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2 months on T!!

Ok so where the hell has the time gone. Literally been 2 months and I never thought it could go so quickly. You always look at other people's translations and never imagine you could soon be getting there. To be honest not too much has changed. I was getting some pains in my shoulder the other day.. My voice doesn't hurt any more which is good.. But my vocals get sore when i try to sing higher and it's more strained! I can sing in a much lower more comfortable range now but it's strange trying to sing in different tones to match your songs lol My voice is in and out. I can make it deep but usually it's just in the middle. But more people have noticed it and I actually can pass on the phone now which I could before.. Men don't talk as much as women do in such a rushed haste kinda way so I've had to learn to slow my speech down and not say too much or get too excited haha I have lost a stone so far and I went form 16 stone 3 to 14stne 13 at the moment so I am well happy with my progress Laith Ashley is my body goals incase your wondering. My BMI for surgery needs to be 30 at least so I'm working on that as my motivation.. I probably will get that next year but I'll see how I feel up to that because I may get really sick and tired of lugging these boobs about specially when I start to look more manly.. Perhaps private could be a option who knows.. I have a more furry face and chin hairs are there and getting darker but not majorly noticeable. My moustache corners are getting darker.. My shoulders seems bit wider.. I have new hair on my belly where I didn't before and I noticed my hair grows back quicker which is funny I'm hairy anyways so not much has changed.. No chest hair yet lol I feel really good to be honest and can say for me testosterone has made me feel so much happier. On the 2nd March I'll be doing my first injection under the nurses supervision! Happy but crapping myself also. I just think it's good to learn because it's going to become more regular.. My dr has said I'm am on 250mg of sustanon every 4 weeks now. So I'm happy about that. Had no negative side effects so far. My blood tests came back great in the make range. I'll say my pee smells differnt and I've had downstairs growth lol and I stink a lot quicker so more showers and just in general am embracing everything. Even a hairy butt lol What can I say.. We can't pick where it grows haha Next update will be my second shot day done by myself lol Have fun guys

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6 weeks on T

So I started sustanon on 2nd February 2017. I have been prescribe a half dose again which is kind of annoying. But it's 125mg. I got my prescription and took it to the Gp to see the nurse. She was really nice and was speaking to me about my Transistion and how I knew ect.. She wanted to inject in my butt muscle.. I was like actually I want to do the injections myself because they will become more frequent and I don't want to have to come to the Gp all the time. She was like that's fine.. She was like I'll schedule you in again on March 2nd and you can do that one yourself under the supervision of Nurse Caroline. As she is also a prescriber she can give you needles and a sharps box. I was excited and nervous. I don't mind injections and actually had my blood test done first for testosterone, estadiol and full blood count. Then she asked me come over and see what she was doing.. I already know about needles ect as I researched. She told me she was going to draw up with a 21 inch gauge 1/2 inch needle and inject with the same needle size but obviously change it for a new needle. It's such a thick and oily substance and honestly I forgot to warm it up in my hand before I gave it to her to snap open as it was a ampoule and not a vial. As I have been on Testogel I felt excited knowing I no longer have to do the ritual of rubbing it on and waiting for it to dry and then have it restrict my life for 6 hours and worrying about transferring it all the time lol And I didn't like the stickiness it left on my skin.. I was paranoid about creaming over it!! Lol and having to shower all the time before sex.. Come on lol So she sat me down and told me to relax and then she showed me to hold the needle like a dart and she put it in my thigh.. Let me tell you the 21 inch needle is frigging huge.. Yeah it didn't hurt going in.. But when she moved it slightly to draw up to make sure she hadn't hit a blood vessel I felt it lol and then she she slowly injected in I could feel it wierdly spreading into and over my muscle and then it hurt as she drew it out.. She applied pressure and out a plaster on.. Then whilst talking when I went to stand up to do up my pants I felt the pain like someone was beginning to deaden my leg!! And when I got to my car I was like seriously lol!! Driving was myth and my leg got worse. By the time I got to work I was limping and I couldn't even raise my leg up. When I got home I put a hot water bottle on and couldn't even work out I was so annoyed.. Then the second day it was still sore.. But the 3rd and 4th I was back to normal.. But I don't know whether it was cause it was my first.. Or because we didn't warm it up or because she didn't do it slow enough, but next time we are not doing a 21 inch and are gonna try either 23 or 24 hahah!!! I'm not about that big needle lol.. And I will swap the leg haha which is good practise anyway.. Eventually I will ask for nebido like after 6 months.. But for now this is excellent and made me really happy :) Literally I've had my first voice drop and I've only been on it 6 weeks that's incredible and bare in mind I've been on half doses. So i could only imagine what would happen when It increase!! My doc is just playing safe and trying to ease me in gently which is fine lol The only changes have been downstairs growth, more facial hair, drop in voice, Things that have already happened is my sex drive is through the roof, hunger and energy is still great! All in all I am very happy on T :) I will probably do a 2 month on t update as weekly not much happens to be honest or it does but it's just not as noticeable!

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4 weeks on T!!

So I am 4 weeks and 1 day to be precise on Testogel! To be honest changes are really minimal at the moment and pretty much the same.. I still have my appetite, libido is nuts, spots are ok they come and go! Body hair seems the same as I was hairy before, voice still gets sore and seems lower but defiantly hasn’t broken as I still don’t pass all the time and it’s annoying. been working on my fitness and getting this weight down. So far it’s been good but I’ve hit a bit of a weightloss wall and need to break through it!! looking forward to my holiday to Thailand which is my big fitness motivation in March! Counting down the days really. I am really pushing myself and getting a little stronger each day! ive noticed that my tash seems to be a little darker and the hairs are growing where there was none before.. Like around the Corners of my mouth and above my normal tash. My side burns are more fluffy. But it’s still not much. But then again I am only a month in and started half of that on a half dose of Testogel. Im still not enjoying applying it everyday.. And honestly can’t wait to get my injection on the 2nd February. I am so happy! I know I am absorbing T I just don’t know how well or what my levels are yet?! I know on the gel changes are slower dependant on how well you absorb it anyways! i actually can’t wait to do my injections myself and not have to go to the nurse. Once again I will be on a half dose which is like 125ml sustanton every 4 weeks until the doc ups it. I feel like this is too low.. But I understand why she doesn’t want to give me 250 straight away( just incase I react badly to it) so it’s like 31ml a week if you look at it that way. a standard dose to start on can be 25ml- 60ml a week or something like that so least I’m not on the lowest dose lol! apart from that I am getting my passport done this Saturday and feeling good about that! I also am having my fam up to chill and watch movies as it was my birthday on the 25th January. Honestly the best present by far has been my partner and my T hahaha! They both make me very happy. i hope you are all well in these freezing conditions in the uk lol.. I hope your journeys are all you want them to be.. And I guess even when you think things are not happening.. They are.. Trust me time is flying by already!! I’ll probably do m next update on the 2nd Feb 🙂 have a good weekend guys 🙂

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2 weeks on Testogel 1/2 dose and other things!!

hey everyone so tomorrow marks 2 weeks on T. A couple of things have happened since.. I spoke to my Gp and arranged my next blood test for testosterone , estadiol and full blood count. i also asked my private Gp for Nebido. But she doesn’t feel comfortable giving me that yet and instead recommended sustanon. So I am now going to be on that from the 1st February. My Testogel would have lasted me till 26th Feb on half dose but now if I use one full sachet a day it will finish nicely in time for my first injection. I plan to get the nurse to do it and show me how’s it’s done because I ain’t got time for 4 weekly injections at the Gp. I would prefer to do it myself. So I’ll let you know how that goes in March lol. I am on 125 sustanon again a half dose. I would prefer if she just let me have full 250. But I think she has my interests at heart as well as not wanting to risk herself. She wants to start on that then increase it providing I am ok. I think she is easing me in slowly to make puberty. I am just greatful to be on T. Sustanon is costing me£3.15 a injection of 250 which is usually given every 3-4 weeks. testogel is £40 and you get 30 sachets and you don’t even know how much you are absorbing and changes will be slower but less peaks and troughs.. ( ups and downs) id just prefer to know that once it’s injected it’s in and will work!! Also not have to apply this everyday And have to wait 6 hours to be able to do anything. I am deffo not for gel at all!! I find it irritating and annoying.. However I have noticed changes.. still have a sore throat. Hairs are becoming darker on tash and face.. Seeing new hairs appearing. More hungry still, still increased libido and voice cracks a bit more.. And that’s in two weeks!! On a half dose. Im hoping 3 more weeks on a full sachet should make a difference. I am working out and eating healthy and trying to maximise the T to its full potential. I really can’t wait 🙂 i also am talking to a cool due called Jacob or jay Phillips and could relate to him alot( another transman) I find having someone to compare things with is awesome.. ohh and my face is really dry and hot.. So I’m kinda the opposite of oily skin. Few spots but nothing major so far 🙂 keep you posted. Probably gonna do this weekly as maybe more changes will be more noticeable 🙂 also doing my passport this month and just got back my driving license. Feels good to finally see my name on there and the male numbers on it too which is either 0-1 and women is 5-6 so make sure when you get it changed you ask them to make your number male. Because they usually forget. You can find out by looking at line 5 on your license. It will be YMMDDY so mine would be like 825018 (25th Jan 1988) a females would be 825518. Hope that helps 🙂 speak soon Nicholas

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Day 8 on Testogel

Hi there, So today marks day 8 on Testogel.. I can’t believe the time has gone by so soon. What has happened this week is.. I spoke to my practise Nurse who said she would be happy to do my Nebido injection for me!!! She said she would send it by email or fax to Dr Webberley so I will wait until Friday and then ask the gender GP if they have recieved yet. If not I will re contact the nurse as people do forget!! I have also asked DR Webberley that instead of prescribing Testogel at the start of the February to just prescribe Nebido. I’m thinkin if she increases my Testgel amount I could finish this box instead of the 26th Feb on half doses and finish it at the end of January instead on full doses. i do feel like half a dose although I’ve send some changes is pretty slow going. But then again puberty is slow and for guys happens from like 13-21 where as I’m having it in like 1-3 years lol i think I am being impatient again!! So I’ll update you with what the Dr says. I also need to get a blood test redone start of February for testosterone, estadiol and my blood count and blood pressure reading again. so changes and changes.. Hmm well I have been getting more spots than usual on my face!! It’s like everyday pop attack lol. But whats intresting is behind the spots is hair so I think hair is trying to pop through but irritating my skin which then spots up. My skin is not oily though and pretty dry my voice is still raspy and I think when I talk it cracks between a bass tone and me somewhere. I am going to start doing weekly recordings of my voice before I forget how I used to sound lol i can sing still by struggle as my voice is sore. I’ve had some down stairs growth. Though it’s a small one it deffo feels different down there. I am more aroused at everything and always hungry. my traps have been hurting me. Some times I’m just sitting down and it will a ache. Yesterday I had a bit of pain in my ovaries and I felt like it might be that time of the month.. So I will see if that comes or not or perhaps Testogel is trying to stop that lmao(please God) lmao Soo… so far only changes is some growth downstairs, slightly darker hair on tash, spots, voice is sore, sore muscles, minor tummy ache and aroused at everything and always thinking about food lol.. i hope everyone else is happy with thier changes and has a good day.. Nicholas

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Day 4 beard update and changes

Ok so this is totally crazy and cool but from the 2nd day of taking Testogel the left side of my face was really rough and I thought is was acne coming in although the I have never suffered either acne as a kid! my face felt hot and still does and I got a few minor spots. so you can imagine my shock this morning on a face inspection when I saw like 5 hairs on the side left of my face coming through Sharp and thick and 5-6 under my chin and like 2 on my right side. Also my moustache looked a little darker but no thicker hairs. I now realise what I am feeling is the tips of the black hair coming through!!! this is pretty incredible considering I am on a half dose of Testogel. Imagine what a full dose would do. There has been no other changes but I am super happy about getting facial hair already coming through on day 4 of Testogel on 25mg. Lol enjoying waking up each day and seeing what’s different. My voice is still sore and I don’t talk as loud as I used too but I think I still sound the same. so I guess today is just a beard update as nothing else has happened yet 🙂 have a good day guys!! Nicholas

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Testogel day 3!!!

So today marks the 3rd day on Testogel, I am not sure whether to document this daily or weekly. Or just when things happen. But for now I’ll see how it goes. I woke up and showered and am trying to apply the gel the Same time everyday well until I go back to work and shower a lot earliar. I think I have got the hang of applying it now and am not so scared to actually apply it. I just spread it out wide and it sinks in. I then chill for like 5-10 minutes and then get dressed. I think what is slightly harder is applying half a sachet. But I think I know where half is now lol. Yesterday I actually cut the pack open to get the last bit of gel inside lol. I felt like a crackhead trying to get the last hit.. Lol so changes, changes. I am going to try and be as open and honest as I can. So if you don’t like to hear intimate stuff please don’t read on.. Makes sense right lol I haven’t had any growth below.. I am pretty well endowed there anyway so I don’t know if I will but either way will be intresting to see what happens.. something that did happen was I am producing less discharge than usual..virtually none.. Like dried up! And it actually smells a lot more pleasent.. This is kind of wierd because I actually heard it can make that well sort of smell worse.. So thumbs up for T as so far I am enjoying not having for a better word “wet” boxers. Just because mine likes to self cleanse too much lol.. I also have been experiencing sensations down below in my “bean” and been getting horney over stupid things! To be honest though that could just be me really lol yesterday my throat was still semi sore and lumpy. I sang and i was able to hit all my high notes. My face was Itchy and a little rashly yesterday and I was hot as hell.. Like burning up and then cooling down lol im quite a hot person anyway but this felt like how I imagine the menopause would feel…poor poor women!!! i also felt pretty tired by midnight.. My hunger levels are usual, but this morning when I woke up I had B.O. This is not normal for me specially when I didn’t sweat the bed out.. Ohh I am bit of a night sweater to be honest I put it down to stress, being overweight and our duck feather duvet that kills me with warmth!! So it was a pleasent surprise to wake up dry but not so nice to smell so spicey lool.. I actually welcomed a shower. Today the gel went on my traps, upper arm/shoulder and my tummy. I like the idea of swapping sites about and i guess seeing if it helps with absorption… today is New Years and we are taking my wife’s brothers home to thier family and probably will spend it there. It’s been nice to have a house full of teens and watch films and play Xbox/ps4 all night! Been like a never ending sleep over. So glad I don’t have to be at work until the 3rd Jan. whats also quite funny is I began the year and girl and will be ending it a boy! Sweet. I am hormones and now apart from needing to sort my diet out as Xmas has been epic lol ( put on like 10 pounds lol) it’s a blessing and curse to be able to put on weight lol!! but now I want to put this T into action. I also asked Dr Webberley for Nebido and she is happy to prescribe it as long as my practise nurse is happy to inject me with it. I have a call on the 3rd to discuss this with the nurse so let’s hope she is fine doing it for me. She is the same one who did my bloods and was lovely. Gel is cool and all but it’s not for me.. I don’t like waiting about to get dressed or not being able to mess about with my partner for up to 6 hours and have to shower again before hand!! I also think mentally Nebido would be better for me as i don’t have to worry about transfer or have it ruin my holiday to Thailand soon..I love love love water and I don’t want restrictions on when I can swim and I am also worried about it transferring to my partner as I won’t be able to cover up so easily.. So a brief cap of this year is.. I got a new car,got a Shepkita called Titan,moved to the Midlands in a new home, got a new job and finally became the manager I always wanted to be, planned to have a family with my partner( which we have put on hold until I change my birth certificate), paid our holiday off to Thailand for March,wife pass her driving test first time, held our first ever family Xmas in our new home and cooked all the food, came out on the 22/11/16 to my wifey as being Trans, told everyone at work end of November 2016, changed my name officially on the 2/12/16, sent of all my documents to be changed in December, got reffered to the GIC and received confirmation of this and started hormone therapy on the 29th December 2016… what a crazy ass full on year this has been and probably even more happend. But one thing that stays strong is my love for my partner and her dedication and devotion to me no matter how annoying I can be. She could have walked away and said I can’t do this, but she is learning to except my changes and still shows me mad love and affection and is a true definition of a star.. Also my family and friends have been so amazing so I want to thank them too.. So let the good times roll and let’s get this year over with and enter the new one a whole new me.. Happy new year guys and girls 🙂 Nicholas

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Testogel day 1 30 sachets

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Testogel Day 1!!!!

So today my Testogel came!!!! It came about 8.30am and my partner signed for it as I was at work. when I got in I couldn’t believe how small the packaging was!! I was thinking the box would be large lol but there is deffo 30 in there. i read the side of the box and it says 1/2 a sachet each day. I admit I was a bit disappointed as I thought I would take a whole one each day! But I guess the dr wants to see how I go.. i am waiting a reply from the clinic to see how long I have to take 1/2 for because it doesn’t say and I worked out if I stayed on half I would run out on the 26th February. ill let you know when I find out. I will also let you know when I can swap to injections which I think could be at the 3-6 month mark hopefully. I don’t mind the gel but really don’t want to apply something everyday. i took a shower when I got in as it recommends you do this I wil also make note that apart from today the gel will religiously go on at the same time every morning. i am so excited lol it’s like I seem to think as soon as I apply the gel I will grow a beard and my voice will deepen. I know this is not realistic lol!! i get out and dry myself( probably more careful than ever before) don’t know why! And I take a sachet and push the gel down a bit and tear it open. Straight away I can see a little clear gel and smell a alcohol sanitiser type smell, but it’s not bad! I am going to apply it to both upper arms and my tummy. I get the sachet a mark half way with my thumb and squeeze the magical juice onto my left arm first and then my right. I take my right finger and gently spread it over quite largely and evenly. I can feel the air make it cold and it’s wet and slightly sticky but already drying into my skin. I repeat on my right arm and rub the residue on the inside part of my arm. i then put some on my tummy and even it out that seem to dissapear even quicker and leaves a less glazed and white appearance. i noticed on my arms they felt sticky and there was a white glaze but it wasn’t think. I checked this up and to be honest there is mixed reviews about it. Some say the T is the white stuff and it’s hasn’t gone in fully. Others say it’s the residue of the gel and it gently rubs of on your clothes through out the day. i think tomorrow ima spread it out a lot more and rub it in Just a little better. Practice will make perfect but I’m not allowing myself to get stressed about it. I didn’t use my palm because I have a couple cuts that are open and I would imagine it would sting like hell!! It doesn’t say to not apply to broken skin! i stood and got my lower half dressed and then it was dry in like 3-5 mins. I put my compression vest on and t shirt and am good go. I am not sure what to expect to be honest. It’s been about 2 hours and my throat felt a bit funny but I don’t know if that’s cause everyone is sick in my house or because I want changes so bad that you start to have phantom feelings lol who knows everyone recieves it at a different rate!! But for now I am happy to say I have started my T journey on the 28th December 2016 and I can’t wait to share it all with anyone who happens to read my blog. I am thinking to do a YouTube so that I can document my voice and certain other things that I found so damn helpful when learning about the FTM experience… keep you all posted.. From one happy dude to another!!! Nicholas

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Xmaz day!!

So today has been a wonderful day to remember, me and my partner S are hosting Christmas and have her family over. Was so nice to get presents and give them and have that family vibe going on. Been in and out the kitchen all day cooking turkey, pork and lamb.. With goose fat potaotes, honey parsnips and pigs in blankets and homemade gravy And stuffing. It’s been epic.. coudnt really sleep cause I’m just a big kid really.. Our dog got a new bed and huge rope toy.. There going to get Christmas dinner too ( our dog and 2 cats) My partners sister brought me a really cool shaving kit and I got some awesome fcuk body set that made me smell divine.. Got clothes ect!! but I would say the best present of all of love and support of all my family and friends this year.. also hormones this Thursday will be Amazing!! I also ordered a mr limpy packer.. From love honey. I had one before but I think that melted when my partner left it on the window ledge one summer!! the only dissapoint is they don’t make my cameral skin tone. And the one I ordered that was cameral from a site called pure gender.co.uk seems to have taken my money and not delivered the goods so I am not sure if the site is a scam or what! There is no one to complain to either. I ordered on the 17rh and still haven’t Heard anything despite my emails and concerns.. So I may count my loss of £14 and move on..least I know lovehoney.co.uk is legit by they just didn’t have any options except white,, which I am not. So guys perhaps don’t order from puregender because all their social media seems to be inactive, dispite the scam alert website saying they are legit ect and being recommended by some site for FTMs!! i like packing and am probably going to convert it into a stand to pee device.. Lol maybe buy a airbrush kit and make it brown lol I plan to use stalls anyways as I dot get stage fright but I think in time as I blend more in I will just be cool and go! But I think once I get a deeper voice and facial hair my partner will have to frequent the toilets alone! Lol time to get drunk, eat and be merry!! Have a merry Xmas everyone.. Nicholas xx

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GIC Referral is here!!!!

So surprisingly today my refferal letter from the Nothamptonshire Clinic came through just to say they have my refferal and to await my first appointment. Its a small victory as I was going to call the GP on 28th to ask them if they had done it yet as it took almost 3 weeks for my doctor to sort it out even though I took the completed form with me on the 6th December 16, as it asks lots of questions to do with why is the patient being reffered, childhood questions and about your Dysphoria and whether you are taking hormones ect and what your wishes are for the future.. I.e surgery ect. My GP would not know that as I’ve never approached them before about gender Dysphoria. So I guess I helped him help me… The waiting time for Northamptonshire is like 6-9 months roughly. But still could be close to 1 year. The way I see it new year.. New me.. And time does fly even though it doesn’t always feel that way.. I got my prescription for hormones coming Thursday 29th and now a referral confirmation to the GIC!! 2016 hasn’t been to bad at all. I am also hoping that by the time I have my first apointment I would have almost been a year on T and a year RLE so perhaps they can refer me for chest surgery sooner.. Well good things to come… One small step at a time.. Can’t wait to start posting my changes… Merry Christmas everyone and happy new year.. Mine finally Will be…

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Finally got my prescription for Testogel

I can’t even begin to tell you how I feel.. It’s mixed emotions.. For those who don’t know my story I decieded to bridge the gap( go private for hormones) with the OnlineGp with Dr Webberley. This has been a interesting experience with only a few minor complaints from myself regarding things that could have been done better to speed up the process. Now compared to the NHS it would take me possibly 1 year and 6 months to get on T. That is not even an option for me. I can by no means really afford private but when you really need something you’ll find the money.. I can promise you I’m not a stripper or gigalo haha With the Dr Webberley it has taken just under 3 weeks. Perhaps it could have been sooner but I had to wait for appointments for blood tests with my NHS GP and wait and wait and wait and then finally with a lot of phone calls and chasing get my results so I could send them over.. This is all covered on my other blogs.. I am a extremely impatient person and the one thing I haven’t enjoyed that much is waiting for Online doctors responses. I like to talk back and fourth and waiting 24 hours for a reply can seem really well.. Long.com. Specially if your asking something really simple. The things that could have been done better was.. 1) I could have completed the consent form and data protection forms when I first joined up as part of the £195 initial assesment.. 2) I could have set up the standing order also from when I made the first payment. 3) it took two days from when I set up the standing order to get my prescription.. 4) I was told once I pay my subscription the prescription would be done.. So it led me to believe by the next day I would have it and be able to get my T in time for Xmas which was all I wanted… 5) there should have been more interaction with dr Webberley from the beginning and not her secretary’s as then she could have asked me what she wanted and I could have had more input and asked her directly about things like you would a normal GP. It’s a bit wierd talking to secretary’s about things you could just get from your GP. I just feel if your paying for a service then things like the prescription could have been done sooner specially when I was literally begging for it to be done by 11am and then at 2.30pm it’s done and now probably too late for clear chemist to actually dispatch it to me.. I also felt a bit dissapointed that at 8.51am dr Webberley is emailing me to tell her once again do I understand the risks, my emotions, feelings, impact and fertility when I have filled that all out already and spoken about it millions of times. I would have preferred a online chat or a Skype call so we could discuss that and then she could have just done my prescription. i feel this has been a mixed feeling experience for me.. And when I am paying so much for something I would have expected a little bit better service.. I thought the responses of the staff were actually excellent but even now I haven’t had a response yet from the dr regarding my dosage or if she could do my prescription by 11am.. and then I got Semi told off for ordering my prescription before the dr had write it. But I was just getting annoyed that they wernt even going to do it today and that hopefully it would speed them up into processing it.. clear chemist on the other hand have been excellent dispite negative reviews and advised me to pay for the prescription as I would get it next Thursday now because it probably wouldn’t come in time.. so I could have been starting T tomorrow and been quite happy.. Now I am starting T in probably 6 days from now. I am not happy about it and it sucks dick big time..!!But I am not going to let it ruin my Xmas and you know what some guys out there are really struggling to even get T, so I will man up and stop ranting about it.. dispite a few complaints the service has actually been pretty good and I would still recommend it to others. I just wish it was cheaper and the communication was better when you are just askin for your prescription to be done by a certain time.. But Drs don’t like being told what to do apparently! Lol so ma bad!! i have Been told to email when I get down to a 7 day supply so let’s see how it goes.. Merry Xmaz All xxx Nicholas

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image.jpeg So the waiting game begins.. I have paid for my prescription and set up a standing order. I just got a email from the Gender clinic like an hour ago stating they have recieved everything and have passed it to Dr Webberley and will be in touch shortly. The deadline for me to get my Testogel is tomorrow.. This is possibly the worse kind of year as I know clinics are busy, postal service are struggling and everyone has time off or is sick.. I didn’t realise I could call the clinic and noticed thier number at the top of the screen. I called this morning and the person I spoke to was friendly but like no one is available and ill get them to call you back. well within 20 minutes I recieved a email from Katie about my standing order and everything being passed to Dr Webberley. i have asked numberous times if thee prescription could be done today as I have to order no later than 11am tomorrow. But no one seems to want to confirm yes or no. They actually don’t respond to that at all and just say dr Webberley will assess and get back to you.. I guess they do not want to speak for the Dr incase it doesn’t happen and then you get someone’s hopes up. so once again here I am playing the waiting game and twiddling my thumbs at work.. I personally feel like this is the downside to the online clinic, where as if it was face to face least you would know what’s happening immediately. Don’t get me wrong they respond always within 24 hours. But if it takes a day to answer one question then you can see how it would drag out. also I could have signed the consent forms and set up the standing order in the beginning so that would be my only gripe really. I also feel like I am pestering them when I send emails to ask, will it? Can it? Ect lool you get get semi scared your impatience will prolong the order lol!! now I just have to wait for the dr to write my prescription so I can go online and order.. Let’s hope and pray that’s today!!

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FTM Transition Intro

LIVE IN THE LIGHT OF THE FUTURE AND NOT THE DARKNESS OF THE PAST NICHOLAS JAMIE RYAN L Journey of a Trans Man.. The ups and the downs and a general idea of what it's like to Transistion in the Uk and have Gender Dysphoria. Hi there, my name is Nicholas and I will be keeping a blog of my journey with the NHS and private healthcare. I will be discussing thoughts and feelings of a Trans man. I will talk about my relationship and coming out to loved ones and work. This is a way for me to also look back and remember who I was before and how it’s helped me get to where I am today. If I can help one more person know they’re making the right choice then that would be great. All opinions are my own and I won’t be giving any medical advice just what I go through as anyone who is thinking about transitioning should defiantly consult thier GP and Gender Identity Clinic.