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neutralish · 1 year ago

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how you can help palestine

*i regularly update this post with any new info i find so please always reblog the original post*

Donations

donations currently reaching gaza:

help buy e-sims for people in gaza (PLEASE HELP CONNECT GAZANS TO THE WORLD. if you would like to stay updated, please follow @/Mirna_elhelbawi on twitter)

currently holafly e-sims are needed. please donate.

donate to get food packages to gaza - care for gaza

support palestinians: buy a keffiyeh from the last and only factory in palestine - hirbawi

secondary donations:

palestine children's relief fund

palestine red crescent society

save palestine - islamic relief canada

send medical supplies to gaza - palestinian american medical association

click to donate - arab.org

donate for the recovery of hisham awartani - gofundme

one of the three palestinian students shot by a racist in vermont for wearing kufiyas and speaking arabic. hisham’s injuries have left him paralysed from below the chest.

help bring down israel's weapon trade - palaction

NOTE: journalists based in gaza are saying a demand for ceasefire is the priority as not all donations are reaching gazans (focus on the donations that are directly reaching gaza). so please contact your local MPs every single day demanding as such. palestine need a permanent ceasefire.

Petitions

petition to investigate war crimes committed by israeli military

demand ceasefire - amnesty.org

open call for immediate ceasefire

american government call for immediate ceasefire

american government to stop funding israeli military

ceasefire and increase humanitarian assistance - oxfam au

petition to get canva to address their pro-israel stance

invoke the genocide convention to call for ceasefire in gaza - world beyond war

location specific petitions

gaza call for ceasefire - oxfam (UK)

end israeli occupation - parliament uk (UK)

email your MP - medical aid for palestine (UK)

protect gaza civilians - islamic relief (UK)

stop fuelling genocide - action network (USA)

@ biden: call for ceasefire now - move on (USA)

ceasefirenow.com - jewishvoiceofpeace (USA)

call congress and demand a ceasefire - uscpr (USA - they provide a script of what you should say, so don't worry about it)

note: you can call everyday. they tally the number of calls per issue. so more calls = higher chance for them to take action. p.s. you mainly go to voicemail so don’t worry about phone call anxiety. fight through it just this once please.

australia call on israel to stop attacking palestinians - apan (AUS)

immediate ceasefire and increase in humanitarian aid in gaza - actionaid (AUS)

email your MPs - stand with palestine (AUS)

[EN5622] call for ceasefire and end to occupation - parliament of australia (AUS)

closes 13 dec @ 8.59pm AEST

[EN5628] retract governmental support to israel and demand ceasefire - parliament of australia (AUS)

closes 13 dec @ 8.59pm AEST

sign to send letter to MP for ceasefire - nccm (CANADA)

ceasefire now! - ijv (CANADA)

ceasefire and allow aid to enter gaza - oxfam (CANADA)

house of commons petition 4661 (CANADA)

closes 9 dec @ 11.03am EDT

cessez-le-feu et un couloir humanitaire - le mouvement (FRANCE)

write to your député - assemblée nationale (FRANCE)

skydda civilbefolkningen i gaza! - mittskifte (SWEDEN)

singaporeans call for immediate ceasefire (SIN)

contact your elected reps and demand a ceasefire (GERMANY)

write to the EU demanding a ceasefire (EUROPE)

template of letters you can send (EU)

guide on how to contact your MPs in EU

p.s. if the template is outdated, just use it as a guide and add a few sentences here and there that reflect the current situation. i can’t find any recent templates so :/ at least this is something

multiple actions you can take to help palestine - plant een olifbloom (NETHERLANDS)

includes: links for donations, emails to MP, emails to media, links to petitions and demonstrations

den haag, maak nú werk van vrede in israël/Palestina - the right forum (NETHERLANDS)

māori call for palestine - ourActionStation (NZ)

special visa for palestinians in gaza with family in NZ - NZ parliament/pāremata aotearoa (NZ)

deem israeli actions as war crimes - NZ parliament/pāremata aotearoa (NZ)

basta ao genocídio em Gaza! - awaaz (BRAZIL)

globo e grande mídia, parem de desumanizar civis palestinos - the intercept (BRAZIL)

Campaigns

friends of al-aqsa

❥ UK-specific

urge your MP to speak up for palestine

hands off al-aqsa

stop administrative detention

petition for UK to stop arming israel

❥ International

boycott puma — email them to end their partnership with israel

boycott coca-cola

palestine action

join the resistance

islamic relief canada

urge your MP to rally for ceasefire

decolonise palestine

poster campaign to raise awareness on the war crimes being committed against palestinians | (very very important please share + read the sources provided)

text/call campaign for people living in USA

text CEASEFIRE @ 51905 to call for a ceasefire

text RESIST @ 50409 to send a letter to your representatives to pass HR3103–a bill that prohibits tax dollars from going to israel

download 5Calls app to contact members of your congress | (more info)

fax campaign for people in the USA

go on this website to send 5 free faxes per day

here’s a link to a pre-written fax copy you can download to send (the first link on the linktree)

here’s a video that explains how to fax your senator (it’s very easy and all you need is a valid email address)

BDS movement

get involved in boycotting companies associated with israel

please let me know if you have any more links. i will add them in. and please reblog the original post!!

UPCOMING PROTESTS

PALESTINIAN LITERATURE READING LIST

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neutralish · 2 years ago

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neutralish · 2 years ago

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Jumped on the bandwagon to make a chainsaw man parody poster for ASA! It’s “Carrie” inspired :)

Reference vv

Click on art for higher quality!

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neutralish · 2 years ago

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silly shuake comic for white day that i made based on that one comic that literally everyone on twt kept tagging "shuake"

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neutralish · 3 years ago

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WARNING!!!!

People, please be careful. There are also people tracking children and people and putting bids on them based on their profile pictures on whatsapp, tracking and kidnapping them. Especially young children, so please be cautious, especially parents who have their children as their profile pictures.

Please pass this on to everyone so that they are aware of the danger. I don’t how it is all around the world but I know it can’t just be here so please please spread the word. Thank you.

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neutralish · 4 years ago

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In case anyone is having a bad night:

Here is the fudgiest brownie in a mug recipe I’ve found

Here are some fun sites

Here is a master post of Adventure Time episodes and comics

Here is a master post of movies including Disney and Studio Ghibli

Here is a master post of other master posts to TV shows and movies

*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*

You’ll be okay, friend <3

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neutralish · 5 years ago

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Sakamaki Subaru x reader (part 2)

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(H/C): hair color

(E/C): eyes colors

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"Ah~ I knew I shouldn't have talked to Reiji-san..." you sighed while rubbing your neck stinging with pain. You see, you had the brilliant idea to actually go to Reiji-san and tell him about your will to go back to the river. And nice as he was, he told you off by nearly drugging you with his fucking tea and harshly biting you. Thankfully, he throw you out rather quickly, telling you if you don't come back before school start he'll "punish you so hard that you won't even think to go out again". Just by thinking about his threat made you shiver down your core. "Girl, think positive, think positive, no negative thoughts or threats should ruin your little trip!"

You where walking into the forest bathed in the dim light of the greyish sky. It was in the middle of Fall so you didn't really expected a bright sun with a clear blue sky. You didn't bother changing your uniform as you where to excited and impatient to go back to your little paradise. After your first (and last) trip, you had been rather roughly punished by the Sakamaki brothers, especially the triplet who made sure to not let you step a foot outside unless it was for school. They harassed and tortured you in many ways but you still managed to survive, even you don't know how you did it but anyway... Here you were in the cold, with the wind blowing out, making your (H/C) hair flying around. You, again, forgot to bring a coat so you were just protected by your white blouse stained with, still, dripping blood from your neck, and your thin black jacket. You where sure to be sick but meh... who cares, as long as you got to see you little place.

The forest was more lively in the day: some birds where chirping while the cracking leaves under your feets where accompanying them. Some squirrels where passing there and by as you watched them searching for foods with admiration in your eyes. But you where mostly the one to make the most of the noise. Multicolored leaves upholstered the wet mud, giving the forest a warm sensation despite the cold. Some mushrooms where sticking out of the leaves but almost everything else was covered with leaves and branches, only moving when a gush of wind swirled around or when they'd stuck on your shoes. "Dang, I wish I had rubber boots" you muttered to yourself as you watched helplessly, your shoes and feets being moistened by the ground and, again, the leaves.

Finally, you arrived to your destination.

Despite feeling a little bit dizzy, you ran up to the river covered with some leaves and branches but still beautiful as ever even if the weather was greyish. Crouching and bending down a little, you saw your own reflection, it was actually a little bit worrying: your (E/C) eyes where a little bit dull and looked quiet tired, your dark circles where a little bit too much obvious, your skin looked quiet pale, even grey, and you poor lips where quite cracked and colourless. Yeah... It wasn't quiet looking good. "... I really should take care of myself more..." You tried to really take care of yourself but it was so difficult because of these blood sucker always chasing you, teasing you, torturing you... Even sleeping became impossible!

Lost on your thoughts, you didn't noticed the shadow getting closer and closer to you. It's only when it reflected on the floor that you took conscious that something or someone was behind you... The old ugly feeling of panic came up at once, you felt cold sweat running down on your body as you breath started started to sped up," Oh God please, not Laito! I don't want him to soil this place..." you mentally prayed.

If you directly thought of him it was because of his clingy behaviour. Of course, Laito is known for his insatiable lust but lately it got worst and you saw... You saw, while riding back in the limousine from school, his dangerous green eyes on you (more like on your thights), his tongue licking up his lips in a flirtatious way, his hands tightly gripping the car's seats while surely having strong naughty thoughts. Even Reiji told him to calm down which made you relieved, not supporting his gaze anymore. And this is why you where panicking. You could almost hear his high lusty chuckle but you refused to see what (who) was behind you, sternly focusing on the river. You waited... and waited... and waited... but nothing came. "Ok, this must be a jock again... but may-"

You jumped a little when you felt something nudging you, wait...

Nudging ?

Finally turning around, you felt relief washing you as you saw who it was.

It was the same deer that scared you last time. "Ah~ Seriously it's the second time that you scare me" you said with amusement. You where still on your guard but you let yourself breath out properly, not feeling how much of breath you held in you from your previous scare. Facing again the river, you took a deep breath of the wet wood and maroons smell. Hearing the deer moving, you turned your head to see the brown fur animal sitting down in a graceful and majestic way.

Slowly getting up to not startle him, you took off your black socks and dirty brown shoes and gently placed them on the ground, no need to make them dirtier or you'll hear from mama Reiji. You calmly went into the cold water. Despite the temperature, the icy water didn't seem to bother you though branches kept bumping into your legs. You were looking at your (S/C) legs, they were a little bit dry because of the soon to be winter season but they still stayed smooth. Strangely, they where no fish, only a few tadpoles but you didn't think much of it as your attention drifted to Subaru... Again.

Since your last encounter with him, you thought of every possible scenario to talk to him or to make him open up but they all failed since you didn't know well how it'll end knowing his character. Unfortunately, as much you wanted you couldn't imagine the white-haired boy out of character and by this you meant: a cute baby Subaru blushing while angrily yelling at you to "shut up!" and then spilling out his surprising feelings for you and then slamming his lips on your, destroying your poor teeth.

No you just couldn't imagine this...

Feeling your legs getting numb, you decided that it was time to get out of the water, no point to put back your socks since your legs were wet. Instead, you just went beside the deer, feeling the lack of sleep catching you. Slowly you lay down, not caring about your hair getting dirty. Maybe you felt safe, maybe you felt protected by the brown fur animal maybe that why your eyes didn't hesitate to close by themselves. Not thinking about anything, you fell into a deep slumber.

"...e up" a voice said

Hm?

"...ke up!" Yelled an angry voice

Strange... I feel like it's Subaru talking to me..."

"Fucking hell! Wake up goddamnit!"

Your eyes immediately fluttered open. Slowly rising up in a sitting position, you tried to remember where you were. Still dazed with sleep, it took you a minute or two to remember that you were in the forest. Wait...what time is it ?! Looking at the sky, you saw that night has fallen. "Shot! I'm so screwed..." you mentally cursed yourself for carelessly falling asleep here.

"Shut your stupid nonsense anger get your ass up! We're already late because of you" you looked at the voice owner, it was indeed an annoyed-looking Subaru that greeted your view. "The fuck you where thinking falling asleep here alone? Do you have this much of a death wish?" He spatted in a venomous tone. "I wasn't al- " oh... the deer left you all alone again... "Oh just shut it and get your clothes on! "

Not wanting to make him angrier, you hurriedly put back your black socks and your brown shoes. Since the wind was gushing out, you put back your blazer, no need to catch a cold right now. Looking back to where he was, you saw that Subaru went ahead of you." Well, what a gentleman...". You took one last sight of the river and the beautiful reflection of the moon on it. You tried to memorize as much as you could since you, unfortunately, didn't know when you'll come back. One thing was sure, it wasn't going to be soon...

You were walking in the now quiet forest, only the locusts's sounds and the crackling leaves could be heard. Subaru was still walking really fast as you tried to match his pace but it was difficult, so you were kind of left behind.

Right now you were asking yourself if you should try to talk to him about something because you felt uncomfortable from the silence here. It was the kind of silence filled with discomfort and uneasiness making you want to talk about everything and anything just to not support this atmosphere. But what will be the subject? As far as you know, Subaru only liked flowers - even though he destroyed them sometime- but you didn't know a thing about them. You didn't know what he likes to do in his free time if he has a favorite kind of music or something else. Heck, you didn't know if he even has a favorite kind of food. You did notice he is a sadistic -like his brothers- but Subaru could be quiet...extreme. So yeah, you where quiet lost about how to start a discussion with the angry boy. "Silly me! I could at least ask him how is he tonight." Filled with determination, you started to open your mouth when he cut you right off. "Don't you dare to ask anything about me." His voice was low and came out as a growl but it did give you the chill. You just looked at him, he didn't turn around so you were still facing his back. Maybe it's why you had the courage to talk again. "Still, I'm going to ask you, so how are you doing?" Your voice was a little bit cracked from the lack of water but it was filled with gentleness and determination.

Silence...

Abruptly, everything went quiet.

"Why does it happen when I try to help the world!?" Your determination started to falter as the silence only continued for a minute or two before Subaru turned around to face you. His face was devoided of emotions, it was a little bit disturbing since you expected an outburst of anger from him. But then he spoke. "What don't you understand that you piss me off with this fucking attitude of yours and your useless attempts to get me in your bed? What? Did you really thought that once I've told how I feel, I'll run up into your arms and cry like a goddamn baby!" As he spoke his expression has changed to become an enraged one, filled with anger and fury. He didn't even let you talk as he continued. "You really think that I'll fall into this trap of yours? You've been a whore for my brothers and just like idiots they stuck to you but what made you think I'm like them? You're just like other women, using us for your personal needs and then throwing us away like fucking trash! So let me give you one fucking last warning..." his voice became low almost like the growl from a predator "Ask me one more thing, bother me one more time and I won't hesitate to kill you."

Right now, you where shocked, heck, beyond shocked. What he said was way to insulting!

First, he literally insulted you of whore, then he compares you to an apparently bad kind of woman and then tells you the you where annoying. But his outburst did help you to understand one thing, he has a grudge against the womankind. He lowly spoke of them so maybe something bad happened to him in his childhood or even now?

"Quick! I need to say something, this may be my chance to understand him more. " but as much as you wanted to speak, your brain seemed to have frozen. Not a word wanted to roll out of your tongue as you opened and closed your mouth several times, trying to form a sentence. "Great now I must look like a fish... but why can't I think of anything! I've had some scenario prepared in advance for this kind of situation, so why can't I talk?!" You cringed at yourself at this moment right now, you where embarrassing yourself in front of the angry vampire and you seemed to have frozen yourself in time as if you couldn't move.

Subaru watched the strange girl who looked quite shady.

Or maybe constipated...

He was mad right now but he was trying to not throw an outburst at (Y/N) 'cause he didn't need another hearing of the so claimed "scientist". Was she stupid or something? He did everything to stop the (H/C) girl coming near him, and by everything, he also meant mean and sadistic things, but she kept coming back like a bee for its honey.

How can she do it? Where does she find the fucking strength to get back up and to fight him and his brothers? She should be dead, heck even smashed and broken to piece since death seems to simple for her but here she was, looking like a sick fish but alive, the white-haired boy could even spot some life in her dull (E/C). It wasn't fucking fair! She was a mere human and he was beyond powerful: he was above the poor humankind. He possessed everything as vampire, powers, supernatural abilities he even has royal blood from his filthy father! So why does he feel weak, why is he even weak? A simpleton like you could fight and get up after every wound you received but not him?! How is this possible! Subaru didn't understand.

As if the weather was listening to the vampire emotions, the wind started to gush more violently than before making every tree move, the multicolored leaves and muddy branches went flying away. The moon's silvery light cast itself on where the two protagonists where standing making it the only visible light out here but the two of them seem to not care as they were lost in their own thoughts.

Unfortunately, Subaru's anger didn't seem to calm down as he keeps watching you, on the contrary, it rose more up as he saw you opening your mouth, ready to spit nonsense again. So, he took a swing with his tight fist and directed towards you.

You didn't see it coming. You only felt the wind's strong movement beside your head. You only felt pieces of woods collide on your skin. But damn...You really didn't expected a fucking punch! You eyes where so wide that they could have budged out of your eyes sockets. His tightened fist was still in the tree behind you. He was looking quiet mad as he watched you with a renewed fury, much stronger than before and to be honest... You where starting to get scared. It was comprehensible after all, you where in a quiet dense situation: all alone with a mad vampire in a dark forest devoided of all form of life, as if everything abandoned you to left you on your own. You couldn't move a finger, your body weighted like a big rock and your mouth had gone dry, your felt like your tongue was glued to your palate making it difficult to utter a word.

You didn't felt yourself breathing, strangely your lungs felt tight as a vice. Oh... Maybe it was because Subaru was tightly pressuring your neck. In your fear you didn't saw his other hand coming towards you and choking you but he didn't try to choke you to death, no, he only applied a painful strength on your neck making you wince pain. Was he torturing you here, in the forest, where no one will hear or find you if you needed help ?

He only kept pressuring your neck further and further to the point that you started to see black dots in your blurry vision. You didn't understand, why can't your hands move, why can't you stop him from almost killing you ?!

You where slowly becoming deaf to all sound, your head started to spin as your vision only darkened but you still managed to hear the vampire's shouting. "I fucking hate you! Why can't you stop messing my head with your stupid words. I already told, I won't fucking fall for your dirty trick so shut up already!" Loosening his grip on your neck, he threw you on the wet floor. You started to violently cough while trying to somewhat regain your unsteady breath.

You looked up at him seeing the mad vampire looking at you with deep hatred. You didn't how, but his deep ruby eyes seemed to be glowing in the dark but even weirder, you found them beautiful. How the heck can you think about his eyes in this situation?! "Get a grip girl, try to get up and keep some distance between you two" with this thought, you tried to get up but your legs wouldn't listen, they felt like jelly and your still dizzy from the lack of breath.

Out of nowhere, you found yourself caged by Subaru who ,you don't know why, was above you. Gathering tha last bit of determination and courage left in you you spoke."What do you really want Subaru?" Your voice faltered as you talked but it wasn't filled with anger. You did understand the havoc caused in his mind but you needed him to understand that breaking walls and being angered by everything weren't the answer to everything. Of course you where scared, scared to die by the hands of the vampire, scared to loose all your efforts in a single night however you still had this bit of determination left in you. The white haired boy only looked at you, he almost seemed lost on thoughts, maybe he was thinking of a way to kill you! But no... unexpectedly, Subaru put his head closer to yours and only whispered these word before doing the unbelievable "Stop trying to help me and give yourself into the pleasure to being destroyed by me."

You felt his silky yet chapped lips on your dry one, kissing you forcefully. It wasn't filled with love nor passion, only with anger, an unnamed lust, and confusion. You didn't know how you managed to put names on these emotions as your breath was again being taken away from you but thankfully, or maybe not, you felt Subaru's lips parting away from yours. Your cheeks were red from the effort and embarrassment. How could he kiss you out of nowhere?! You didn't even have the time to think about it that you, again, felt his lips on you but this time on your already bruised neck "Tch... which bastard touched your blood again! Do they even have a brain?"

You felt him licking up your wound but you knew what was coming. No matter how many the vampires do this, you would never get used to them licking you like this, it always made you shiver in disgust but this time you felt something else, something new. Was it because of your tired state or because of Subaru? You'll never new... you felt him grazing your neck with his fangs before roughly plunging them in your neck. A cry escaped from your mouth, your eyes were tightly shut. You felt the pain growing larger and larger as gulping sounds where heard. It was so painful, more than usual. Was it his punishment for caring too much? You didn't understand anything.

Subaru was still drinking your blood while tightly gripping your shoulders. He expected you to cry, scream in pain, squirm like a pathetic worm but no you did nothing. You did nothing at all. Taking off violently his fangs from you, he throws you a glare "Why aren't you reacting? Entertain me, give me some thrill you useless mortal!" He shouted at you with a mad smile. Blood was dripping from his mouth, his eyes were wide and concealed excitement but to you it was craziness. But strangely, you found him more handsome than ever

Maybe you were the weird one here, liking and finding a bloodthirsty vampire beautiful. You were feeling light-headed, your vision was starting to falter again but you still managed to talk with a determined voice " I won't... I won't give you this satisfaction. I will give you reactions if you let me help you-" Subaru's hand found once again his way to your neck but he didn't apply pressure. " Why... Why do you stay close to me? Don't you see what am I? I almost killed you, if I want right now I could drink all of your fool tasting blood and live you to rot in this place so tell me, are you out of your fucking mind? " His ruby eyes where still wide but the excitement was gone, it had been replaced with confusion and bewilderment toward you.

"I already told you, and I'll still repeat it, I want to help you because to me you're someone important and special. I don't know if it's love but I do feel right when I'm beside you but I don't support the fact that you aren't feeling right at all, it's just isn't fair! So please let me just help and love you" you continued on, letting your thoughts coming out of your chest, " I hate how you and your brothers treat me and surely treated the other bride, I hate how you don't respect me, how you insult and treat me like garbage and how I'm nothing to you but a bag of blood but I understand why you all act this way. I know that you all didn't have a good childhood, heck, even a good family, but it does mean that you need to stay like this forever! So please, please, let me at least show you the good side of life."

You knew that your plea won't have much effect on your dear vampire but at least, you tried. Somehow, you knew that you'll need to sacrifice something much bigger than your will to make him listen but what do you have to lose in your life? You prefer to be with him forever than being alone in a world filled with mad people and lusty bloodsuckers.

Subaru wasn't moving so you slowly snuck up your arms and gently placed them behind his neck. You tried to give him the feeling of a warm hug, the kind that you'll want after a hard day or after working too much. You felt his head slowly resting on your shoulders. Not a sound was coming from both of you. Only the forest seemed to come back to life, wind was slowly swirling, leaves were dancing on the floor, insects were playing their music but the two of you stayed quiet for a moment before Subaru spoke, "If I trust you, will you give yourself to me, will you give me your whole existence?" His voice was still harsh but filled with calmness.

You pondered over his question.

Where you really ready to entrust your entire self to him?

"I just want to be with you" your voice was speaking your mind, you were set to help him and love him but you were sure that you won't give your whole existence, you needed some sanity to save him from the madness of his life.

Subaru pushed you back again on the floor, more carefully this time, and looked at you with a demented passion burning in his eyes, "Then prepare yourself to breakdown, cry and hate me because I won't go easy on you. I'll break you down so much that you'll regret begging me to help me. (Y/N)... you will be stuck with me forever into an eternal dream, Hell or Heaven, it's up to you. "

You only smiled, opening your arms to him. He only went down for your lips, kissing you violently with a mad passion.

This night, you gave your entire mind and body to him as he did the same. You saw and engraved these memories inside of you, never wanting to forget them even after death.

Yes, maybe it was absurd and foolish to want to love him. And yes, maybe you were a fool, but you loved every bit of it. You knew that he'll only make you fall deeper and deeper into the pleasure of his madness but you didn't mind, as long that you could save him from himself.

And after a month, it's finally done ☻☻.Hope you all enjoyed it and I don't know what I'll write next but we'll see.

Neutralish

#subaru x reader #Sakamaki Subaru #x reader #diabolik lovers #two shot

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neutralish · 5 years ago

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Sakamaki Subaru x Reader (part 1)

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Silence... It was all you could hear besides the forest noises. Here you were at night wearing your nightgown, which was a simple dress, walking quietly in the forest without any destination in mind. You just got bitten again by one of the Sakamaki brothers, and as usual, they haven't been gentle with you. Your neck and wrists were sore and painful and you were feeling beyond tired but you just didn't wanted to stay at the mansion, so you decided to take a walk in the forest without any care because you just... didn't give a damn about anything. It was comprehensible: chased every day for your poor blood, being humiliated because of their sadistic sides, never had a chance to spill your feelings or being acknowledged as a human being and not as a bag of blood... You were just tired of everything and feeling emotionless which scared you! You still wanted to be optimistic. You steal wanted to feel emotions besides pain and sadness. But here you are walking like a zombie through the dark forest, in search of peace and calm.

Spotting a small river, you marched there to see it more closely. "What a stunning view," you thought, "it could make a beautiful painting... but I don't know how to paint " you deadpanned. The moon was directly shining into the river making it reflect the beauty of the water happily lapping onto it and the small fishes swimming around with some fall leaves. It indeed, made a beautiful contrast with the dark forest as the moon only seems to shone on the river.

You took a deep breath of the wet wood smell which was quite unpleasant but anyway... It's more pleasant to breathe this than the smell of an old mansion. Suddenly, a gust of wind swirled the few dead leaves that were there and your (L/H) went flying around your head. Arms crossed, you shivered "What an idiot, I should have brought a coat" you muttered while trying to reheat your arms by making up and down motions on them. In the rush of getting out of the vampires' home, you neglected the fact that it was the beginning of Fall so you only went out with your nightgown and a thin jacket.

Crack...Crack...

Upon hearing the noise, your head immediately jerked upwards," please let it not be one of them or I don't know what monster !" You silently prayed with a pleading face. Not stopping, the noise came only closer and closer to where you sat...

Crack...Crack...

Slowly rising from the rock you prepared yourself to hide down into the forest as the noises only got louder and closer. Sweat started to bead on your forehead and you felt as if you weren't breathing, your breath seems to have been stuck inside of your lunges." Seriously! I only got peace for like five minutes! Can't they go away and eat they fridge instead of me for once! "

A minute passed... then two...

"Strange..." you thought. Knowing them, they wouldn't have wasted a second in piercing down your already bruised neck and gulping down your, oh, so precious blood. "Maybe it's a cold joke... or maybe they want me to faint from fear..."Just by this thought, you were getting annoyed, heck, you were even ready to shout "Take my damn blood already and leave me alone!" But nothing came out of your dry mouth. Taking a deep breath, you cautiously rose more from the rock and mentally prepared yourself to face the vampire...

"1...2...3..." You turned around in a swift motion, ready to be eaten again, but nothing prepared you about the thing in front of you...

A deer... A pure and simple fucking deer watching you with big black innocents eyes. Breaking down, you erupted in laughter as you try to seat down on the rock, which was quite difficult because of your shaky legs. You had been scared of a poor fucking brown deer. "I cannot believe I have been this silly!" You laughed again "It's really brought me nothing good to live with six vampires." You said quietly, your voice still quivering with giggles.

The deer was still watching you as if you where the stranger here and not him but his eyes quickly moved to the river. "I think he came to drink" with this thought you moved alongside to let him make his way to the river. Still, the deer didn't move but his eyes where still fixed on the water as if...as if he was afraid to approach it. "Maybe he's really scared of the water". Wanting to help the poor creature, you untied your shoes, removed your long (F/C) socks and barefoot, you went into the water. Taking some in your hands, you put them in the front of the now much closer deer. Watching you first then the water he waited as if he was asking you your permission to drink. Nodding to him, you put your hands more closely. Slowly bending his head down, the deer took a few sips before suddenly jerking his head up scrutinizing his surroundings.

Tension started to rose again inside of you as you started the search the thing that scared the deer. "Please be another deer, please be another deer !" Your heart was beating more and more loudly and at a strange pace as your eyes tried to size the dark shape of the forest. The wind only blew more loudly, swirling the dead leaves around and the small noises of the forest were getting worse as if it was announcing the arrival of something dangerous.

Sensing the danger the deer ran away in the forest leaving you all alone... "Dear God, have mercy on me and let it be another animal " you muttered, nervously watching your surroundings. If only you knew that going in near a river means tension plus danger then you would have stayed in this damn mansion!

Abruptly, everything stopped... You tensed at once, your senses where high on every sight, noise or even smell. That when you felt... no... you knew that someone was behind you. Without a second thought, you violently turned around the see the one who disturbed your tranquil moment.

Sakamaki Subaru

You didn't know if you should feel happy or afraid...

Of course, you were more than happy to see him and not Ayato or Laito or even Kanato (you didn't imagine Shu or Reiji going out in the forest) but you knew that the white-haired boy was quiet violent and could break everything with a single flick. Fully turning your body toward him, you stood still in the water, your gaze fixated on him, not daring to even lift a finger.

Frankly, Subaru was a beautiful boy despite his attitude and the eternal scowl present on his face. His light snow pink hair who seemed fluffy and his stunning red ruby eyes made him and his features unique. It only goes well with his really light skin and his body shape. Your trail of thought only stopped when you saw his mouth moving. "I'm sorry, did you said something? " you asked in a barely audible voice. "The heck are you doing here ?!" His voice was harsh as he spoke to you dryly. " I was trying to find a quiet place because... you all piss me off." You bluntly spoke. What was the point of lying to him, you didn't wanted to get (more) on his bad side so might as well be honest. His scowl only got deeper but he said nothing. With a "tch " Subaru stopped looking at you as his gaze started to take notice of his surroundings.

Right now you were dreading to ask him if he came here for your blood as you silently watched him... but maybe he didn't wanted it right now... you were just afraid to ask because if you did so maybe he would do it and you were already in the verge of fainting! So you just keep quiet in this awkward situation. The silence was back again but it wasn't as peaceful as a moment ago, it was this kind of silence that wanted to make you want to do anything to fill it. The problem was that you haven't any subject to talk about, you didn't even know if you have something in common with him. Plus he was difficult to talk with as he either ignore you or either threw his fist of rage on you. You never saw anything else on his face than a frown. You were sure that once, Laito told you that Subaru was a tsundere ... keyword: a tsundere. Sure you saw him getting embarrassed but he expressed it by breaking a wall or by insulting everything and anything but never in your life you saw him blushing.

"The heck you're looking at!" Subaru suddenly screamed, breaking the awkward silence, startled by his sudden outburst you jolted in the water. "Nothing Sir !" You said in panic... Wait did you just said sir to a boy of sixteen years!? Wanting to pass this embarrassing moment you went on with your dreadful question "Hum... you're not going to drink my blood ?" you asked with your broken voice as your mouth was dry. "Tch, these bastards tainted your blood with their filthy fangs. How can enjoy it !" "Oh... That's great... I suppose " "Don't get cocky, I'll drink your blood as soon as you recover." A small smirk danced on his face for some seconds before disappearing, "How weak are you, letting these idiots drink your blood " Spatted the snow haired.

Isn't this brat getting a little bit too much arrogant...

Your face was twitching in annoyance as you tried to remain calm" Excuse me my dear vampire but as you can see... I'm a mere human so... I cannot fucking fight a vampire!" It was a matter of fact, unfortunately, how could you beat a vampire when his strength was ten thousand times stronger than yours! Your only strength was seen through your words as you spoke little but think big.

Not wanting to talk to him anymore, you turned again to watch your feet in the water, enjoying the pleasant filling. You heard Subaru moving, getting closer to where you were. From the corner of your eye, you saw him sitting down on the wet grass looking up at the moon, mimicking him, you looked up. The moon was still beautiful and his light only shone more brightly showing your and Subaru's beauty as the wind only blew more calmly than before.

Twenty minutes passed at least before Subaru broke the silence " Back then when I gave you the knife... why didn't you killed me or my brothers? You were still watching the moon as you pondered over the question with a frown on your face."Hum... How to put this... I was shocked about these sudden situations, I mean it's not every day that you see a bunch of vampires at the same time or is being pursued every hour or asked to do strange things. But the thing is that...I didn't have the strength to kill, vampire or not..."

This response was partially true of course there had been a time when you planned to kill them but how could you? They knew every movement of yours and you were getting weaker each time they take your life vessel. But the thing was that you were quiet observant despite being physically weak. You knew that, somehow, Subaru was in depression... You weren't totally sure but the way he gave you the knife and asked you to kill him first then his brother put you on this trail. It was almost a plea for uncertain freedom. That why you first wanted to know him better in order to somehow help him 'cause you knew how hard is it to handle depression or anxiety alone. The feeling of not wanting to live or to feel a burden for the world where the worst. So how could you try to kill him? He didn't even saw the good side of life so how could you even try? True, he was a sadist and much more than mean toward you but with the little kindness left in you, you wanted to help Subaru (and maybe his brothers ).

Upon hearing your answer, Subaru watched you in a mean way "Are you an idiot ?! You could be fucking free doing whatever stupid humans usually do and YOU here, stay with a bunch of bastards! Are you this much of a masochistic?!" "Wow..." you thought "is he calling himself a bastard ? " you kept quiet, not knowing what to say. You stared back at your feet who were getting colder but you just didn't wanted to move from the water. As strange as it was you were more feeling safe in the water than on the grass. Subaru was still angrily mumbling about "stupid brainless humans ". True or not, you really did thought that vampires and humans were not so different... Each of them has a complex personality and they are all too hard to understand. The only difference, for you, is that vampires have too much pride and arrogance to compare themselves to humans.

"Say, Subaru?" You began, he spatted a harsh "What?" before you continued, "Are you feeling okay right now? " you asked in a calm and innocent voice. Silence followed your question. You turned your gaze towards him and looked at his face. You tried to read his emotions but all you could see was a face voided of emotion... even his eyes were more dull and blank than a moment ago! "Maybe I shouldn't have asked..."

"Who the fuck do you think you are to meddle in my life!" He told you in a heavy angry voice. He got up from his place with an angry scowl on his face ��"Don't you dare to ask me any questions again or I won't hesitate to break you! Approach me again and I won't hesitate to destroy you! "Watching you with mad eyes, he turned his back before disappearing right before your eyes. You weren't going to lie, you were taken a bit aback by his sudden outburst. Sure you knew that he wasn't going to easily open up to you but you didn't expect this...

Vampire or not, he was still a child in his heart, afraid of everything, of the world and not knowing how to seek help and love. Him running- more like disappearing- from your question was comprehensible.

That's why you still wanted to try to help a little bit at least. It's not that you liked him in a romantic way, it's just brought in you a kind of maternal instinct (even though you were only seventeen years old). "Ah, ~ guess next time will be better... if he even comes back here..." You sure planned to return here as it was better than "your home ".

The moon was slowly going higher."Oh my, almost time to go back to school". You gave a last look to the moon before stretching your arms and shoulders while yawning from the lack of sleep. Getting out of the cold water, you putted your shoes back without your socks, because your legs were still wet. A cold wind passed through your legs causing you to shiver again" Next time, I'll be sure to bring a towel." Heading towards the forest you just hopped for one thing" I hope they won't get mad at me for disappearing like this" just by this thought, you wanted to go back in the river but you knew you couldn't... Hopefully, the Sakamaki will be more lenient towards you.

First one-shot, hope that you'll all like it ( sorry in advance for grammar mistakes😣). I'll probably do it in two or three shots.

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#diabolik lovers #subaru x reader #x reader #two or three shots

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