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I don't know how to explain it coherently but Dean is an empathetic person who uses a pragmatic mask to try and convince himself that he is unaffected so he doesn't have a breakdown whereas Sam is a pragmatic person who uses an empathetic mask to force himself to be affected because he could easily just move on if needed and they're both trauma responses and it's also the reason why they fundamentally misunderstand each other all the time

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Size kink but its me dominating a guy bigger than me

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The thing about Adam and Ronan’s relationship is the fighting.

“If it had a social security number, Ronan had fought with it” This is the most general, accurate description imaginable. Ronan Lynch is a fighter, because he’s a contrarian, because he’s full of anger, because he doesn’t know what else to be. It is, arguably, his primary character trait - that along with how fiercely he loves (which may or may not go hand in hand). Ronan fights with every character except Matthew and Aurora - both dreams. He snaps at anyone. He is devout and yet irreverent. “The annoying thing about Ronan was always that he was angry when everyone else was calm, and calm when everyone else was angry.” He is a fighter and he’s angry most of the time, and only less so when others are angry (unless he’s especially passionate, ie fighting Declan in the parking lot or Adam at work)

Right before the line “If it had a social security number, Ronan had fought with it” Gansey notes that Adam and Ronan must have fought. The implication being that they fought so regularly, Gansey could pick up on it in two sentences from Adam. The implication being that this is not a big deal. The first interaction we see between Adam and Ronan, they’ve fought such that Adam doesn’t feel welcome at Monmouth (but is still willing to answer Ronan’s phone for some reason, I love them they’re so weird) This also colors all of Adam’s narration of him for his subsequent chapters, and they truthfully still don’t know what to make of each other at this stage of their friendship. But that doesn’t stop Adam from keeping Declan out of Monmouth for Ronan’s sake, and it’s also very clear that they’re comfortable spending time just the two of them. They drive places together, Ronan teaches Adam stick, multiple times Adam is just chilling at Monmouth with just Ronan there. They fight - often - but it never leaves lasting marks on their relationship.

This contrasts with the others’ relationships. Most of the characters fight each other. They’re messy teens with trauma and destiny. They’re all very unique people. It makes sense, and usually, they get over it pretty quickly. But even when the fight ends, it has a lasting emotional ramifications. When Blue and Ronan argue about religion it’s brief but it’s clear that it genuinely hurts Blue’s feelings. When Blue and Gansey fight it’s about disagreement, and it leaves them tense and uncomfortable afterwards. When Adam and Blue fight, it’s always explosive, and is connected to an ongoing arc. When Gansey and Ronan fight, rather than just bicker, they both carry that kind of guilt or whatever you might call it. And Adam and Gansey’s fights go without saying. But Ronan and Adam’s fights never persist in their interactions - when they fight over Ronan’s double getting killed, Adam expects Ronan to just show up at his apartment, maybe apologize, and that will be that. They fight at an ideological level when Adam’s at work - and Ronan says some awful stuff - and then they just move on. It doesn’t linger. In the same mantra where Adam tells himself “Don’ t fight with Gansey. Don’ t fight with Blue. Don’ t fight with Gansey. Don’ t fight with Blue,” - something that he returns to often - he says “There was no point telling himself not to fight with Ronan. They would fight again, because Ronan was still breathing.” That’s a comfortable place in their relationship. It still feels secure. Adam doesn’t have to worry about fighting with Ronan, or bickering or disagreeing with him, because it never makes their relationship feel tenuous the way it does with the others. Ronan fights and Adam fights and so they fight each other and that’s that.

Which brings us to violence. Ronan was raised to be a fighter, taught to box by his father. And he grew up to be angry, something he learned from his father. He’s a violent person, often but not always physically. Adam was raised in violence - he’s used to it and he’s afraid of it; “He had not known to be born afraid, but he’d learned.” They were taught opposite lessons about violence. And while Adam fights very hard against it - “Adam pressed that fist against her bedroom wall. So gently. Though every muscle was knotted, wanting to destroy it.” Ronan embodies it “He’d been angry before, but now he was nothing. Just knuckles and sparks of pain.” And Adam is wholly unconcerned by this, calling him out for punching the wall, unjudgementally telling Gansey that he couldn’t fight Ronan’s demons. Adam is afraid, but he’s not afraid of Ronan being violent, and Ronan never gives him reason to be “the choice was death or hurting Adam”

In a series littered with arguments and altercations Adam and Ronan, two incredibly stubborn, argumentative people who are highly attuned to violence, feel fully comfortable with each other, never feel the need to pull back on their arguments because the fights never change their relationship. They understand each other. They’re good.

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i think the funniest part of dean’s recount of the infamous “you brave little soldier” sam moment in tall tales is the bit where he reassures weepy sam at the end of the interaction because he’s somehow conceptualized that not only is sam this overly emotional wreck but one who depends on dean for comfort and that dean provides that like that is literally so fucking funny to me as if early seasons sam wasn’t one bad mood away from taping dean’s mouth shut for peace and quiet at all times like yeah once every five episodes sam has a hard time about his visions but dean provides base level comfort and the way dean is retelling this moment is like he literally sees himself as sam’s mother hen on a day to day basis i love you dean you’re so odd

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One of my fav authors just said in their authors note that Sam and Dean retire from hunting like Hayao Miyazaki retires from film making. Which is literally soooo perfect…

Like they are DONE. They are OVER IT. Dean gets a job at a garage and watches too much Food Network. Sam’s working on a dissertation on American folklore. And then he’s conducting an oral history section of his thesis and the “Sasquatch” sighting his subject is describing is REALLY starting to sound like a wendigo….

And of course there are other hunters and they could pass it off. But they’re so close and they basically did all the research already and the undergrad Sam hired for help w interview transcription is just gonna keep poking her nose in it if it doesn’t get taken care of soon.

Anyways, this is the last one. After this, they’re DONE. For real this time.

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14 yr old newly presented alpha sam furiously enamored by his pretty, badass older brother who makes eyes at every alpha/beta/omega they meet, who talks back, who smokes, who wears rings and bracelets, heeled lace up boots, hair long in summer bangs brushing his forehead, bloody knuckles, tight jeans, loose band tee’s with his collarbone showing, who won’t let other alphas fuck him but will tease them, flashes of lacy panties showing when he bends over baby’s engine and his shirt rides up, smelling like smoke and gunpowder when he’s pissed, lavender and sex when he’s happy, ruffling sammy’s hair when he’s laughing, shoving his shoulder when he’s teasing, draping his limbs all over sammy’s body like an overgrown octopus, playing music too loud whenever john is gone and pulling sam into a gangly stupid dance, offering him a cigarette when they sit shoulder to shoulder on baby’s hood watching those fireworks go up, watching his eyes and teeth gleam in the dark when he laughs breathlessly after they’ve been chased by the cops, the warmth of his skin and stutter of his pulse when sammy climbs into his bed in winter to wrap his growing gangly limbs around him from behind, the scent of his arousal when he comes back to the hotel room after a hookup bite marks in his neck bruises in his hips when his shirt rides up, eyelashes long fanning against his freckled cheeks when he’s asleep, voice rough with sleep when john drags them out of bed in the middle of the night, pretty pretty pretty infuriating older brother omega dean who would never look at sam twice if they weren’t related

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" After we exorcise Lucifer out of Cas and put him into a new vessel." ↳ 11.18 - HELL’S ANGEL

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"Define semi-functioning, and do not use the words 'hole in the floor.'" ↳ Dean Winchester

Supernatural | S7 EP12 : Time After Time

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I know a lot of the wincest fandom disagrees with this characterization, but little brother Sam who is desperate for big brother’s attention is everything to me

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dean would love being pregnant, having a combination of both sam and him as proof of what the fuck they have going on with each other (after accepting he’s preg ofc) and sam would be freaking the fuck out if he would be a good parent or not, existential crisis etc. also overthinking, stressing out, overanalyzing everything

once the baby is born tho, sam is a natural, he takes a day at a time. dean on the other hand is the one that freaks out and thinks he’s not doing enough. he overthinks what he does after he does it and stresses out if they’re giving the kid the right life. he’s a natural at care-taking but the emotional ~ vulnerable shit he leaves to sam

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girl Sam would literally be masc like as masc as she could get away with and girl Dean would try to teach her how to do mascara and show her cleavage and she'd be like no bc I'm not like other girls I like BOOKS and girl dean would be like ok freak...... you know you could be so hot if you didn't dress like a newsie. And girl Sam would be like. My sister is such a whore. 🙄

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always a girl!dean x sam has something extra special in the ingredients

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buck (911) + sam (spn)

I could recognize him by tits alone

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I love the fact that Sam held Cas' knee twice while Cas was on the verge of death.

And in the second moment he was the only one who calmed Cas down when he was dying and said that everything would be fine while the others stood in shock and were silent :((( I love them too much it hurts

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for jeffmorgans

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MARY, SAM AND THE HUNTER'S LIFE, THE FAMILY BUSINESS: on getting out and coming back