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Shit.

Sometimes we lean toward isolation so there will be no witnesses to our own self-destructive behaviors

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this is your reminder to start slow and gradually lean into consistency rather than to change your entire routine one fine day. it's okay to start wherever and whenever you feel ready. please don't compare yourself to the highlight reel of people on social media. i promise it's never too late to work on your goals. you don't have to make a drastic change just because it's a new year. time is a social construct and i want nothing more than for you to truly enjoy life at present without worrying too much about the future. you are completely able to achieve goals you have set for yourself, but take it step by step. please avoid burnout and please take rest. wishing you all the best!!

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Me and who 😭😭

me: *looks at my boy for even a second*

me: my sweet boy, my baby boy, my honey boy, my darling boy, my pretty boy, my boy whomst i love dearly, my treasure boy, my angel boy, my handsome boy, lovely boy of mine, my lover boy, my beloved boy, my perfect boy, my precious boy, my dear boy, my good boy, the best boy that happens to be my boy, my

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Things I was grateful for in 2021

i) sunsets and sunrises

h) choco chip cookies

g) thoughts/words/feelings, poetry, literature

f) scrunchies!!!!!!

e) Honoring my feelings and NOT using Freud's defense mechanisms, y'all. Progress.

d) art!!!!!!!!!

c) The strength to hold on

b) Home

a) you 🌸

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Things I was grateful for in 2021: part 2

q) knee length socks

p) Diving head-first into new erstwhile scary situations (growth, yay)

o) Spotify Wrapped season

n) Nov and Dec because I can listen to shit music and it won't reflect on my Wrapped, yayyyy

m) FIXMYCURLS, I LOVE MY HAIR NOW

l) warm scarves/stoles/shawls/everything

k) Football (I'm still a closeted Bayern fan so if anyone asks, just say I'm a Gooner, we'll deal with this later ;-;)

j) flowers

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Things I was grateful for in 2021: part 1

z) SNOW GLOBE BY WATERPARKS, YAAR BAS

y) Nescafe Gold

x) My beautiful, splendid, brilliant girls

w) PSY 204: Psychology of Vulnerability (this paper opened my eyes/heart/soul/mind)

v) Kebabs, grilled chicken, biryani, just... CHICKEN

u) House plants. The low-maintenance kind.

t) Cheese toast, my love

s) Dating apps xD Had to be said. No more about it, bye.

r) Astrology. Weird how planets dictate my personality. Kya kar sakte hain

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Keep it rolling, y'all

We've got this

depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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Pls pls pls

- a stable job I love

- ample money

- a healthy romantic relationship

Things I want in the next 5 years

- a stable job that i love

- enough money to live comfortably and travel

- a fulfulling relationship

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Goddess divine is what mom is

reblog if ur mom is smart and beautiful

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Tell me, how do you grieve the person you no longer are? The things you no longer like, the love you no longer have?

How do you grieve all the things you could've been while celebrating all things you're going to be?

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Things I'm grateful for, today:

1. Sunsets, and the way they give life to the phrase "endings are not always bad"

2. The smell of hot coffee. Let me just say, hot coffee supremacy. Heals your soul.

3. This body I have. Amazing how well it functions despite the bullshit I put it through.

4. Blue pens. Blue ball-point pens. Beautiful, beautiful things.

5. Thick paper. 200 gsm paper. The joy of writing INTENSIFIES, y'all.

6. The fact that time is a social construct and any day could be the weekend if want it to be. On that note, petition to make Wednesday weekend an official thing.

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The perfection of my work can only be attributed to the love by which- for whom- it is done

- unknown

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In experiencing I experience (at Delhi, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRWE1jOFl7f/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Gosh DARN

Brené Brown, Daring Greatly

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I see a lot of people who tell young people–especially young people who are heading into college–that they should “do what they love.” And they’re right. You should do what you love.

But there’s a world of difference between doing what you love for you, and doing what you love for a paycheck. 

I went to undergrad for graphic design and 3-D design–art and more art, I usually say–and I loved it. You know what I didn’t love? Trying to collect my fees from clients. Trying to meet unrealistic, over-simplified or over-specific briefs from people who didn’t know what they were talking about. Coming home, having worked creatively all day, with no creative juice left for the things I wanted to do.

You know what I would tell you instead? Do something that you can be interested in, with people you like.

You don’t have to love it. Loving your work can be a lot, and it often means you have to live in your job 24/7. Some people can do that. Not everyone can, or should.  But if you can find work that’s interesting enough that it doesn’t feel tedious, and people you can enjoy spending your 9-5 with, and you can make money, that’s great! It means you can do the things you love for you.

I’m in law school now. It’s interesting work, and difficult, and I like doing it. I like how complicated it gets, and I like the stories it tells. But I don’t come home and read law journals for fun. I come home, and I sculpt, and I draw, and I paint, and I read. I do these things for me.

And I love it. 

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Louder for the people at the back

Burnout is honestly such a mild word for what people use it to mean. I'm not experiencing "burnout", which sounds so casual and routine that some face masks and a little rest is going to fix it.

My body and mind and even nervous system are stretched to the point that it's going to take a lot more than just a "break" or a few self care tips to recover, and even then, my recovery is just so that I can reenter the spaces that contributed to me being this way in the first place. I'm a little bit more than just burnt out by this.

Workplaces and educational institutions aggressively overwork us, expose us to all kinds of discrimination, which they overlook and gaslight us out of acknowledging, and then constantly ask us to ignore our mental, emotional, and physical needs so that we don't inconvenience them.

We're not burnt out. We're borderline traumatized. Burnout is always talked about like something transient and mild that a little rest and relaxation will fix.

But we're exhausted. We need deep rest and healing. We need new systems. We need new ways of being. The language around burnout just seems like a way of upholding these current violent systems and downplaying their impacts.

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