bit and got up again at 6pm anyway.That curbed my weakness and tiredness quite a bit for the rest of the night.

 Some interesting things started happening today. I am continually feeling releases of pressure from all my joints – even my knees, which I never thought I had trouble with but now they feel much more “open”. So, that’s awesome. Muscles around my body that are often in a state of dormancy have started twitching and “waking up”, while muscles that are in a constant state of spasm, especially those in my right upper back, have started releasing. This is incredibly encouraging!! It seems my body has started vectoring toward health quite early on, and I haven’t hit ketosis yet.  Or, am only just beginning ketosis, as there’s no way to really tell I suppose. I am toward the end of my second day so it could be starting already. My incessant bloating from the candida in my stomach has finally lifted. This is the first time in… I don’t know how long… that I’ve been free from that. I have felt some mild releases in my liver area, which could just be glycogen conversion in the liver, which I know occurs on day 2, or it could actually be a release of bile ducts which would be great. Either way, it’s worth noting. I felt quite a bit of movement in my stomach and intestines when I laid down around 4pm. That was interesting. I’m not convinced it was hunger pangs, and those feel quite different to me.  Considering my candida started in the GI tract, it’s no wonder I’m going to be experiencing quite a bit of commotion in that area. I have leaky gut syndrome from the candida so I am anticipating healing of my intestinal walls soon! I noticed my sense of smell is very sensitive right now.  Actually, all my senses are quite touchy, but not in a pleasant way. For example, sitting in the computer chair, which I ordinarily have no issue with, has been unpleasant on all different parts of my body. I think I’m going to try to remedy that as I’ve been using an old childhood game to distract me from hunger. I’d like to be as comfortable as possible. I have been between the couch, the computer, and bed all night. I really should be physically sleeping more, and I do intend to do so tomorrow as I have no obligations or distractions whatsoever. My skin has worsened considerably in the last two days, which was to be expected, but my skin also seems to be producing a lot more oil than usual too which is new. I’ve had to splash it multiple times today. The fungal infection under my nails has decreased considerably already also, which is very encouraging. I haven’t had any headaches, which I was actually expecting by now. My breath is very rank haha, and I have had mild nausea on occasion, all of which is expected and thusly encouraged.

I never realized how often my mind makes me reach for food,  almost subconsciously. This process is very telling psychologically. It’s no wonder so many people boast of their spiritual and emotional healing first before the physical. It really does need to be done as a collective endeavor. My body and mind feel very connected, no buffer of food disguising emotions or pain. We are such complex psychological beings. Tricky things we are.

Speaking of which, my Mother came by around 9pm because I asked her to bring me some more water and she caused quite a mental upset after being in very high and optimistic spirits all day.  I think I should have foregone the water.  In my defense, I did specifically ask her to not express her “disagreement” with what I am doing.  I DID try to avoid this. I even said please, damnit. I EVEN told her it could be threatening to my life if she stresses me now.  It may seem shocking, but she did not even attempt to heed my warning. I even guided her to several  easy to follow resources on fasting beforehand, but I swear, if fasting saved her life personally, she would still attack me for doing it. She will attack anything I do, and I really can’t escape it.  Even the pure and beautiful things, she will question ulterior motives, and suggest I shouldn’t have done whatever is in question. I could win a Nobel peace prize and have a hundred doctorates under my belt and she would attack my entitlement to it and question every bit of information I share.  I am aware that she has largely worsened my condition over the past few months. Being on a harsh antifungal program for candida (Caprol and oil of oregano) AND being in a perpetual state of stress from life circumstances and incessant negative interrogation absolutely thrashed what was left of my adrenals and immune system, depleting my good bacteria and throwing all my hormones further out of balance and expectantly worsened my condition drastically. What’s ironic is that her favourite attack is, “SEE! You just keep getting worse!!” (…If you get past the tragedy,  the level of ignorance here is actually hilarious, amiright?) I can point this out to her, but she never hears it. Anyway, you get the picture. Some of her attacks tonight were, “Doug Graham is a quack” “You just love being miserable” “You don’t want to heal” (LOL!!!) “You keep making yourself worse!” “You’re going to die!” “You’re going to be malnourished.” “You’re anorexic!” “You’re selfish!” “You’re self absorbed!” “I wish you were normal!” I laid their quiet trying to keep my heart rate down til she slammed the door shut and left. As you can gather, this energy is the worst possible kind to have around when trying to do any form of healing, but especially during a fast. If I had the money, I promise I would be at a fasting center, but it’s simply not feasible and I really feel as though my body can’t be put on hold much longer.  That said, if stress does keep up, I WILL break the fast, as I fully understand the dangers of fasting while stressed.

Fortunately though, I moved past her negative energy relatively quickly because I truly am incredibly confident in my decision to do this. Actually, I haven’t been more sure of anything in awhile and my confidence is only growing every hour that passes. I will be avoiding interaction with her at all costs from here on out, and Jay will be back Sunday to tend to any needs I may have. I am aware that this weakness and exhaustion does subside considerably once the body settles into ketosis, which I am creeping up on very soon. Not that I’ll be exerting myself by any means, I just should be able to get my own water jugs and perhaps fold some laundry, etc. I am into my third day already, which is astounding to me as it doesn’t feel like it at all. The battle with food/hunger wasn’t even as bad as expected because I simply am at my wits end and ready to heal on every level.  It’s not worth giving up, and never will be. Sure, I have daydreamt about ripe and juicy mangoes, but as soon as I realize it, I’m playing a game or putting in a movie. It’s amazing how devoted and motivating true sickness is. Maybe tomorrow will be another story, but right now, I am proud of my strength on every level – physically, emotionally, and mentally. I am just so thankful to be on the true path to health. I am so thankful that I will never have to deal with any chronic conditions, any cancer, any degenerative disease, like 98% of the population does. I am so thankful to be deep cleaning my body now and not 25 years from now.  I am so thankful to have awoken out of the delusion. I am feeling more and more gratitude everyday, despite being ill right now. It is truly beautiful to be aware, and to be on a path of healing.

I look forward to being free from having to use supplements, free from chronic pain, free from gastrointestinal distress, free from candida, free from acne, free from hormonal imbalances, free from adrenal fatigue, and the countless symptoms that come with it! And I am looking especially forward to thriving on a beautiful raw lifestyle of delicious fruits and vegetables like nature intended! Here’s to health and positivity! Much love to each and every one of you.

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Symptoms, Causes, and Plans of Action!

I'm a 23 year old (mostly) raw vegan from Ontario and for the last year I have been healing my body from severe abuse.  In April 2012 I "woke up", and I have been evolving rapidly ever since. My life has been changing dramatically, and I currently find myself at a proverbial "breaking point" where I seem to have to lose everything I know...in order to begin my TRUE path! :) I won't go into detail as to how circumstances in my life lead me to spiritual awakening at this point, that's for another time or another blog, but I am eternally blessed. If I had continued with the path I was on, I may be dead right now, if not from continually abusing my body, then by the depression that was consuming me. 

What am I healing?

Systemic Candida

Molloscum

Severe adrenal fatigue

Muscle abnormalities (spasticity, misalignments, etc)

Migraines

Headaches

Vision abnormalities

Kidney issues (Protein in urine, calcium is getting used up too fast, etc)

Dramatic hormonal imabalances

Leaky gut syndrome

Digestive issues and sensitivities

Lingering depression

Inability to focus

Severe brain fog

Severe cystic acne

Neurological disturbances (twitches, etc)

Temperature issues. (always cold)

Sinus issues 

Weak immune system

I am aware that all symptoms can be interrelated and this is why I am taking a holistic approach to healing! 

What caused this?

Consuming 6+ cans of diet coke a day for 10+ years resulting in kidney damage from the aspartame as well as a multitude of neurological issues.

Consuming food products with aspartame as a sweetener as well.

Eating disorder which resulted in destructive cycles of starvation and binging. 

The only food I would eat, if I was eating at all, was unhealthy, processed, chemical-laden junk, and fast food. 

I went out of my way to abuse my body - no sleep, no nutritious food, no relaxation, no positive thinking, no routines. I felt I deserved the abuse.

Laxative abuse.

Sat in front of a computer screen for years of my life and hardly moved whatsoever. It also caused terrible posture and pain in neck/shoulders/back.

Self harmed (cutting). 

Suicidal thoughts and attempts.

10 years of birth control pill use.

Prolonged antibiotic use.

Use of anti-seizure medication for migraines.

Mercury fillings.

My body is highly sensitive as it is, and leading a lifestyle so destructive is bound to inundate even the healthiest of people with dis-ease! I am just so tremendously thankful that I woke up out of that nightmare before it killed me. 

It should be noted that my severe cystic acne is brought on by quitting the birth control pill, and is probably aggravated by my ongoing detox. Although it is not necessarily directly caused by the years of abuse, it is still a very destructive symptom to have and I am prioritizing correcting it because of how mentally and emotionally draining it is on someone who is already struggling with other physical symptoms and stressful life circumstances.

Plan of Action:

I am going the all natural route for the first time in my life. I have been transitioning to fully raw 80/10/10 style veganism and using this lifestyle as my primary healing modality. I will be using this blog to track my food, exercise, sleep, sunshine, herbal remedies, various healing modalities, emotional and mental well being, and all other aspects of my health.

Healing modalities: I will be using various miscellaneous healing modalities as I discover them, but the following will always remain consistent plans of actions

High carbohydrate low fat raw veganism (80/10/10)

Daily dry skin brushing

Daily oil pulling

Epsom salt baths

Exercise everyday

Bentonite clay masks for acne

3L+ water a day

10+ hours of sleep a night

Sunshine everyday, and IF cloudy, use tanning bed! 

Yoga 3 times a week

Meditation and breathing exercises daily

I am tremendously motivated to dive into this with everything I have! No cutting corners - I deserve health! :)