nihlistnancy
nihlistnancy
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She/Her very ambitious but not in the icky way; in the let’s figure out how to save the world way, love philosophy, talking about death, politics sadly 🤮, tuberculosis fighter, climate change activist, like lists, like talking about myself. Joined Tumblr cause John Green liked it, it’s actually really fun! I still don’t really know what’s going on here though and I’m probably using it wrong.FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸🍉
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nihlistnancy · 9 months ago
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Raised in a News Household
**check tags
I never had that delusion
That the world was ok and adult were infallible
Or even trustworthy
I was innocent once
Although not that I remember
Of course innocence is subjective
I am glad
Even if I grew up faster, I grew up better
I had unique insights and perspectives on things when I was only 11
I’m very interesting to talk to
If you can keep up
The one thing I wish they had just turned off
Was that school shooting
I was seven years old.
And when you’re that young
The lines between what you’ve seen and experienced are pretty blurred
Leah talks about seeing Coraline at that age and being so scared
I heard the audio of highschoolers being murdered at school
In the mornings
Before going to second grade
I still flinch at sudden noises and movements
But it’s better than it was when
I would shake
I was terrified
I thought they would get me
Whenever I was out in the hall
In the bathroom breathing
I knew about other mass shooting too
At the malls
At grocery stores
Everywhere.
Every person I’d see
Was a potential shooter
A threat
I’d flinch and be on edge all the time, constantly for years.
And my brother made fun of me for it
Mom got annoyed and thought it was silly
I was seven years old
And there was no longer a monster under my bed
But a man with a gun
Always a man with a gun.
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nihlistnancy · 9 months ago
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They are!! Queer people, people from all over the world, and….. recycling signs?
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nihlistnancy · 10 months ago
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Every time I think too deeply about how we've found the bones of thousands and thousands of years old ancient people and we've given them people names I just
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Guys, do you get it? We put to name these ancient peoples whose bodies vaguely resemble us and we go, "you're one of us, and we will give you a name that we have invented". They are not here to have a voice for themselves, but they are here to be remembered.
To be named is to be loved.
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nihlistnancy · 10 months ago
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to look stylish even in basic outfits 🦷
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nihlistnancy · 10 months ago
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nihlistnancy · 10 months ago
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almond princess diet
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ballerinas, figure skaters, dancers are dainty and disciplined. if they're tired, theyre not gonna give up! they'll keep going. sleeping is for the night.
you don’t eat because you’re bored, because it looks tasty, because your friends offered u food and you “dont wanna be rude” or because “why not”. you eat when you need to, to give your body energy.
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RULES
- eat twice a day!! breakfast, then choose either lunch or dinner. super low cal snacks are okay, like tea, gum and black coffee.
- it’s okay to fast if you’re not exercising tho.
- take vitamins/supplements!! you don’t want ur hair and teeth to fall out. id recommend iron, b12, zinc, calcium. or multivitamins are good.
- be tidy. keep your room clean, practice pretty handwriting, do skincare. focus on your schoolwork and yourself basically.
- remember to get a full nights sleep!! prevents acne and is good for your brain. (your body is probably very tired too)
- IF you MUST b1ng3, at least have something healthy, like fresh fruit or veggies. fast food is poison.
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nihlistnancy · 10 months ago
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Do it so you can be one of those girls who gets excited about the prospect of romance and isn’t busy trying to find ONE person who would date her.
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nihlistnancy · 11 months ago
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At midnight, when the anxiety peeks
I face the screen of my phone
The white shadow reflecting on my face
As some self-proclaimed expert tells me how to sleep
And I think: have I always been here?
MJL
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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[gets in with you]
[gets in my little clown car]
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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Dear world,
I want them to release doves at my funeral, like they do at weddings because a funeral is really just a marriage between my life and my memory. Let the doves be my soul (now pure) flying out into the world, no
evidence
that
it
was
ever
even
there
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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I’ve always seemed to be drawn to the sad.
Sad books
Sad movies
Sad music
Crushing on sad people
Wallowing over sad thoughts
To me sadness is beautiful
It’s not good but it’s elegant
It makes me want to looks further, dig deeper
It is the purest of the emotions, yet the most intriguing
Sadness isn’t good, but it can be very different from hopeless
There’s a moment when I’m on the floor, crying blue tears of the blue emotion out of my blue eyes, and I think: “I’m pretty when I cry”
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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Insomniac poetry!! (Needs some editing though ig)
Tw/Ed/body dysmorphia
Mirror mirror on the wall am I fat or am I small
Oh blessed mirror will you say
What should ruin my life today?
Is my nose to big, are my lips too small
My cheeks too much
Why do my knees sprawl
Should I skip dinner?
Was I always this fat or did I used to be thinner?
The Dr said I’m a healthy weight
Mirror is that true?
Everybody seems to agree I guess
Everyone but me and you
I don’t know what to do.
So I’ll take out every photo of me
That anyone’s ever taken
And zoom in on all the parts I hate
And freak over the changes in my looks from date to date
I’ll try on all the clothes
Ive worn a million times
To see if I look different
Than I remember in my mind
And then I will make faces
I’ll see my smile and think
What and ugly face I have
And then I’ll start to sink
Into the floor
Because what is all this for
Smiles are supposed to be pure,
Full of urgency
To express one’s joy
Not exchanged for beauty currency
A wisp of a moment
Not a wisp of a girl
My smile and I are supposed to be
Fleeting pure beacons of life i
n the universes oblivion
Living contradictions
By now it’s 4:00am
I’m barely tired by then
Goodnight dear mirror
Tomorrow I’ll see you again.
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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This doesn’t even reveal what side of the political isle I’m on 😭
Never have I wanted to punch a senior citizen so hard before
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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Never have I wanted to punch a senior citizen so hard before
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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I promise to give some of it to charity 🤞
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this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!
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nihlistnancy · 1 year ago
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I love tumblr. It’s not like insta or twitter, I can just scream into the void and no one I know will find me here
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