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- March 2022 Vision Board

- things have been extra rough this February. war, ED relapse, depression. being very mia lately but that’s for the sake of my mental health. I wish you all a fulfilling month filled with love, happiness and compassion

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A lot of the negative voices you hear in your head are nothing more than projections of how other people spoke to you in the past, they do not represent an accurate depiction of reality. They are useless and you can choose to take the power away from them by reframing your mindset and choosing to expose yourself to constant edifying and validating content. Take control over your subconscious mind, don't let it take control over you. You have more power than what you think.

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- celebrated my friend’s birthday and here are some film shots to commemorate me and my ladies in our prime

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“My heart is full of February longings,”

— Bing Hua, from Roses by the Stream; Poems; “February Roses,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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- your girl has been a bit mia lately, ed recovery is hard so I’m purposely limiting my social media intake for the sake of not being triggered!!

love youuuu and sending you all the good vibrations for the week to come

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ur early 20s are about being obsessed with kindness and mary oliver and seasonal fruits and recreating comfort foods you ate as a child and learning how to love and crying because you have no choice but to live the life before you and finding god on the bus back from the grocery store

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Capri, Italy

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- some fun recent eats!!

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Childhood made everything feel like it lingered. The time it took for hot chocolate to cool down was eternal. Christmas day took weeks. The two-hour drive to my grandparents' house took us to a new world. It's all too fast now.

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Your body does so much for you. I live on the fifth floor of my dormitory and there is no elevator. Sometimes I get home on autopilot when in fact it’s my legs that carry me. The same legs I used to look at with such an utter hatred and despair - as if they were the problem. As if I was a mistake. Fitting into a societal mold is impossible - we can not please collective as a whole. Beauty standards dictated for women by straight cis white men are impossible to meet. We are all built differently, and I mean it. There is such a broad range of factors one should take into consideration when talking about body composition - ethnicity, hereditary nature, congenital differences. You are unique and one of a kind. And still we push ourselves through deadly diets, daily fasts and crazy restrictions only to lose a couple pounds. And then we get so angry at ourselves for gaining them back. But we all have a healthy plateau which is there for a reason. At the end of the day, it’s you, your body and your mind against anything else. We have to relearn to make peace with ourselves, reclaim authority over our bodies, move back to square one and try again.

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- new February semester moodboard -

this month we’re reading first thing in the morning and last thing at night, working out in a way that feels good, studying EXTRA extra, journaling out our thoughts and prioritizing proper nutrition

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me, in my girl blogger era but also me, in my *whatever the fuck this is^* era

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had a hard day and just want to remind all of the lovely angels that are going through recovery rn (and for all those who are just a bit lost) - it’s okay to feel out of place and weird at times, nobody has answers

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someone from my dream told me *this* so I thought I’d share