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you monetise a spectacle

to garner sympathy of the world

but only the uneducated

send their thoughts and prayers

you shatter lenses from your victims

to prevent our frantic thumbs

we see what you portray

but we have seen the things you've done

the fists i clench stay by my side

while yours fly with a fault

the knowledge stays far, deep inside

my mind, kept in a vault

we list the names you flash around

hypocrisy in its prime

i send them thoughts and prayers

and your payment will be time

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you speak of me, like the devil

always tripping, never level

how can i believe the path you lead?

you say im a reincarnation

blooming, forming your carnations

when will i believe the love you feed?

thumbs on their paper

fleeting faster, they wager

for your failure to teeth your way to me

and the words you remember

spoken through your behaviour

saying all the ways you wanted me to leave

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v1+2:

shes coming over on monday

tell me all about it the next day

things i do just to hear you

you're thinking it's not hurting me

i love you, love you, love you too deep

things i do just to have you

c:

you'll meet a girl

i'll be happy for a little while

turn off my phone, while i wander my mind for miles

what could've been, if she stayed there, far behind

the games i lose just to see you with a smile

v3:

all my words leave me nothing to say

i'll sit and watch you two, far from my miles away

dont wanna be where the only choice is losing you

b:

and i know that you're happy

and i know you couldn't be if you were stuck here with me

but you're always in my reach

always in my dreams

c:

you'll meet a girl

i'll be happy for a little while

turn off my phone, while i wander my mind for miles

what could've been, if she stayed there, far behind

the games i lose just to see you with a smile

i didnt have to leave all of my dreams behind

can only think of the things you'll do tonight

hands in her hair, while youre staring into her eyes

the things i lose just to see you with a smile

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im only a taker

but i dont take from you

the things that i'd do

that things that i do

i give and i'll give

and i'll give the whole moon

i'll always refuse

and i'll always refuse

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i'll be your broken guitar

i'll be your chopping board

i'll be all the clothes you steal

so long as you're stealing me

i'll be your revenge haircut

i'll be your punching bag

i'll take it, hard as you can

i'll take it

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the pain in my palm so uncomfortably familiar

feelings for faces ive met before yours

didn't anticipate this wave of discomfort

coming to ravish the last that ive got

knots in my stomach of envy and yearn

the fear in my mind like ive made a sharp turn

who are you to take up my dreams and my thoughts

a striking resemblance to all that ive lost

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was it a break or a warning?

falling apart, always pouring

wondering if you just want me to run away?

cold as the night of my mourning

sky turning grey, clouds are pouring

out all the love you've been showering on me

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the path of life

will always steal mine

the worlds that existed

before reaching my prime

will never return

only when i'm no longer

will a chance of recovery

finally uncover

they will convince you

it's what you want

and if you are not

you still give it up

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ARRRGHHHHH

KYSKYSKYSKYS

I HATE YOUUUU

RAAAAAAHHHHHH

OH MY GOOOOOD

WHY IS SHE BAAAACKK

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

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out of touch, you're out of breath.

out from reeling with regret.

straying from the paths and roads unwinding, never taking.

where have i gone, have i wandered too far

from the teenage experience, heads out your car.

riding on empty roads, leaving at 3 -

am i missing connection? im losing the beat..

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i share too much in hopes

someone will love the things they see

and soon, with change, i close my eyes

and drift away their being

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the mirrors turned away

i wont see whats standing right behind me

falling like a tree in a forest where there's just nobody

disappear into the groove

the roads already carved out

ive always wanted to believe i could blend into a crowd

the wind reminds me of where i am

the ground begins to crack and wrestle

weight of living standing on it's chin

and i retrack all of the steps ive made

wont turn and run, but i can wait

walk quietly into a window

i'll always stick out, a mole

i understand what's my role

the powder cannot cover years ive packed into a suitcase

i'll always squeeze out my words

i understand what i blurt

out middle of the night when i toss and turn

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you're beating to the tempo of the beating of my heart,

and i hate too much to slow it down, i've turned it into lust.

they all force me to be gentle, need a way to make it up.

soon you'll hate me for the pain i want, rather it be when we fuck.

you're hiding tears when i'm crying; could this just be a loaded gun?

i dont want you to be someone else so i can have some fun..

but they force me to be gentle, and i hate all that i do.

we both hate these things in everyone, but im needing it from you.

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dent in my fingernail

passing butterflies and snails

learning love is like a mystery

forgive me oh, forgive me please

life only goes when

when youre turning around in your sleep

moments are only missed

if you dont recall what you keep

holding onto difference

forgetting chunks of sleep

dent in my fingernail

remind me life's so bleak

when the morning comes down to take me back

oh the dent in my fingernail

reminds for lifefull nap

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you turn me to a bitter person

noone to blame but myself

i'll spend my years searching for reason

or chuck it to the highest shelf

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you'll find your people i'll be waiting on mine

you'll love another and by myself i'll be fine

when the water gets too murky to thread through all left behind

i'll leave it all behind

somewhere in the mornings i believe in all that's gone

i believe another day was sent to find whatever's lost

till the moonbirds cry for mothers and the sun bids hugs to all

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what was the face you put on trying to fall back in love

falling and watching other people just growing older

i can only remember your face

when my eyelids are shut

i don't get what it means

i don't get why its stuck