nairowbi
nairowbi
Unspoken Definites
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Ruby Anne Welcome to my disorganized thoughts. It is no constellation, neither are they in need of a perusal -- just fragments of my consciousness. There are no inspirational nor encouraging open letters, just a free, undirected prose -- filled with vulnerability, as confusing and stirred as my existence.
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nairowbi · 1 year ago
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Until him, all I knew was a bad kind of love --
A love that was uncertain, draining, and difficult.
The love with him is different.
It is comforting, honest, pure. ♡
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nairowbi · 1 year ago
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my ultimate goal is to make sure i reach my full potential in life. there is a woman i plan to be. i am not her yet. i am still learning, growing, making mistakes, but i will keep working until i become exactly who i aspire and is destined to be.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Deep blue but you painted me golden.
R, Can I keep you forever?
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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And if I asked you to name all the things that you love,
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how long would it take for you to name yourself?
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Camping Trip: Pangasinan Edition
If you're from Pangasinan or Nueva Vizcaya and want to go camping somewhere relatively nearer (instead of going to Baguio, Rizal or Zambales), then you should book your next adventure and nature trip to Malico. This quaint barangay is located in the municipality of San Nicolas, Pangasinan, about 40 kilometers away from the town proper and adjoins the provincial boundary with the province of Nueva Vizcaya. From Mangaldan, it took us roughly 2 hours to get there by car. Currently, the only mode of transportation available is through a private vehicle or motorcycle. Just make sure to be prepared as you drive ahead -- counting more than a hundred twists and turns in the zigzag road going up, Malico might have gotten its name from this. Maliko sa Malico, which means "many turns" or "maraming liko".
We booked our camping trip at Kindao Farmville and Campsite, just 1km before the Malico Viewpoint. You can either bring a tent or rent their A-type cabins: 1-3 pax is worth 1,500 php, while cabins for 3-6 pax is 2,500 php. You can park your car within the vicinity of the registration site or opt to pay additonal 500 php if you want to bring your car inside to carcamp or if you just have so many things to unload from your vehicle.
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We also brought our own stock of food and rented one of their portable butane gas stoves at 250 php to cook rice and our meals for the rest of the overnight stay. We cooked Korean ramen with shabu shabu and melted cheese for dinner, the perfect complimentary comfort food to the cold, chilly weather of Malico.
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Bring marshmallows, hotdogs and beers for the bonfire at night! 1 bundle of bonfire wood is 150 php.
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Also, dont forget to step-up your A game for a highly entertaining night amongst you and your friends -- bring all your card games (uno or pusoy dos would have been fun lol); or those board games that we used to love so much back in the days. In our case, we chose to play the game "Never Have I Ever" while quaffling down on our beers.
Not much is provided per campsite, so it would be a good reminder to bring your own tables, foldable chairs, cooking utensils and emergency lights, as well, for the holistic camping experience. 😉
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Unfortunately, our trip was cut short the next morning because of how crazy the weather turned out. We were met with strong winds and scattered rain showers brought by the Amihan. And so, we decided to leave earlier than what was initially planned. We couldn't sleep soundly inside the cabin all throughout the night because you could wretchedly feel the cabin shaking and rocking along with the strong gusts of the wind.
I would recommend booking your trip there during summer when the weather is ideal. Overall, it was still a very fun, wild and memorable (this is an understatement) experience despite the less favorable weather the following day. I definitely would want to come back there again sometime in the future just to unplug from the world and reconnect more with nature and the company of good friends.
Here's to making memories, one campsite at a time. ♡
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Keeping up with the world is draining, but it doesn't mean that I need to walk fast in order to grow. There is no haste for growth, it is a process that is taken individually. I want to enjoy every step I take without overlooking its beauty and blotches. Experiences will help me get there and not the time the world has set for me, but my own timeline.
"Your purpose is out there. It is up to you to take action while remembering: We don't create the meaning of our lives, we discover it." - excerpt from Ikigai: The Japanese Secret To A Long And Happy Life
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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This is why I still keep my tumblr around. Journaling is what keeps me sane, anon (Tumblr is my online journal, you see). And seeing messages like this truly warms my heart. Thank you for appreciating my blog posts. Looking forward to you joining the Tumblr community! Welcome and see ya around!
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Hey Dad, it's been 9 months since you left us. Sometimes I feel like I'm finally starting to cope better with your loss, but then other days your absence just becomes so unbearable that I'm unable to figure how to circumvent my way out around this grief. I can't outwit nor deceive it tonight, it seems. My heart hurts. My head hurts -- everything hurts. I find myself sulking in the corner. My heart just wells up with all this pent-up love we have for you. I've been learning that there is no "healthy" respectable way to "process" grief or heartbreak and you just have to let it wreak havoc on your brain and body without being mad at yourself about it..
Mom's been so brave, I know she misses you a lot. We all do. I've been thinking a lot lately, and I know its easier said than done but I promise to be brave again next year, I'll make you proud again dad. Carry me through in all my plans and aspirations.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Sometimes it makes me wonder how time passes with us telling stories that can fill in a whole chapter and then slowly transitioning into casual conversations of hi/hellos, then becoming how are you's stuck in my draft and junk folders. We used to mirror each other's sentiments as if our neurons were connected, replaying the same thoughts and feelings, and allowing them to seek validations even if it all seemed absurd. We wrote our dreams into poetry and fiction we never published to the world. We left them hanging until we forgot about them.
Regardless, it was an experience. To create memories, to curate music, as you were once a song in my playlist. I no longer cry over finished and hanging chapters. Now, I can barely recall your lyrics when you play in familiar places. But it is fine, there is nothing heavy in my chest upon hearing the melodies. I still believe we end up meeting different kinds of people for different reasons. Im still thankful for having crossed paths with people I no longer talk to today. I'm letting all these beautiful connections pass through me without any attachments. Because I know, the right things will always stay. You will never lose what is for you.
May we all get to find whatever it is that we're looking for ♡
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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The best thing about the worst days of your life is you get to see the true colors of everyone.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Is it too late to start all over in my 30s? God, prepare me for the things I ask of. 🙏
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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You can aim for my heart, go for blood.
But you'd still miss me in your bones.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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i love how tumblr is just a collection of people who r tender hearted and loving and kind and gentle. people who read poems and cry a lil or hear a song and feel like the lyrics r punching them in the throat. who see an orange and think about how love is stored in sharing the slices. who see the moon and think of all the people who are no longer alive that stared at it the same way you are. who see the ocean and feel the gentle waves brush your skin and think about how the same water has probably brushed against millions of people. who believe that we’re made from stardust and glitter and all things good and magical. like tumblr is just people who believe in the best things possible and share them with other people and we make a community based on love. i think that’s special.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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Knowing when to let go of it all, trusting that what belongs to me will eventually come back in the best ways I deserve.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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I've slowly left people, too, when they weren't giving me peace of mind—that in order for me to be saved from the chaos in my head, I needed to distance myself from certain people. Sometimes we are able to talk about it and other times, it just happens. This is me saying that if I no longer give you the peace of mind you once had before, it's all fine to do the same thing. We outgrow others, and at this point of life, we are not only looking for fun and enjoyment. What we crave for is a simple and serene life—one that is at ease. We all deserve a life that is carefree.
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nairowbi · 2 years ago
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