nervousdreamtragedy

[nervousdreamtragedy]

Hiii im back to post stupid things

So i was awake at maniatic hours like usual after drinking to many energy drinks and I was thinking about my mom she raised me along with my sister most of my childhood yet I find it quite funny that for her she always says my childhood was her most horrible time since I was a heavy crier according to her yet that’s the thing nobody else says that in fact most people refer to me as a mature child even as a baby and infant

Like I asked my sister and my dad even my aunt who took care of me a lot and they all agreed that just like how I act now when I was young I was silent and rarely even screamed no matter what was happening so I asked my mom who claimed that while yes I was a silent kid when I did cry it was insufferable since I wouldn’t shut up and she even joked about having more than once screaming at me bcs of the cries

I am not an emotional person hell it takes quite a lot to make me even give a reaction and I was always told it was just me being weird yet when I asked my parents they claimed that for them it was good as my sister was difficult thanks to being quite emotional according to them atleast

My sister no longer lives with us just to be clear she moved out as soon as she could so my only way of communicating with her is message and sometimes calls sp I asked her if she remembered how they acted and she told me that as far as she remembers they often mentioned that she was so annoying as an infant and toddler and how I was much nicer to take care of

I started laughing because well I have been told im very well behaved by adults teachers who claimed I was the a great student since I enjoyed trapping myself in studying for weeks and I disliked going out and sure I know its a compliment to my behavior and maturity yet I don’t like that while being well behaved and calm did win me a lot of adult respect I feel sad looking back to my little self who was pretty much raised by the internet because they will never hace the fun they wanted let me be clear sure I didn’t like cartoons and don’t even to this day but that should have been my own choice to make as a kid not a rule that I had to folloe

A kid or a toddler doesn’t need to be mature a kid needs to have fun and be free sure they still need rules but not adult ones yes kids screaming and running around are annoying but im pretty sure its not that horrible to deal with them for sometime and look I get that in moments like restaurant dinner its annoying to have a kid screaming or crying their lungs out behind you and if you are paying a lot of money its even worse and yeah you have a right to be angry but you need to remember that you also were once a child and probably did the same or perhaps even worse

Look I get child free spaces like restaurants and events they are necessary sometimes but things like grocery shopping don’t need to be child free like I get spaces where you are paying to be but grocery is a public space and a mostly free one at that im pretty sure you as an adult can suck it up dealing with a loud kid for the hour or two you spend shopping

No kids don’t need to be mature they don’t need to be aware of social adult etiquette because they aren’t adult they are kids who want to have fun who are developing their skills and abilities they shouldn’t worry about what they wear outside and only wonder what clothes are more comfortable to them and what hames they can play with their friends

I was not allowed to play outside and as such the internet raised me I grew watching gore and weird stuff which while sure I look at it back with rose tinted glasses of nostalgia that doesn’t take away from the fact that I never got the same space to be a kid outside and to this day I don’t understand most of my friends child references and get confused over basic kid moments that I never got because I was told it was too childish for me

Please let kids be kids let them discover what they like and dislike if they enjoy being more mature then sure aid them but still support when they act childish like kids have everyday less spaces to act like kids and social media has not helped at all wth that try to have moments with your kids if they like to stay inside maybe play a board game or play their video-games with them let them be kids and be just as free as kid should be before going into the sad real world

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Happy Pride for all members of the community <3

I find it so funny how many homophones say that we shouldn’t allow children to choose if they want to transition since they “may regret in the future and since its a big complexion change and you may not want that later” but we have been all told that if you want a star sport kid in sports like dancing,ballet or gymnastics you need to train the kids since they are toddlers so that they’re body develops the complexion that they need as they grow and thats seen on good light but that’s also a big change that you are choosing for your kids bodies yet those changes aren’t bad those are good changes when we tell kids to do sports which will affect the rest of their lives and may bring some issues its good because those changes are different those are positive because you want them to be you say that those are positive body changes.

I was 5 years old when I started both ballet and gymnastics by my parents wishes and when they got told by body would grow different from others and I would have to change they way I was developing from that age it-was good the changes derived of each sport were not bad they were something that they saw as just my body and mind developing but when as a teen I wanted to have a binder since I was going through a self discovery moment it was suddenly a risk and something that may change me forever even if I wore it only on days I felt masc and even then it was something I should “think about and make sure that I want to have those changes” yet as a 5 year old my parents got told my body would be permanently changed by ballet and it could possibly damage my body and they said it was fine they said that my body was my own choice and if I wanted to have the body for ballet even if it looked different it was fine they didn’t ask me If I was sure or to check if I wouldn’t regret the changes for my body they never said that I would regret doing it because of the changes they told me that change was good and that starting young to make sure your body hasn’t developed as much was something that was very important so that you can have the complexion that is needed for dancers

Nobody ever told me change was bad then so why is change bad when I choose the changes why do you ask me if I will regret it when I want to do something why do I have to be checked mentally to get a binder so I feel more confident when I want to look masculine or why do you stare at me when I enter bathrooms of my gender why is change only good when you say so why is it a bad thing to transition young when you still have a body that will allow it to be less painful for yourself when its not a bad thing to do sports that will do similar permanent body alterations while you are still a kid.

Kids do have opinions and they do need guidance maybe not all kids are serious when they say they want to be another gender amd that’s okay that’s not wrong the problem is when kids are sure of their choices the reaction shouldnt be one of disgust it should be one of perhaps confusion but that’s your kid that’s your son or daughter no matter their choice and even if you don’t understand we live in a modern era you can research or ask a professional to help see options maybe see with the kids what impulsed them to make a choice maybe it’s something that will pass that’s not weird but if the kids is sure then there must be a reason behind it and it never harms you or anyone to hear out and hey maybe you will gain the trust of your kids by listening to them and even if you don’t understand just comforting them may just be what you need.

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Todays reminder of your beauty

When I was very young I used to have a friend who had a sickness that made one of her eyes be a widely different color from the other not like heterocromia but like she had an eye which was just pure red and I loved to draw her because of that I have full books of people who I have met along my life that just had such beauty marks that I was always interested on illustrating for others

And some days ago I met a girl who was a model for an art class who had a big burn make going from her stomach to her thigh so I focused on coloring that with bright colors to accentuate the mark on my drawing when I showed it to her she laughed and asked me why I had drawn it that way and I believe everyone should think like this:

Everyone is beautiful on their on way it doesn’t matter if you believe you aren’t even if its the smallest thing like say soft small hands or marks on your face from sickness we all are beautiful I enjoy remarking that I enjoy making such marks on peoples skin be eye catching something not to be ashamed or to be hidden but a mark to wear proudly because each mark makes you human and just like stretch marks on skin are nothing to feel bad about neither are scars they are marks that tell stories that say that you were there that you lived trough them and survived and after your gone they will serve as a reminder that you too were one human and just like you won your battles you lost them and that makes you even more beautiful that anything else.

<3

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I just had to go outside for a medical check up and had the greatest experience of my entire life

Old lady(About 70 or 80 years old) to a much younger woman:Look at that young man he looks quite adorable he would make for a good looking lady

Younger lady:You cant say that Mom what if he is a girl and your calling her a boy

Old lady touches my back and i turn to her

Old lady:Hello young man i wanted to tell you that you have quite a beautiful face structure like a young lady

Me(A genderfluid indivual who happend to be wearing male looking clothes):Thank you but im actually a Girl im afraid.

Old lady:Then you make for quite a handsome young man im sure you catch the looks of many girls and boys

Me(About to cry because not even my parents were as kind as this old lady):Thank you very much i hope you have a fantastic day

Old lady:I hope you do too and between us you should wear your hair like that often you have a beautiful face without your hair on the way

Like i was having a horrible day and this woman was so freaking nice to me

I stan nice old ladys because they are some of the biggest pillars for me being able to come out as genderfluid

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I find it funny when people ask me about my preferences bcs im a pansexual genderfluid individual and i always answer the same so it will go something like this:

Random:So are you a girl or a boy?

Me:Yes

Random:What about your dates do you like girls or boys?

Me:Yes to all of the above

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@ people who write about quackity joining the antarctic anarchists and philza horrifyingly discovering he wraps his wings and that theyre in SUCH bad fuckin shape and cleans them for him because he hasnt in so long because of the smp rules against flying and/or his own distaste towards them:

how does it feel to know you carry my life in the palm of your hands?