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Hiii. I love your acc and the analyses you've made of TVC characters; reading your posts has expanded and helped me articulate the ideas I already had. Anne Rice as an author was very revealing, I mean, by reading her books and analyzing the characters and their dynamics, you get a lot of information about her as a person. That's very interesting. I think all authors put a bit of themselves into their works, but with Anne Rice it feels more personal, maybe because there are quite a few books following the same characters. What do you think?

omg thank you so much 🥹❤️ the makes me so happy. I agree wholeheartedly with ur take on Anne rice. The books are suuuper personal, sometimes to the point where I almost feel like I shouldn’t have access to them 😭 like I’m reading someone’s weird diary. I think this was because her writing functioned as her only outlet. like iwtv was so visceral and sad bcus it was such a raw unfiltered expression of her grief, and the rest of the books all follow the same format (to varying degrees of quality lol).

When it comes to the characters, she was open about how every character is in some way representative of a part of her (especially Lestat and Louis). U can analyze for days how Louis and lestats evolutions r akin to witnessing evolutions of Anne rices mental health, Louis her former self insert created during probably the darkest time in her life later becoming a representation of what she considers the worst parts of herself that she is ashamed of and being basically cut from the series, and Lestat going from an embodiment of her fraught relationship with her husband in iwtv to in tvl a power fantasy who she wishes she was like to at the same time a mouth piece for her existential dread and loneliness and anxieties

The way that lestats religious crisis and manic breakdown from Memnoch to blood canticle aligns perfectly with Anne rice’s own religious crisis and sudden shift in her work is so crazy to me😭 and then there’s Anne rice literally using Lestat as a blatant mouth piece to scream at the audience in the iconic blood canticle opening monologue of course, how could we forget. A lot of the time the personal nature of these books makes the technical quality of them worse, but even still it is one of the major reasons why I love them so much. Part of it is that reading something so personal and unfiltered, where u get the impression that the author wasn’t thinking at all about how it would come off to people while writing it, makes it feel almost more real to me? Or more authentic? Reading tvc sometimes makes me feel like I’m reading actual history or personal accounts from real people. And the bad writing and offensiveness and heaps of bullshit and the pages of unrelated tangents adds to this in a way 😭. Like yeah this is exactly what reading a biography by a hundreds of years old vampire would be like lmao.

I love interpreting themes in these books so much because I often feel like Anne rice didn’t place them there on purpose. She had a very “I’ll just write whatever is in my mind and the themes will happen on there own” approach, and they did! and for someone like me analyzing it is super rewarding. Figuring stuff out that the author wasn’t even aware of, basically. Tvc are rich with meaning in a way that only these books are, and the personal nature and the lack of thought into meaning or themes is I think majorly responsible. For me when it comes to fiction, I like to do the work. And Anne rice throwing her personal as hell freak sex vampire yaoi with the most agonizing portrayals of trauma and mental illness ever no editing no forethought out into the world definitely gives me room to do the work 😭

Also, I tend to really only enjoy art if I feel like it is a messy reflection of the creator. I’m not sure why but I can never really get into something unless I can see some of the creators flaws or baggage reflected in the work 😭 I feel like art isn’t rlly art to me if I don’t feel like a know the person who made it a little too well after seeing it. There’s something really special about finding out the worst parts of someone in a book, honestly. I love reading these and being like there is so much wrong with this woman and I know way too much about it 😭 she’s horrible but I’ve lived in her mind and I don’t wanna leave.

I admire in a way Anne rices unhinged abandon with how blatantly vent-like and unfiltered her books were (literally unedited 😭). She got extremely lucky making a career from it, typing out all her insane thoughts and feelings into gay vampires and becoming rich and famous. A girl can only dream for that life, I do that shit for free on a03. I don’t think I’ve ever encountered anything published that has the same energy as tvc in this way. The only thing that comes close would be like, a quotev fan fiction I read for laughs written by a ten year old in 2010 who is unintentionally revealing way too much to me about their semi concerning home life 😭. It’s wonderful! Thank u Anne rice for ur beautiful scary lack of shame u have given me so many things to write about on tumblr

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I go to sleep for 8 hours and come back to like 30 thousand new trailers and teasers and Lestat kissing Louis and Armand moaning skankily with his tits out and WHAT ABOUT ME AND YOU and YOU LEFT ME and Louis falling out of a burlap sack like a potato and Armand biting Young Old Maniel and Santiago going all "Ya filthy animals", man if you miss a day, you miss a lot around here.

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You guys really liked my last poll so

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The idiots.

I love ,,Devil's Minion" chapter so much

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Armand’s gorgeous titties aside I am so mf intrigued by this room that they’re in bcus I’m assuming it’s armand’s room at the theater, and with this in mind there is both a painting *in progress* on display there and allusive red curtains (VERY MARIUS’S ROOM IN VENICE), which like omg this combined with how the last name armand is going by in his theater days is literally marius makes me think my boy is firmly clinging to his past (if not stuck in it) and I’m so so excited by this character stuff at work here

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The next season of love on the spectrum goes crazy guys

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Me and the bestie

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FEELING NORMAL

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"Intermission is almost over. Take your seats and prepare for Act II."

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this is niche probably but armand 100% watched the original twin peaks when it was airing and then the return when that came out in 2017 and felt a mental breakdown inducing kinship with Laura Palmer. I think if they somehow coexisted they’d get along great, esp Laura and TVA era mortal armand. Both had their lives taken at 17, immortalized supernaturally, both charming well liked teenagers who were also a bit strange and offputting, were repeated csa victims and actively enduring demonic-esc supernatural trauma, sought out pain for pleasure and dangerous relationships to cope, substance abuse, used angelic and Christian imagery as a comfort for what they were going through, semi prophetic/symbolic reoccurring dreams that r very significant to them, existential dread, beautiful big eyes that are wide and unnerving, conflicting relationship with father figure/demonic tormentor, conflicting relationship with religion, conflicting relationship with maturity and childhood, the color Red

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we don’t give little Andrei enough credit for being the most bad ass mf to ever live. His father is actively beating him and verbally abusing him and this stone cold killer is unphased pulling out his crazy comebacks no hesitation

Seeing Andrei be a little asshole makes me sad weirdly enough. he was just such a character. not only was he an extremely skilled hunter and miracle working painter + child genius but he was witty and a bit of a big mouthed dick and strong willed and full of life. Like he could’ve been so much and any chance of a life was robbed from him from the start

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we don’t give little Andrei enough credit for being the most bad ass mf to ever live. His father is actively beating him and verbally abusing him and this stone cold killer is unphased pulling out his crazy comebacks no hesitation

Seeing Andrei be a little asshole makes me sad weirdly enough. he was just such a character. not only was he an extremely skilled hunter and miracle working painter + child genius but he was witty and a bit of a big mouthed dick and strong willed and full of life. Like he could’ve been so much and any chance of a life was robbed from him from the start