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TO WHOEVER I ACCIDENTLY LIKED THE POST IM EXTREMELY SORRY 😱😱😭😭

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genshin marriage hcs !!

characters included: zhongli and itto

zhongli

offers words of wisdom, not too fluffly, but enough to make you know what decisions you shall make in your path.

either uses childe’s money or made you a cor lapis ring when you got engaged, no in between.

but, he does try making the gifts for you meaningful maybe souvenirs from places he has been or crystals that will later be turned into jewelry for you

he likes talking a lot, this is canon because he doesn’t shut up in the game. he just likes to yap every chance he got 

overall, he is loving and kind towards you and respects you and your boundaries.

itto

like to talk about himself all the time, just doesn’t shut up

proposed to u with a rock ring

or any ring with a oni carved into it, maybe his face

wakes you up at the middle of the night so you and him can get onikabutos and watch ‘em fight

“bro, sweetheart, wake up” he shakes you lightly, watching you closely if you woke up. you didn’t so he did it again and again until you awoke from your sleep. “what??” “let’s catch onikabuto” “what 😐”

so damn LOUD he talks like he is the only dude in the room

the type of person to look at the person behind the two of you when you specifically said not to look behind him

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twilight: nightmare on forks

by serenity darkmoon...raven??

genre: lord knows what this generator came up with oh my god

pairing: karasu x you

site: http://fanficmaker.com/

"Wait," said Serenity Darkmoon Raven to Y/n. "Waitup!"

Y/n waited for her to arrive.

~~~United forever in friendship and labour,

Our mighty republics will ever endure. ~~~

"I have to tell you something," Serenity Darkmoon Raven said while she barely dared to look at Y/n.

"What is it," Y/n said, "You can tell me anything."

~~~The Great Soviet Union will live through the ages.

The dream of a people their fortress secure.~~~

"It's.... I think.... I'm not sure but... oh gosh, I'm embarrising myself, Serenity Darkmoon Raven said with the cuttest giggle Y/n had ever seen her show.

~~~Long live our Soviet motherland,

Built by the people's mighty hand.

Long live our people, united and free.

Strong in our friendship tried by fire.~~~

"I think I... I think I love Karasu!"

And with those words, Y/n's heart sank. Because really... really she loved Serenity Darkmoon Raven.

~~~Long may our crimson flag inspire,

Shining in glory for all men to see.~~~

Y/n sat there, at home, in Forks. But she didn't want to go anywhere. The weigh on her heart was too heavy to bare. And so she laid down on her bed and stared at the ceiling while listening to her favourite songs.

~~~Through days dark and stormy where Great Lenin lead us

Our eyes saw the bright sun of freedom above

And Stalin our leader with faith in the people,

Inspired us to build up the land that we love.~~~

Y/n then rose up again. She would not give up that easily! No, Serenity Darkmoon Raven's love would be hers!

~~~Long live our Soviet motherland,

Built by the people's mighty hand.

Long live our people, united and free.

Strong in our friendship tried by fire.

Long may our crimson flag inspire,

Shining in glory for all men to see.~~~

"Serenity Darkmoon Raven!" Y/n yelled. She looked up. She with her beautiful coconutlike eyes. Y/n couldn't wait to tell her her true feelings!

Serenity Darkmoon Raven, Y/n said with a quivering lip. Her heart beating like a drum.

"I love you."

~~~We fought for the future, destroyed the invaders,

And brought to our homeland the laurels of fame.

Our glory will live in the memory of nations

And all generations will honour her name.~~~

Serenity Darkmoon Raven looked up at her and said those simple, beautiful words: "I think I love you too."

~~~Long live our Soviet motherland,

Built by the people's mighty hand.

Long live our people, united and free.

Strong in our friendship tried by fire.

Long may our crimson flag inspire,

Shining in glory for all men to see.~~~

---

Meanwhile, Y/ns mind was wondered back to the past. The good old days....

It was Sakuras halloween party, which everyone was invited too.

The party was awesome as always, because Shidou was hosting it.

Y/n was pretty drunk that day.

If Y/n was honest, She couldn't remember much that happened.

Only something about a tree,a rabbi and a traffic cone.

There was one thing that stuck in Her mind though. Something She would never forget.

Karasu.

Karasu was wearing a Sakura mask that night (it was a fancy dress party btw - A/N).

It was one of the best costumes at the party.

Everyone had come as something or someone else.

No one could recognize anyone else because everyone had bits of their bodies covered;

KARASU WAS DRESSed as SERENITY DARKMOON RAVEN.

SERENITY DARKMOON RAVEN WAS DRESSed as SAKURA.

SAKURA WAS DRESSed as Y/n.

Y/n was dressed as Shidou.

And Shidou was dressed as a rolled up paper.

Y/n had no idea which person Karasu was! At the top they were strangers. But they would become much more!

Y/n was instantly attracted to Karasu in Him costume. The way He moved. The way He talked.The way He flicked His hair.

Karasu was doing a Karaoke number.

It was "a whole new world". And He was awesome.

He sung like a true seductor.The audience was miasmarised by Karasu.

Despite Her crushing shyness,and fear of people judging him,Y/n got up and sang too.

When Karasu was singing a whole new world it was like the words spoke to Her. Karasu seemed to be addressing each word of the song just to Her. The room faded away and it was just the two of them. No one else in the world.

They gazed into eachother eyes as Karasu spoke the last lyric.

Then silence.

Suddenly, Y/n was woken out of the flashback by the present

---

---

The next time they saw eachother Karasu winked at Y/n, remembering what happened at the party.Y/n blushed.

Some of the others giggled. Did they know? Y/n didn't care.

----

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Y/n had some time before he had to do anything, so She decided to have another flashback.

It was just after the Karaoke. They had stepped of the stage to loud applause and were now looking at eachother.

"Hi" Y/n said, meekly.

"Hay" Karasu said, also meekly. Their confidence from moments ago had evaporated like alcohol.

"Do you want too..."

"maybe.."

"ok then."

So they walked to the cloakroom.

It wasn't long before their lips were together. Y/n couldn't remember who made the first move.

She did remember the taste though. The taste of Karasu.

Karasu tasted like passionfruit on a winter noon.

Refreshing and salty but also a bit sour.

What had they been eating? Y/n tried to work out it. It took much tung work.

After a few minutes mouth to mouth pot holing, Karasu guessed what Y/n was doing.

"I had redcurrant for lunch."

"oh"

"you dont have to stop though"

"oh. Good!" Y/n said, with great relief.

They finally drew away after what seemed a whole week but was only mere minutes.

The taste of Karasu's lips still lingered in Y/n's mouth as they finally looked upon each other with new eyes.

Relieved sighs came from both of them as both embraced, Karasu snuggling against Y/n's neck as he snuggled upto Karasu's torso.

(lots of hugging happened after this).

. They had a lot of..."fun".

"Sorry about that, I got a little carried away" said Y/n.

"Thats ok I.....enjoyed it." said Karasu blushing in the way they always did.

"Tomorrow?"

"Yes" said Karasu.

"I'll bring some of my toys next time for us to play with" said Y/n.

And with that they left the cloakroom and returned to the party. The months that followed were fun but they never told their friends.

a/n: i do not know what just happened ☹️

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[navieli]

we will never be parted.

genre: fluff/angst?

pairing: shidou and u

a/n: this is from a fanfic generator and oh my god its so good so im sharing it but i swear i’m trying to come up with something orginal 🤣  i couldn't also find a gn option so ☹️

site: http://suegen.azureye.net/mygame/index.html

Y/n, a seraphic woman of unquestionable ability, stood alone on the beach, gazing over the cobalt water with her guileless opaline spheres. Her color-mixed hair rustled lightly in the ocean breeze. She smiled to herself with anticipation, resting her cheek against one hand as she traced a finger along her silver necklace. She wore a sorrel shirt that left her many-colored arms bare and cocoa shorts that looked comfortable and easy to wear. Her heterochromatic locks brushed against her earlobes, complementing her caring opaline visage. She stood, awaiting her love.

They had known each other since they were children. They had spent time together so often that, despite all differences, others often mistook them as siblings. However, it was not until recently that they had recognized their feelings for each other. From then on, they were inseparable. They shared every part of their life with each other. That was how it was to this very day.

"Y/n," Shidou said simply with a smile on his face. His indigo globes complimented his lemon-colored coiffure, belying his unique heart. He was dressed in that exotic fashion in which he was most comfortable. He had a toned but slender body covered with russet skin. As Y/n drew nearer, she caught a note of his familiar reek of tavern ale. She smiled to herself. It always reminded her of the time they shared.

"Oh, Shidou! You came!" Y/n said breathlessly, reaching out to take him into an embrace. He let her hug him, seeming almost embarrassed about it as he patted her back. With that, they began to walk along the beach.

"What have you been doing lately?" Y/n asked.

"You know. Sneaking around. Saving the world. Sweeping a fine lady off her feet." Shidou gave her a self-assured grin. "Other than that? Nothing important."

She laughed and lightly shoved his arm. "Oh, you. You're such a..."

"Rogue? Beast? Uncontested master of awesome?"

"Rogue," she said lightly. "Definitely rogue." Shidou leered at her before reaching to ruffle her hair, leaving her many-colored mane askew. "Oh, stop it!" she protested lightly, running her fingers back through her hair to straighten it out, all the while smiling. Shidou grinned. Shidou lapsed momentarily into an uncharacteristic silence. Y/n angled her head in response. "What is it?"

"I just keep thinking about how long it's been since we met, you know. How many years has it even been?" Shidou momentarily made a show of counting on her fingers. "Damn, I've lost track."

Y/n shrugged and looked away. For a moment, Shidou's heart hammered in his chest, but then she looked back toward him and he saw that she was blushing. "We've been through a lot together."

That was the truth. She tried to remember just how long it was since they'd met -- but before she had a chance to, she found Shidou's fingers under her chin, tilting up her face to press their lips together.

When they parted, Y/n's depths ran speechlessly across Shidou's face. "We're in public," she whispered.

"I know."

Then she looped her arms around his neck, and did it again.

After a few moments, they found themselves walking down the beach again. It seemed to Y/n that something had been bothering Shidou for the last few hours -- or maybe longer than that. His daring hardened amethyst orbs were cast down and away, focused upon nothing in particular.

She really didn't want him to be troubled. She felt his pain as if it were her own. Tilting her head, she murmured, "Shidou... what's wrong?"

"Y/n... it's, just..."

Y/n slipped both of her hands into his, gazing into his spirited but morose depths. "Shidou... I'll listen."

He took a deep breath and gazed back into her many-colored crystals with a look full of rebellious sadness, whispering, "I wasn't... people weren't very... fond of me. I just didn't belong there. I was a child. I didn't have a choice. I had to live with their scorn, heh. It's just something that happens... when you're like me. It burns... did they ever know that? That it hurts...."

Y/n listened quietly, pain flashing across her features as Shidou recounted his sorrows. At last, he finished, and a moment of silence passed between them.

He seemed so wretched and unsure. She brought her head against his chest in reassurance, murmuring, "Shidou... I... I don't know what it's like, to live with your childhood ostracization... but... I'm sorry, Shidou. I wish... I wish I could help." Shidou's eyes began to redden, and he abruptly pulled her into a fierce embrace. Her depths widened at first, but then she too felt overwhelmed by emotion and succumbed to the warmth of his touch.

"You," Shidou whispered, his breath hot on her ear. "As long as you're here, I'll be all right." They held each other as tears trickled down cheeks and dripped onto the shifting sands to be carried away into the sea. With time and soothing embraces, their pain dissipated into a mist swept out by the ocean breeze and into the setting sun.

They basked in each other's quiet companionship for a few moments.

"Look... it's the sunset."

Y/n lifted her head at Shidou's words to behold the dying sun's tangerine radiance. "How beautiful."

After a moment of silence, he took Y/n's hands in his and said quietly and seriously, "Y/n, I need to say something. Without you, I would be the sea without the moon -- the moon without the sun -- a fishing rod without a hook. Heh, you're adorable when you smile. But... you're special to me. I'm serious."

"Shidou," she breathed in response. "You are special to me too. You are my moon and stars."

He brought their clasped hands to his lips. "Then... so long as you will it, we will never be parted."

Y/n sighed with contentment and brought him closer. She gazed at the beautiful blonde rays of the falling sun, thinking about everything that had transpired on this day and all that would pass between them.

"You'll hurt your eyes doing that," Shidou added.

Y/n looked at him instead. "I love you, Shidou."

"I love you too, Y/n."

Their lips met, and color-mixed strands met aurulent ones, aflame in the dying light. The sand was their witness and the rumbling ocean their approving audience, and Shidou, her eternally faithful lover. Y/n thought to herself that nothing could be more perfect in the world.

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[navieli]

man i wish weather in the uae was like this all the time bru

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this is gonna be so new i will use this fanfic generator for blue lock and see where it will take me 👹

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did i just catch covid 💀

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bllk marriage hcs !!

characters included: isagi, sae, shidou, oliver, rin, bachira, and reo.

isagi yoichi

he is one of the jackpots here 🙏🏽 he is so caring and loving towards u

he would cook and clean when you're sick and help you with the cooking

his dates would mostly consist of picnics and going to the cinema

always kisses u on the cheek when u go to work, kisses u goodnight 2

i bet when u 2 were still in high school he would make those spotify playlists or post corny stuff on his stories abt u

shidou ryusei

"the nigga was too stunned to speak 😱" he literally threw rocks at ur window one time when u were taking care of ur friend's kid and when u opened it he hit u in ur eye 🗿

crushes u in cuddling

he is very clingy like a koala 😦 especially when he is sick

wallahi he is so energetic he likes to manga shop with you and talk about dumb stuff for ages

conspiracy theorist

wakes u up for late night drives

bachira meguru

he is so cute

a lot of energy

he would teach ur kid on how to play football

would bring/wear a floatie when swimming 🙁

kisses u everywhere and compliments u daily

itoshi sae

he loves u silently and enjoys silence between the two of u

he would take u out on museum dates or to an art gallery and explain each art to u

"do u understand?" "sure we can say that 🗿"

he would want his kid to be like him someday and become a football star

#1 daddy to ur kids

spoils u a bit too much and buys u souvenirs when he is out playing a match in a diff country

oliver aiku

would make his kid annoying just like him, no questions asked.

pranks you everytime or tries to scare u

once he ran from u and hid behind the door with ur son and he was so tired to the point u could hear him breathing

at least the two of you have your life stable, for now

he knows what to say to u to make u feel at ease

i think he likes poetry 😮

itoshi rin

he is rather shy in the first week of your marriage

he doesn't really know how to pull himself together 🗿

u caught him once searching "how to plan dates for your wife" in google and teased him about it for the rest of the day

after a few months together, he gradually starts to become sweeter amd kind to you

he likes to spoil u a lot and buys u random stuff like a pet owl

anger issues, no doubt about it.

appreciates u supporting him when its his football matches

reo mikage

rich

he spoils you a lot and buyed u a sapphire ring once because u loved princess diana's ring

he gifts you flowers to make up for being so busy at practice

he knows the best restaurants in the city

likes movie dates at home if you're sick

big show off

likes to talk a lot so he shares the knowledge he has with you

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[navieli]

im gonna makr marriage hcs for genshin and bllk 😈

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bllk

emperor! rin x fem! reader x prince! sae

yandere shidou

marriage hcs

we will never be parted

twilight: nightmare on forks

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my requests r open i ran out of ideas for genshin and bllk 🙏🏽

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yandere shidou just following you everywhere and forcing you to do things out of your will "cmon babe whats wrong with a little fun? hm?"

[navieli]

Emperor! Itoshi Rin x f! reader x Prince! Sae

genre: angst/fluff?

warnings: pregnancy and death

wc: 3.3k

a/n: ok i edited it and plz give me tips on how to improve i dont wanna make msiatelsks int eh futuee 🗿

Your court ladies surrounded you as they decorated your hair with hairpins gifted by the Empress dowager, you silently stared at the mirror as you were just promoted to a Concubine by the Emperor. This would have never happened if Sae would have just waited for you, he promised he would wait for you.

Had he not married the court lady of the Empress and waited just for a little, you would have tolerated that jail cell.

You had entered the Palace to figure out the death of your brother, so you started from the lowest of ranks and became an Embroidery Maid. Your skills were extremely praised, the way your delicate fingers pick up the needle and thread the patterns carefully, making sure each stitch was to your mistress's liking.

Perhaps Madam Liu regarded you with respect solely for your excellent needlework, your bold words and harsh gaze were criticized by Madam Liu more than once. Your peers harbored the feeling of envy against you, mainly because you were picked to do the jobs that would get the most attention. But, you were lucky enough to have gained a friend.

Though she was only one, you cherished her as if she was your sister.

Li Xiu was her name.

She was clumsy at needlework but always had this optimistic look wherever she went with you.

That is until one fateful day, a thread gifted by the Emperor was stolen when you went to go eat dinner. The Emperor would surely have your head if he knew what happened!

Li Xiu was so naïve.

She was caught by Chief Wu holding the thread in her hands at night and was sentenced to death by 80 strokes of the cane.

You didn't believe she did it so you investigated the matter, she was tricked by your peer out of envy.

You had moved on from the matter and was chosen to be Her Majesty's court lady. You obliged and worked towards her favor, which was eventually given. She favored you out of her two court ladies which she was close to, Ming Yue and Lian. Ming Yue was cold and harsh towards you and envied the trust Her Majesty had instilled in you.

Lian was kind and considerate towards you since you just started, you had faced many hardships ever since you became her court lady.

One accusation after another came for you.

Of course, you met Itoshi Sae. He frequently visits the Empress after she became his sister-in-law, supposedly he should have become Emperor. But, he has fallen out of favor and stayed as the Prince. You suspect he was the one who killed your brother.

So, you acted nice and innocent in front of him. When in fact you have tried to sabotage him twice, first with boiling water and second with handing him salt to season his food when it wasn't allowed during the event as was said by the Emperor "An insult to our ancestors." 

But, things had started to turn south. You had fallen in love with Sae on accident, you didn't want to deny it any longer so you acted on your feelings. You had made a perfume pouch for him and planned on giving it to him today, you were impressed with your needlework, it had delicate but such an intricate design to it. The splash of colors seen on the pouch was truly beautiful.

You hummed as you made your way to his office, the optimistic look on your face would have scared the Empress by now since she hasn't seen you be this happy before. You just felt so excited with the gift in your hands, you made your way to his office carefully looking left and right to see if anyone was there, no one could be found.

Were there no Eunuchs tending to him?

You didn't pay attention—nor did you care if anyone could have seen you or not. You knocked on his door and entered his office, he was busy with the paperwork given to him by his little brother. His glasses were hanging from the tip of his nose, eyes carefully scanning the document laid before him. He looks up and notices you, "Y/n, what are you doing here? Someone could have seen you," you knew what you did was careless, but you wanted to hand the pouch to him. He notices that you were hiding something behind your back and stands up from his seat and walks to you.

"What are you hiding behind your back?" 

He slowly walks up to you as you walk away with each step he took, you slowly smile and reveal the pouch bringing it close to his face. He backs away and grabs it from you, he admires the embroidery and gives a soft smile. "You made this?"

"You like it?"

He nods and attaches it to his belt. The fragrant smell from the pouch filled the room, he looked back at you and said his thanks.

A few weeks later and everything has been going smoothly, you rarely made a mistake that could put your life in danger. But, someone had accused you of stealing and abusing the Fifth Prince, you pleaded to the Empress but even she, who had favored you couldn't save you.

You were sent to the labor house and were whipped if you didn't do a task right, the precious hands of yours which you have taken care of was now filled with scratches and wounds from the harsh labor.

You didn't know how much of this you could handle, the tasks given were getting harder and harder every day. You couldn't recall when was the last time you were properly dressed. Why were you falsely accused by a Consort? Did she feel threatened by you?

It didn't matter, you were probably gonna stay here forever.

One night when you were busy washing the last of the buckets, you saw Sae sneaking in when you turned your head to look he was asking you to go over to him. 

You obliged and wiped your wet hands on your skirt and quickly went to him, "Sae, what are you doing here? Someone might've seen you!"

You were quick to scold him and he shook his head. "It doesn't matter, I came to see you"

"Sae...you are a Prince, I am just a mere labor slave in this Empire"

Had you finally opened your eyes? Did you finally see how out of reach he was?

Too many thoughts occupied your head, tears threatening to fall. "Why do you look so sad?" He asks, nearing you. You backed away and bit your lip, you had finally noticed his advances towards you.

You had made a grave mistake.

You shouldn't have advanced towards him knowing it would have ended up this way. "Your Highness, I have to finish my work if you excuse me—" He notices the sudden formality and nears you again. "What is with the title? Speak to me as Itoshi Sae" 

"Your Highness, that would be..."

"Inappropriate? I don't care" Your eyebrows furrowed, unsure of what to do. He looks at the ground before he says a word to you again, hesitant with what he will say to you. "Marry me, Y/n"

"What?"

"Marry me" You were shocked with what he had to say, was he sure with what he said just now? "Sae..."

"Even if I had to wait three autumns for you to come to me, even if I am forced to meet you in my next life. Please, accept my marriage proposal" Tears had then started to fall, you bit your lip to prevent yourself from whimpering. This was all too much, "Y/n?" 

"...Do you promise to wait?" 

What were you saying?

"I promise, even if I had to plead with my brother, I promise you I will wait" He wraps his arms around you and runs his finger through your hair, and kisses your forehead.

"I promise"

 Why did he lie?

He promised you.

—He swore.

"What do you mean he is marrying Lian? Ming Yue, surely you jest?" Ming Yue shook her head and said "They're getting married, Y/n" Weren't you loved by Sae? Didn't you bask in his affection?

He had you first—he had you!

"...I see"

You continued serving the Empress and crossed paths with the Emperor, though you never tried talking to him, he approached you first. "You there, come here"

He beckons you to come to him and you went to him, "I greet his Imperial Majesty." He looks at you from top to bottom and he frowns, "My Empress is close to someone foul-mouthed as you?" Your mouth gapes open, but not too noticeable.

'What did he just say?!'

"Your Majesty, I am not foul-mouthed" You reply, he raises an eyebrow and says "So I'm wrong?"

"Yes, Your Majesty, you are wrong."

"Hmph" He scoffs and turns his back on you walking out of the Empress's palace. "Foul-mouthed my foot"

Things were going great until the Empress killed herself. What drove her to suicide? Ah, the death of her baby. The prince who was just six months old died in a fire that was meticulously planned by Noble Consort Zhang, she was sentenced to death after the case was investigated. Then, Noble Consort Lin became Empress.

The Emperor had quickly started to catch onto you, he kept asking for your presence and asked for you to stay the night with him so he could teach you calligraphy. The Imperial Harem found it odd, but what could you do? The words of the Emperor aren't to be denied or to be disagreed with. 

Itoshi Rin knew what he has done.

Before Sae accepted the marriage bestowed by the Emperor, his brother, he pleaded more than once to marry you. He even got on his knees for you, why was Rin so selfish?

Did he want you all to himself?

He told Sae that she was unruly, unfit, and foul-mouthed to be his wife. Then why is he getting the letter that he is planning on making you his Concubine?

He was so, so selfish.

It was Empress Dowager's birthday and so you thought of making a surprise by the order of the Empress. You had taken care of the birds and now they were sent to the Empress Dowager, you glanced at the Harem and their Majesties staring at the birds in their cage. So, they ordered for it to be released.

The colors the birds had on them wowed the Empress Dowager, she smiled as she turned to look at the Emperor she asked, "Who took care of these birds?" You slowly came forward and bowed. You glance up and say "I took care of these birds"

"You did? What is the name of this bird?" You stand up and turn your head to look at the birds which were freely flying in the sky, you didn't know what the name of the birds was, you just took care of them. "Your Majesty, I am not sure with the type of birds I took care of...maybe they are a Phoenix or maybe God sent a sign?"

The consorts started to giggle making your eyebrows furrow, what exactly was so funny? "Tell me, can you prove that these 'Phoenixes' are a gift from God?" You glanced at Rin and sighed, there's no going back now.

"Chamberlain Yu, please drop these Koi's in the water" You handed him a bucket of Koi's, he took them and dropped each one of them in the river. You patiently waited along with the consorts, eager to see what will happen.

Anxiety had started to rise after five minutes of seeing nothing forming in the river, you fiddled with your fingers and squinted your eyes. "Hmph, is this a sign from the heavens? We should flog her if she's lying" Consort Ling said, laughing in the process as she eyed you. One minute later, the Koi's started swimming in a specific line. Empress Dowager saw and then pointed at it making everyone turn their heads to look at the river.

"It's forming the word longevity!"

You looked at the water and smiled, what you had planned nights before worked. You went down on your knees and bowed on the floor, "This must mean that God has sent a gift and want you to live a long and prosperous life! Long live her Majesty"

"Long live Her Majesty!"

Empress Dowager snickered and shook her head, she looked amazed by the koi. Are old people this gullible? You weren't sure, but telling on yourself would make her mood change. "This maid surely must be auspicious in life, I promote you to a Concubine of his Majesty"

Your eyes widen, you didn't know what to say. You simply only wanted to present a gift to Her Majesty but, now you become a part of his Harem? "...I thank Her Majesty for showing me such grace"

All of that was three years ago now, this is where you were. A concubine of His Majesty that was constantly attacked and falsely accused, it didn't matter since Itoshi Rin already favored you. He would visit you constantly at night to either teach you how to do calligraphy, play an instrument, or just stay by your side.

The consorts were envious of this, pleading to his Majesty more than once that you are foul-mouthed and placing corruption in the Harem as if their fathers and forefathers weren't blinded by money and power.

 It didn't matter, you had the Emperor's affection, the only path to survival is his affection. Lest you be beheaded in a day by one of the silliest accusations made by the Harem.

You were busy sitting on your bed in your nightwear, you assumed that Rin was going to visit you tonight. You can't help but reminiscence about the past, you missed Sae. He came back from the battlefield with victory placed in his hands, that was only a month ago. He met with you once and you recall him saying "Even if you don't want my help, I will help you from the shadows," he kept his word and helped you when you were in need. Especially that one time you were banished to the Cold Palace for the accusation of attempted murder on Noble Consort Yu.

While you were busy thinking, you heard a knock on your door that came with footsteps that led to your bedroom. You were correct, Rin had visited you again.

"Y/n" He sat next to you and kissed your forehead, "Have you been well? I was too busy with work" You sighed and laid your head on his shoulder, "I can manage well without Your Majesty visiting me all the time"

He scoffs and stares at you. "Imperial Physician Ye said that you have been having dizzy spells, rest and get better"

"Is it fine if I...see Sae?"

"What?" He stood up and glared at you, his eyebrows furrowed with a clear look of dismay on his face. "Sae—I want to see Sae"

"No."

"Why? Why can't I visit him?" You stood up and asked, at this point you were frustrated. Three whole years—you have been patiently waiting just to ask why didn't he wait? "You are my Concubine, I do not want to see you with any other but me"

"I just want to know something—it will be quick"

"I said no and I have already sent him to go to war" Your eyes widen, war again? This is ridiculous. "War again? The rebels have started to attack...?"

"It seems so, but even if they weren't attacking, I forbid you to go see him," you didn't press on any longer, you were tired of talking about Sae.

"I understand, I will rest now. Please take your leave" You entered your blanket and faced away from him, you didn't want to see or talk to him right now. Rin stood there silently and didn't allow himself to talk any further, he knows anything he will say next will be him thinking selfishly.

He doesn't want to feign ignorance.

—You still have feelings for Sae. What was there to deny?

This feeling in his chest feels so suffocating, like a lump stuck in his throat. He was favored, he was chosen so why does everything in life seem to be favoring his brother? Everything he wants, he can ask for. But, you? You were just out of reach for him.

Though you were with him physically, your heart is in the hand of another man.

He understood it now, he needed to take you by force or separate the two of you.

This is how far his selfishness can go—the desire to have and own everything in this life.

Now, not another two months later, you lay on your bed and stared at the ceiling. You were pregnant with Rin's child and sick, you were bitten by a poisonous insect and it was eating you and your baby alive.

You were in such pain you couldn't walk or stand properly.

Rin was by your side, he caressed your hands as you sniffled. The sickness was getting harder to live by every day, you both could hear footsteps coming from the hallway.

It was Chamberlain Wu, he had come to report on the war. "I will come back, I promise" Rin kisses your hand and leaves the room. Once he had left, you felt blood bubbling from your throat, "Blegh!"

You spit out blood and grabbed the handkerchief and wiped your mouth with it. "Your Highness...!!" Your court lady and Eunuch came to your aide and quickly called for the Doctor. You drank the water given by the Imperial Physician and laid back down, your vision started to blur then you passed out.

You woke up with the sun shining on your face, in the corner of your eye you saw Sae's friend, you sat up and looked at him. "Shidou? Aren't you supposed to be with Sae at war?"

"Why are you...?" You sighed and grabbed onto the bedsheets, trying your best to maintain your composure. "We defeated the rebels, I come now to report the memorial"

You breathed out a sigh of relief. "I knew Sae would win...is he returning with the main army?"

Shidou stayed silent and his eyebrows furrowed, "Of course he is back you got me the antidote right? That's why I woke up just now"

"We acquired the sacred plant, it was in a place filled with mosquitoes. It can preserve beauty, youth, and has great healing properties." Shidou states, you looked at your hand to see it fully healed and smiled. You wanted to see Sae and thank him.

"Where is Sae?"

Shidou looks away and hesitated in his speech, "Sae...contracted malaria and continued to front in the battlefield despite me persuading to not do so," you stood up and dropped the glass you were holding. "Sae's body has been sent back to the Empire."

You came closer to Shidou and grabbed his collar, "Concubine Y/n, Sae had a question for you," you let go of his collar and took a step back. A lump had already formed in your throat, it was getting harder and harder to hold your tears. "Speak"

"Y/n, I have spent my whole life by your side. Can you promise me in the next life you will stay by my side and protect me?"

Shidou apologizes for his impoliteness and leaves, you stood there staring at where he had stood. You lean on the door and fall to the floor—you couldn't believe what you had just heard, tears started to flow nonstop from your eyes. "He died...just like that?—I..."

"...I promise you Sae, I will be with you in our next life"

It has been how many years now? Ever since Sae had died and Rin took you as his Empress, you lived a pretty eventful life. You stood in front of Sae's portrait and stared at it while your son was sleeping in your arms.

You smiled softly and stared back at your baby, this is already enough for you.

© navieli, 2021

[navieli]

i may finskh the Royal au today becsud i finishrd my homeworks eslry now i will try to see if i csn finsih it tody 🗿

[navieli]

NVM ITS ACTUA;LLY SUPPOSED TO BE PRINCE SAE 

[navieli]

decided to make emperor! rin x reader x imperial guard! sae 🤠

[navieli]

heh i’m done with my blog now i wanna write royal au for bllk 😈