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[myshyyangel]

Do you still remember me, Diego?

You probably forgot about me, as I did until 2 years ago. I have a horrible memory and for some reason nobody mentioned you again, “why did he leave?” I asked my grandmother. The only thing she could say was “his parents were really strict, that’s all I remember… Oh! and his hair, just like yours so beautiful, and he was so well-mannered, nobody believed he was from the same place as us! I can’t remember more than that…” this is what my grandma said a couple of months ago after I asked about you.

I am surprised she remembers you, my memory started coming back again after she said that; I could only remember your name back then.... you used to play with my hair a lot and I used to play with yours, I hated it. I remember your laugh, it was funny and contagious, apparently people used to say we look alike, and I am sure your parents didn’t like it. I remember how you were at our house from early morning until 11am and then would come back at around 1pm.

I go online trying to find out more about you. Did not find anything, not one single thing. “Diego A…, Diego B…, Diego C…, etc.” no single one of them was you, or maybe it was, and I just couldn’t remember your face 10 or 13 years after I saw you the last time… Now I remember your smile of course, and your big forehead, your laughter after it was mentioned, it started to come back, but not one of those profile pictures looked like you. not a single one.

I asked my other friends, whom I haven’t talked to in years, “you had another friend?”, I deserve it, all those years full of sarcasm, but yes, I did, my family remembers. you went to the same school as me, as my cousins, right? “No, we don’t remember, why are you asking?” Why am I asking. At first, I thought it was because I wanted to debunk the idea that you were an imaginary friend. Then, after I did, I wanted to find out what happened to you, the big question, why? why did you leave? what happened with your parents? are you okay? do you remember me?

Maybe you don’t. and that’s okay. I didn’t either. You wouldn’t believe all of the things that have happened since you left.

Two months later. Today I asked Patricia if she remembers you. She was my best friend in middle school until she left (just like you), the difference is Patricia was still in my life somehow, until high school that is. She had a baby, and I never met them, she went to the USA before I did, and I never saw her again. Then, she added me on social media, and then, she removed me from her list of friends. But I went ahead. “Hey, it’s been a long time, how are you?” no reply.

Two days later. No reply. I texted again. “Hey, I am sorry to bother but, do you remember Diego? I think he used to play with us and your car. You remember that big truck your parents got you, it was pink and blue I think(?). I know we haven’t talked since idk 2013? [smiley emoji face]” Send.

Hours and Hours later. Nothing.

A week later and I saw she left me on read. Maybe you didn’t go to school with us. I went into her friend list, and you are not there. Then maybe, somebody else used to play with us and Patricia's car, maybe, I was not good at making friends so they must have been her friend. I am not worried about them, they are not as important as you.

Three months later. Nothing still. I don’t have any memory back, nothing else comes back.

Two days ago, I decided to start looking again. None of my other friends seem to remember you. And the ones that live closed to us, I do not talk to them after the bullying I suffered in high school from them. I am older, of course I can defend myself, but I don't want to.

I went on Instagram, got a hold on my cousin's account. [typing] "Diego..." 12 different accounts. I clicked on all of them. Even those with a flag that is not ours. Country, I mean. One of them kinda resembles of you. I don't send a friend request. I just stared. Blank. Nothing comes to mind. Do I do this?

Why am I worried about you? Why have I been thinking about you? Why am I struggling to find you?

Maybe it’s because I remember you were my first crush, I realized it the day I remembered playing with your hair. And then I can’t stop thinking about how maybe you left because your parents didn’t like “that”. They didn’t like us; they didn’t like my family? I can tell. Whenever my grandma talks shit about a neighbor is because they were nasty as hell. And that is exactly what she says about your parents, my aunt too says it.

My grandma has changed a lot. After some of us came out to her. Being gay, your parents didn't want you to be that. that’s all it is. but we are in a different society now, we are grown. You are a year older than me. I don’t remember any of your birthdays, I don’t remember you on my birthday, I just remember some of you…

and so, all I want to know is if you are okay, did you get to do whatever you said you wanted to do growing up? did you have a good experience in high school? where did you go? why? do you think of me? do you remember me?

[myshyyangel]

Finally catching up to some BLs, and I have thoughts on #viceversa I know a lot is being said over the leads and their chemistry. And I see where the issue is, which I won’t mention right now. The one thing I hope they do is, (Ki)ll them both at the end of the show. It is the most logical thing to do. It is a good show, love the aesthetic and the acting is giving -in comparison to others BL I have heavily criticized- the script is a little over the place and the direction as well.

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[myshyyangel]

Hi you guys!!

Question of the week (I guess lol)

What is one thing you guys love from recent BLs?

For me is the change in how the main character expresses themselves around their friends. Meaning, how natural the character is to be in love with a man. I noticed this in the past two years. For example, Sarawat friends not being surprised he was pursuing a guy. ATOTS, Phupha is not even afraid or tries o hide it, and the friends are all game for it. How "Lovely writer" touches on this as well - critizing - and most recently, "Enchante". Theo looking for a guy and Akk not even minding it, like he doesn´t even question the why, is more of the "Sir, I am here..." In the case of BB they were not afraid of their friends finding out they liked men, but rather they liked each other. Do you know what I mean? Is like in the past, bl main characters were worried about their friend not accepting them or anything, and now is not like that. Anyway, I know if you are part of the LGBTQ+ community, I know you had friends who were not as accepting as others. Like me, one of my friends stopped talking to me for like 2 months because I was not honest right from the beginning, but aside from that, everybody was very accepting and loving.

Also: here’s a little clip for those who haven’t watch Enchantè

[myshyyangel]

are you guys watching #cutiepie the series? I watched the first ep. And It was nice, actually nothing too out there, or the other way around. What are your thoughts? Click the link in my vio to visit my BL blog #zeepruk #newchawarin #MaxSaran #natnatasitt https://www.instagram.com/p/CaS_7XBrwkx/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

You guys don't understand how excited I am for #kinnporschetheseries #BL #blseries #ThaiBL https://www.instagram.com/p/CaSbqi6L_mc/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

so... No #CupidsLastWish? Okay... I'm in way. #EarthPirapat #MixSahaphap #earthmix #BL #THAIBL #GMMTV #BLOGGER #BlSeries #BLDrama https://www.instagram.com/p/CaQqQSWrnaY/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

You guys don't understand how much I am loving #EnchanteTheSeries. I don't know, it feels nice, like pure, you know? I am sad tho, is only 10 episodes, but please support this series!!! Click the link in my bio for more BL content #BookKasidet #ForceJiratchapong #FlukeGawin #FlukePusit #BoomTharatorn #AouThanaboon #EnchanteTheSeries #EnchanteEP1 #BookForce #TheoxAakk #Theo #Akk #BoyLove #BL #ThaiBL #BlSeries #BLDRama #GMMTV #BadBuddy https://www.instagram.com/p/CaN4Czpr7GG/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

Decided to finish #PaintWithLove after some... Disruption. Click the link in my bio to read my thoughts on the series. #TaeDarvid #SingtoPrachaya #YoonPhusanu #YachtPatsit #MaengmumTanshi #DadaWarinda #CGameSupawit #NattyThanyanan #SimonKessler #SpritePatteerat #GynKorawit #AAPattarabut #MildJinna #BruceSirikorn #PaintWithLove #BL #BLSeries #BlDrama #ThaiBL #GagaOOLala #GayLove #BlActors  https://www.instagram.com/p/CaNSnp6LIUE/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

Visit my blog by clicking the link in my bio! Thank you!! My TOP BLS of all time! #MaxNattapol #TulPakorn #GreatSapol #FoeiPatara #MixSahaphap #EarthPirapat #Khaotung #IanPangilinan #PaoloPangilinan #BlSeries #BLDrama #BoyLove #ThaiBL #KoreanBL #JapaneseBL #BL #MannerOfDeath #ATaleOfThousandStars #LikeIntheMovies #GayaSaPelikula #DarkBlueKiss #LightOnMe #2Gether #History3Trapped #CherryMagic #LovelyWriterTheSeries #BadBuddyTheSeries #BadBuddySeries https://www.instagram.com/p/CaHTxBXrDGc/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

HI!

In case you guys have been missing me! here is a post to update y'all.

So I am back to college, this is my junior year, although I am doing two different degrees at the same time, so I am busier than ever. plus, I have a part-time which looks like a full-time, and I haven't been able to buy a new phone, so I have no storage to download Tumblr on my phone. Anyway, in case you guys want to check my content, check out my blog!

'Bad Buddy' review: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/bad-buddy-review

Thoughts on Enchanté and the hatrs: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/about-enchant%C3%A9

A list of my favorite bls -because, why not?-: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/my-10-top-bls-of-all-time-updated

My ranking of 2021 bls: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/boy-love-series-year-end-review

GMMTV 2022 Reaction *Cupid's Last Wish IS COMING Y'ALL*: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/gmmtv2022-series-trailer-reaction

A little discussion on South Korea BLS: https://souvenirmyshyyange.wixsite.com/website/post/koreans-boy-love-stories

Feel free to join as a member or just to share, I'll really appreciate it, a lot.

[myshyyangel]

What are your top bls of all time???! Check the link in my bio to read MY TOP 10 FAVORITES!! #MannerOfDeath #ATaleOfThousandStars #LikeIntheMovies #GayaSaPelikula #DarkBlueKiss #LightOnMe #2Gether #History3Trapped #CherryMagic #LovelyWriterTheSeries #BadBuddyTheSeries #BadBuddySeries https://www.instagram.com/p/CaDQSVmPLZ7/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

What are your top bls of all time???! Check the link in my bio to read MY TOP 10 FAVORITES!! #MannerOfDeath #ATaleOfThousandStars #LikeIntheMovies #GayaSaPelikula #DarkBlueKiss #LightOnMe #2Gether #History3Trapped #CherryMagic #LovelyWriterTheSeries #BadBuddyTheSeries #BadBuddySeries https://www.instagram.com/p/CaAkGUErmp3/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

Updates from #GMMTV 's director for #EclipseTheSeries. This is actually one of my anticipated (not must, but in between) bls of GMMTV. #Khaotung #BL #THAIBL #BLSERIES #BOYLOVESERIES #BLDRama https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ7ucqSvk2v/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

One week from today, we'll get to see #earthmix new series #CupidsLastWish. How are we feeling!?! As I said in my 'GMMTV 2022' post in my blog, I am actually intrigued as to what this series is going to be!! Check out my blog clicking the link in my bio! #EarthPirapat #MixSahaphap #janployshompoo #whitenawat #gunsmile #BL #THAIBL #GMMTV #BLDRama #ATaleOfThousandStars https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ7JHeXA-9S/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

a lot of highlights from #EnchanteEP3 Really loving the dynamic between all of the characters. It doesn't feel heavy or force, you know? How do you guys feel? Out of the four guys, my favorite is Natee, lol. It's too early but! The guy is just confident. Also, him since EP1: 👁️.👁️ Make sure to check out my blog clicking the link in my bio!! #BookKasidet #ForceJiratchapong #FlukeGawin #FlukePusit #BoomTharatorn #AouThanaboon #EnchanteTheSeries #EnchanteEP1 #BookForce #TheoxAakk #Theo #Akk #BoyLove #BL #ThaiBL #BlSeries #BLDRama #GMMTV https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ4aAB0LtHh/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

[SWIPE] All of us after this scene... Aksjkas Tomorrow is #Enchante DAY! Finally, ugh. Visit my blog on the BIO! #Menteur #EnchanteTheSeries #ENCHANTEEP1 #ENCHANTEEP2 #ENCHANTEEP3 #BookKasidet #ForceJiratchapong #GMMTV #BL #BLSERIES #THAIBL #BOYLOVE #BOYLOVESERIES https://www.instagram.com/p/CZzO7rJLLV7/?utm_medium=tumblr

[myshyyangel]

What are your top bls of all time???! Check the link in my bio to read MY TOP 10 FAVORITES!! #MannerOfDeath #ATaleOfThousandStars #LikeIntheMovies #GayaSaPelikula #DarkBlueKiss #LightOnMe #2Gether #History3Trapped #CherryMagic #LovelyWriterTheSeries #BadBuddyTheSeries #BadBuddySeries https://www.instagram.com/p/CZxQ7iEvL2M/?utm_medium=tumblr