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I looked in the mirror and realized, happiness seems to have left her.

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I looked in the mirror and realized, happiness seems to have left her.

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Did time really heal me like what they always say?

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1am Thoughts

I started writing this at exactly 1am. Just can't sleep with these loud noises in my head so, I decided to post it as a blog. Well, it's not always about love but this time, its what bothers me.

Anyway, here it is. I am so fond of scrolling through my Tumblr feed and then take a screenshot of posts that are relatable. After a few years, just weeks ago, I scanned my gallery to delete some old photos and screenshots. Those screenshots appeared again. There's this one screenshot of a post that somewhat goes like, "Feelings that arises again are feelings that weren't actually gone." It's not the exact words but, the same thought. Do you believe in that?

Here's the thing. I had a crush on someone since we were in Grade 6 (that was a few days before our Graduation Day) and it lasted for 6 years. Well, probably not exactly 6 years since I have to count my moving on stage as still loving him. When I was a freshman, I was so certain that I have really moved on. When my sophomore year was almost over, I started to be bothered again. I started rethinking about him, I don't even know why I started telling God about him in my prayers even if it's almost 4 years since we last met each other.

How do you actually know if you really moved on? Am I really still into him? Or maybe I am simply wondering how's he been doing?

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A Poem All About You -LD Yu I've been trying to ignore this feeling I felt towards you, but no matter how hard I tried, I still ended up admitting that I really admire you. This feeling always wants me to write a poem all about you. However, I keep forcing myself not to. Love has already hurt me a lot of times, which I know I don't deserve. I know my heart and what it deserves. I may have failed to avoid this feeling, but I won't fail myself twice by doing something that will make me fall deeper for you.

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Missed writing diaries now

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imagine a garden where the flowers bloom with the colors of your emotions, reflecting your innermost feelings for all to see

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And most of the time, I see one in the mirror

“I’ve seen a lot of beautiful things with a heavy heart.”

— Albert Camus

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I guess, it is what it is- every laughter ends with sadness...

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Here are some sciencey pick up lines you can use:

1. Will you be the hydrogen to my carbon.

2. You are set A and I am set B so shall we find out our common interests thru a union?

3. Shall we find out our HCF?

4. When I kiss you I expect Newton's Third Law to be in action.

5. Let's be a dipole and have dipole moments.

6. Let's be coherent, make a wavefront and make wavelets together to see our future.

7. Wanna form a mycorrhiza?

8. Your eyes shine brighter than magnesium flame (lmao what in the Apollo-)

9. Are you Ester? Cuz you lookin' fruity!

10. You are the C (cytosine) to my G (guanine).

11. If you are a proton, then I'm a neutron so let's cuddle.

12. You are the electric field to my magnetic field.

13. I can be the photon to your electron if photoelectric effect turns you on.

14. If you are alternating current, I will become the transformer, coz I will reduce your pains and increase your happiness. (My friend's)

15. You're my principal interest and you make my heart race at the rate of 100% and I'm ready to serve you every day per annum.

16. Be the glucose to my insulin receptors. (My friend's)

17. Let's spread the sheets cuz we wanna excel in what we're doing tonight. (Lmao-)

18. Let's not rush and start with induction, shall we?

19. You are my biggest flux.

20. y = mx + b my partner?

21. Be the capsaicin to my water cuz together we can be spicier. (This one is so.... 💀)

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I'm just so tired! I feel like wanting to sleep for whole day, 24 hours but my heart just won't let me. Feeling sleepless again...

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Past Lives (Celine Song, 2023)

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What a dream I wish to be true...

:)

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25 years melt away

And I'm 13 again

Sitting alone

Always at home

I don't have any friends

people are kind

People are mean

It doesn't matter which

I never feel seen

Intellectual

I do honestly know

I'm not the only outcast

But I'm broken

Trauma unspoken

I grew up too fast

And now here we are

In this dynamic again

Fighting with Mom

No fun and no friends

I'm an adult, in theory

Nearing forty

The little girl inside asks

"what the fuck is wrong with me?"

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— Arthur Miller (insp.)

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Before the lights go out

Let's be lovers for a day, In case we won't make it through the night! At least we'll have a story to hold onto  For when the world ends, We know we're not meant to grow old So maybe let's tell each other words We’ve never heard before, Confess our crimes and taste the sky Before it all comes down, Before the earth is fire and ash, Before the lights go out.

~ A. A. Roman