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I’m in a dark spot in my head.

I’m fighting it, but sometimes I wonder about a world where I went through with it all those years ago.

Where my friend and his family didn’t pass by at just the right moment. Where my emotions didn’t get shaken from the chance encounter and where I didn’t just turn around and go home instead.

This isn’t a spot in my head I like to visit...

But I’m here now. And I want to leave.

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Does anyone even use tumblr anymore?

I guess a few people come on here every now and then to get things out of their system. I don’t even recognize the app/website anymore. But anyways:

Sometimes I feel like it’s time for me to put the camera down. I still take photos that are visually appealing to me and I guess that’s the important part, right? So why do I feel like my work just exists? I admit, nothing I do is earth-shattering or thought-provoking. I just think it looks cool and I’m trying to supplement my bad memory.

But some people know how much goes into pressing that shutter button: Thoughts and emotions... past experiences, even. And to share that collection of everything bundled up in a single image only to have it glazed over by your peers... it’s disheartening. That people didn’t see things the way you did. That they didn’t feel the way you did. That they basically shrugged their shoulders and invalidated what you’ve built up in your head was “good”.

Or do I just stop sharing?

But I want to TRY and evoke something out of others with my work. I want to make a connection so I know that I wasn’t alone in what I saw and felt.

I always falls back to an internal struggle: did I not do enough? Am I working hard enough? Was my work sub-par? (And then there’s the dreaded) Have I hit a plateau?

So I guess that’s where I am. In a place where something that makes me so happy could just as easily drop my light into the shadows. It’s a place where these thoughts end up causing a guilty feeling because I’m afraid I’m just whining.

*sigh*

Do I just give it up?

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I just don't feel good.

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Adulting

I’ve been so distracted:

- The current state of my workplace - Trying to furnish my new home - VW’s diesel issue and how it’s affecting my car

basically I’ve been missing out on the things that have been a part of me for so long. Attending/shooting shows, shooting photos in general, driving for recreation (but hey, fuel ain’t cheap)... Priorities change when you get older, no doubt. But I’ve been trying to hang on to all the things that I enjoy and really make a stand to be able to partake in them. Time isn’t always on my side so I have to take any and all opportunities I can.

(Don’t mind me... just randomly checking in on tumblrrrrrr)

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“I want to be a scientist so I can invent a potion to turn Pokemon cards into real Pokemons.”

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Trying to stay positive despite hitting multiple brick walls. It’s been a frustrating year so far.

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Kualoa Ranch, 2015 (excuse my laziness with the 2016 watermark)

6 years since my first trip and this is still one of my favorite touristy places to visit on Oahu.

Kualoa Ranch, 2011 and 2009

Not much has changed other than more movies/TV shows being filmed (and the submarine from LOST is now on display). This place is still beautiful.

Country>Town

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Oh u love ur mom? Name 3 of her albums

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Don’t apologize for your dog coming up to me, that is exactly what I wanted

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can’t take this foo anywhere

Ayy lmao just woke up

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Shut the fuck up

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I'm ugly-cry-laughing

guy annoying his girlfriend with bad ikea puns

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Once I start noticing shit that I don't like, I either go distant or completely stop fucking with you

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If someone isn't available during your most crucial time, then their presence any other time is useless.

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Shout out to people with persistent nightmares, night terrors, insomnia, sleep apnea, disorders that disrupt slumber, and any other condition that makes sleeping difficult. You know the true meaning of being tired, and you deserve a good night’s rest.