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It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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pics I didn’t post on IG and FB ‘cause I felt like they were too much… but oh well, here we are, blessing your feed with a little bit of me. welcomeee! 😜

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Happy 2nd anniversary to my love!

This year wasn’t as smooth as we hoped. it felt like we were cats and dogs sometimes, fighting over the smallest things. But here we are, still choosing to fight for our love. Thank you for always being the calm in my storms. sabi ko naman sayo, pag ako naman ang meron, babawi ako sayo. :)

here’s to us and to many more years ahead!

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omg hi tumblr!!!

I can’t believe I still have this account HAHHAHAA parang iba na talaga ako since I last posted here, but guess whaaat? I’m backkk, mga ante! life has been so busyyy, so here’s a quick kwento about what happened after our anniversary ni bubbyyy! 💖✨

1. got braces na finally! Pero girl, sobrang shakett!!!like literally chicken ala king lang kinaya ko kasi it’s soft. pero okay tiis ganda! HAHAHA

2. opened Benj’s piggy bank after 1 year! 5k+ insidee!! So proud of my boy🥹

3. had ice cream sa Zapote (forgot the name ng store lol). it was goodd but my mango flavor sucked?? bubby’s order was 10x better. as always🙄

4. took this photo habang nag ddrive si benj papunta sa jeep stop. thursay to monday routine na talaga namin to, he takes me to work and picks me up. free rides w/ ny personal driver HAHAHAHHA

5. got pastil na I’ve been craving FOREVER. pero girl, ang tagal niya dumating and honestly? It was kinda meh lang. but it’s cheap so okay na rinn🤷🏻‍♀️

6. hung out with Marien and Jojo kumain lang kami, tapos we went to Watsons. Nakita ni Marien yung blush na gusto niya so I bought it for her.

life’s been okay these past weeks. nakkadepress bga lang yung same uwi-tulog-pasok routine, pero i’m grateful for my job because it lets me buy the things i want. :)

that’s all for now, miss me guysss!!

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I spent the day in Pampanga, and honestly, it felt so different yet so familiar. Parang ang tagal ko nang nawala, pero the moment I got there, it was like nothing changed. My papa, lola, tita, tito, and even some childhood friends were there to welcome me. Sobrang comforting, parang I was home again.

Walking around the streets I grew up in brought back so many memories. Ang simple lang pero ang saya. Iba talaga yung feel ng Pampanga compared to Cavite, and it’s so refreshing to experience that again.

Of course, I had to spend time with Micka, my kinakapatid. We’ve been close since we were kids, and even though she’s 14 now, she’s still the same makulit and kikay girly. She took me sa motor nya and we stopped by sa 7/11 for snacks. Ang saya lang, pero grabe, never again kami babalik dun na kaming dalawa lang sobrang nakakahiya yung nangyari. Hahaha, let’s leave it at that. T_T

I also visited other relatives like Tita Den, Ate Kim, Kuya Ren, Kuya Josh, and Kuya Carlo. Si Kuya Carlo, ang daming kwento! Love life, life advice, school, lahat may sense. Like, mapapaisip ka talaga habang kausap siya. Sobrang insightful, nakaka-amaze.

Pero syempre, I had to leave at the end of the day. Ang bigat sa heart, lalo na nung paalis na ako. Naiyak talaga ako sa bus thinking about leaving papa and everyone behind. Wala rin akong idea kung kailan ulit ako makakabalik, which made it even harder. Pero ganun talaga, life moves on.

Pagdating ko sa Pasay, ibang hassle naman yung commute pa-Cavite. Ang hirap sumakay ng bus, lalo na rush hour. Hindi ko rin alam na pipila pa pala. Pero ayun, after a long wait, I made it home safely. Six hours of travel, pero okay lang, it’s all part of the adventure daw. T_T

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IT WAS SO FUN !!

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Last last night, nag breakdown ako bcs naiwala ko yung ticket ko para mag take ng entrance exam. I felt like such a dummy because if I lost that thing, it could mean game over for studying at my dream university. And let me tell you, it's the only one nearby, and I can't afford to go anywhere else. Idagdag pa natin yung effort namin ng kaibigan ko na mag pabalik-balik sa registrar office para maipasa yung mga needs na requirements.

So, yeah, I ended up crying. Iyak na hagulgol talaga na never kong ginawa sa harap ni Benj. But you know what? binuhat nya ako papunta sakanya and binuhat like a baby idk kung navivisualize nyo. He was totally shocked, pero tinry nya pa rin na macomfort ako with his words.

I seriously don't know what I would've done without him. Baka napukpok ko na ulo ko o mas worse pa. I'm just so thankful that he listened to me and tried to make me smile. I'm head over heels for this guy, man. Ngayon napapaisip ako, siguro may mabuti akong nagawa para magkaroon ng isang tao na mag iistay sa panahong naguguluhan ako sa sarili ko.

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some pictures that i think showed the "real" me😁

(lol some of my pics here ay lasing aq xori)

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Yeyyy finally i got my parcel na!! this supposed to be a birthday gift for hubby but late na sya dumating. I'm hesitant pa to buy this kasi sabi nila annie "jeje" raw.🤧

Maganda naman eh hahahhaha hindi nga lang sya pang 2023 na but stilll cutee saka ang galing kasi worth it naman pala kasi ang laki pala nya and safe syang dumating sakin plus the seller is responsive rin. 🥰

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Nung birthday mo til now ang saya-saya ko pa rin. I just can't get over it. We used to hide pa to our parents and tell them our mema reasoning for going home late cuz nag date tayo. Tapos ngayon andito tayo sa bahay nyo masayang nanonood ng spongebob while cuddling.

I'm so happy, it's like a big achievement. No more hiding!🥰🥰

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Hello there Juls!

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Happiest birthday to my baby!💗

Thank God talaga kasi he let me know you even more at dahil dun I fell in love with you. With the kind of man that you are? any girl would dream of having someone like you and I’m just so damn lucky that you’re mine! You make things so easy for me bubby. like ALWAYSS. gumagaan lahat! yung paligid ko, nararamdaman ko, mga iniisip ko, kapag alam kong nandyaan ka naka suporta at nakaabang lang. kahit wala kang ginagawa at kahit titigan lang kita, sobrang ramdam ko na sobrang blessed ako kasi meron akong ikaw. you are such a blessing, bubby. 😩💗

I could only imagine yung hard times na tinitiiis mo yung family, acads, or other problems pero andyan ka bubby always so strong and positive. Kaya proud na proud ako sayo!:-*

imagine? meron akong mabait, mapagmahal, mapagbigay, matalino, matyaga, madiskarte, faithful, and sobrang poging bf!!! thank you for everything, bubbyy! for taking care of me and everyone that you love. I could only wish that I’m doing the same for you kasi you deserve only the best. and I will spend my life giving it to you.💗💗

Alam ko naman na walang perfect eh, nagkakamali ka rin, pero lagi lang akong nandito para tulungan ka for the better. we’re partners, okay? kahit ano pa yan bubby, I will always be here for you. magkakampi tayo palagi, okay? ayokong maramdaman mong nag-iisa ka kasi andito ako. kami ng mga friends at pinsan mo.:)

be happy always bubby, because when you are, I am too. I always pray for your happiness, safety, and peace of mind, love love. I’m so proud of the man that you are. and I know that you’ll be a better person each day, and I will always be beside you every step of the way, kahit anong mangyari!

cringe man pakinggan, pero I wish you manyyy many birthdays to come, bubbyyy! maraming marami pa tayo i-ccelebrate, okii??? Sorry kung lagi kong nababanggit na ex mona ako HAHAHAHAH you're such a cutie pie kasi pag umaacting na nag tatampo.

Wala akong ibang gusto kundi makasama ka at makita kang masaya. I am sooo proud of you. of everything you do! sobrang gustong gusto kita ipag-malaki sa kahit kanino and I will forever do that because I am forever grateful to have you!! 🥰💗

Happy birthday ulit my bubby!💗💗💗💗

(yung gift ko wala pa ewan nasan naT_T)

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Yeyyy, today feb 14 I received a BIG chocolate with flowers from my bubbyyyy I really thought we'll just have some date sa labas after our class, but this MAN literally surprised me I DIDN'T EXPECT THATTT😭😭 I just love him so muchhh!! Pero I felt bad kasi wala akong nabigay sakanya.. Bawi na lang siguro ako sa birthday mo😭😭😭

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Today Jan. 05. 2023 I let the most precious man to be my boyfriend.🥰💌

After ALL the wrong packages that God had decided to sent me for me to learn and mature, finally, he has already sent the rightful package for me.

I wasn't planning to be in a relationship yet I found you! I never thought na I'd be with an cute, talented, sporty, and smart person who can sing WELL. Someone who loves my body more than I do. Someone who appreciates me in every kind of way. You always try your best to be a better man even when there are times that i fail to be a better woman. You has always handled my sanity with extra care, you always making me sure that everything will be fine and that I am loved and deserved to be loved. When I'm on the mood swings, you understands. you're very understanding and above all, a very hardworking man. Even though you were sometimes a little childish and makulit, you were really funny, supportive, and I can see naman na you cared about me a lot..

You introduced me the concept of love. Thank you kasi ngayon mas naappreciate ko yung sarili ko. I'm getting comfortable na sa flaws ko. I hope you knows how much I prayed for a man like you.

I thank God so much for now I know that when the rest of the world will leave me, there will be someone who will stay still and will still be willing to offer me the strength he has. I thank God for gifting me a man like bebenj. 🥺✨

Thank you for putting your trust in me heheheh. You have my admiration for having the courage to express your feelings:) Sobrang thank you! I love youuu po!!

Words can't explain how much I love you!

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I remember when I was a kid I often think about the love story between prince philip and sleeping beauty. Their story taught me that people should wait for love rather than rush it or be in a hurry to find it. It is one like Bubby, appeared in my life at the exact time when it was the most necessary.

I don’t even know how this all happened.. It was a lovely coincidence.

We started off as mag kasabay lang sa uwian to friends. Then we had deep late night conversations (and every single message he sent me it made me smile.) Then I started to care about him, on the days he's down, I wanted to do everything to make bubby feel better. I started to appreciate every single part of him, and I thought his hobbies were fascinating and I listened to his favorite musics and it became my favorite as well, I always got excited when he told me more about his friends, bandmates, and his family.

I can’t pinpoint the exact time na narealized kong gusto ko na sya, nafeel ko na lang bigla eh, na "Sure na ako dito, tataya na ulit ako." Medyo matagal bago ko narealize but I think it's worth it naman. Because for me? I enjoyed our friendship, kasi kung hindi dahil dun I'm not able to have a real and DEEPER relationship with him.. Our patience sa pagaantay ng "right time" turned out to be worth it in the end naman eh when we finally confessed our feelings. At first I'm terrified because I'm scared that our relationship might not work out, and lose what we already had with each other. But we chosed to pushed past our fears and trust each other. :))

But ya know? I'm proud lang kasi the relationship we established is more than a typical and ordinary love. Our love to each other makes sense. Sure, we don’t have a perfect relationship, but I would never even want our relationship to be perfect. I want it with flaws. Our flaws make us unique. And I think that's the product of our love.

but I knew that love wasn’t just the cliché feeling of butterflies and a racing heart, despite the fact that I felt that around him. I knew that love was so much more than that.. It's more than kilig and butterflies in my stomach.