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my OCD is kind of funny to think about from an outside perspective. like, my weird little brain actually manages to convince me if i don’t write a letter a certain way i WILL die. if i don’t do my laundry right now my house WILL burn down. if i don’t zip up my bag precisely 22 times my friends & family WILL be taken hostage. that’s so stupid.

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i just wish that maybe one day I can be a good enough friend to someone that they’ll check up on me to see if I’m ok. like if i could just get one prívate ‘u ok’ message unprompted i would probably cry. I wish i was good enough to have people care about me

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Non MaDDers/immersive daydreamers please don’t interact

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y'all ever….waste the entirety of your teenage years starving yourself, bingeing and purging and obsessing over food and weight and then…..go into adulthood doing the exact same thing because that’s all you know and the only way you ever learned to cope with Shit. hahaha me too

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Someone just liked this tweet of ours from last year so I might as well share it on here because it’s still relevant 

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When you want to change something in your daydream so now you have to change half the plot to make it work

Don’t rb if you don’t have madd

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OCD

me: I have OCD.

NT: but you aren't, like, obsessively clean and organized!!

me: if I told you about half of my intrusive thoughts and compulsions you would never speak to me again

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it’s amazing how fast I can switch from ‘hey maybe i’m getting better’ to ‘nope shit right back in the deep end’.

i got an awful mark for my end of year exams and i’ve been suicidal since, also b/ping daily which I haven’t done in months. I’m crying constantly. I hate how much my grades impact everything.

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i relapsed in purging last week and since then I haven’t really kept anything down. Easter was a nightmare and I’m so upset that after about 6 months of not puking I’ve gone back into it but the idea of stopping again is terrifying

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kpoppie: omg have u heard bp’s comeback it’s so good

me & my dumbass ed mind: binge purge did WHAT now?

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When you get caught in a full on, pacing, talking to yourself session

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Me researching stuff for my maladaptive daydreams:

Me researching stuff for school:

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“did i say that out loud?”

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we need carbs and we need fats and we need proteins and honestly fuck diet culture for normalizing malnourishment 

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I saw a tumblr post talking about how there’s no stupid reason not to act on suicidal urges, and I realized that the same is true for ED recovery.

There is no dumb reason not to act on behaviors.

JUST cleaned the bathroom and don’t want to get it gross again? Perfect.

Can’t go running because all your shorts are in the laundry? Awesome.

Have to eat lunch because you’re out with a friend and don’t want to be awkward? Fantastic.

“Fine I’ll follow this dumb meal plan but only because I don’t have the time to go back into residential”? Beautiful.

If it’s the small stuff that keeps you from lapsing, so what? You don’t have to love your body and be completely urge-free to still actively work recovery.

One day your reasoning might look like “I’m doing this for my family” or “I’m doing this so I can keep my job,” and eventually there could even come a time when you can say “I’m doing this for me, because I deserve better.”

Even if you don’t get there right away, those thoughts that might feel like dumb excuses can keep saving your life until you can.

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There’s a fine line between “pushing yourself out of your comfort zone” and “pushing yourself into a mental breakdown” and we need to fucking find it and stop encouraging people to do the second in an attempt at making them do the first.

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you ever feel like absolute garbage and then take a nap or just have a snack or something and feel 20 times better and then just be sitting there like a dumAss like wow, you Really Do Need to Eat and Sleep to Survive……..Wild