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Day 12

I used to fast 22 hours and break it drinking alcohol, I can’t do that anymore cause im not going to school anymore, so now i try to complete my 22 hour fast, and break it with my mom food, i have an almond mom, so i just try to eat less, but without restricting much, cause I work out to much, and i don’t want to pass out just cause I didn’t want to eat, i would be embarrassed to pass out in front of everyone there, this week I dropped school and im all time at home, it doesn’t mean that i don’t have anything to do, i keep myself so busy, that school was a rock in my way.

But being home all day, is kind of frustrating on weekends, so this week I betrayed ana 😔

I feel awful and im trying to get back to ana again

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Day 11

I don’t have one, im new, so i still don’t have a favorite blog

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Day10

The bread man, i love bread and cookies and everything that has flour, and sugar, but my body is first right 😭

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My scars would look so much prettier on thinner thighs.

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I can't be anorexic silly! I'm fat!

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I see a lot of people romantizing their 4na, I dont want to do that. I'm sick and have a very unhealthy relationship with Food, i know that. The fact is, i'm sick but i simple dont care! Not until i'm so sick that you can see the results. Not until my body fit my illness!!!

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The truth is, people don't care whether you've lost weight in a healthy or unhealthy way. As long as you're no longer fat or chubby, they're happy. The idea that th¡nness is synonymous of health is still very much alive. You can be sick and deficient and people will still congratulate you on your weight loss.

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Today i eat like a pig, oink oink oink, I don’t want to se anyone until i have at least 30 hours of fast, or i had a big shit or something 😭

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Mi last bc

That day i was looking good 😁

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I feel kind of bad, is been the whole week and didn’t complete any fast for more than 23 hours, I wanted to be more than 30 😿

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Day 8

I work daily, i do gymnastic, and ice skating

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Day 7

Yes, they know, and just let me be, actually they know that i have an ed, but they don’t quite care, cause im still looking healthy

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ALT THINSPØ

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Day 6

Sometimes, i try my hardest to be loyal to ana, sometimes i need to eat something so i don’t cut mu self again, is been hard to drop that

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Day 5

Cause I want to feel good and free, also i need to lose the weight so i can make jumps on the ice