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lot of dysphoria and depression will be back when i’m not immediately trying to take my life 👍

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how to know you’re in a sai story

my frendos tagged me in this — @atelierwriting , @aflaat & @godswar. thank you frendos!!

⇢ the first rule of being in sai’s story is that we do not talk about sai’s story.

⇢ that said, enjoy the half-assed magic system that grants you overwhelming power until you’re finally freed from sai’s oc prison...

⇢ ... and suffer the grim reality of being a bland man instead.

⇢ what’s that? you’re a main character? you’re going to outlive your blood but never your beloved.

⇢ look at the sky! that a bird? that a plane? nah, it’s just the endless cloud of tragic plotlines plaguing you for eternity. and a terrible looking moon. moon symbolism is a staple thing here.

⇢ the playlist of your life has at least two of the following artists: tamino, sevdaliza, cö shu nie, lorn, daniel licht & most notably... [insert obscure female artist here].

⇢ there’s always a pretty mountain close by whose description is more profound than the story itself.

⇢ and sleep paralysis demons. there’s always some variation of those.

⇢ romance is a social construct. your maker is a hater. (jk not really...)

⇢ the ANGST between your family and you tho... thick enough to suffocate a pro wrestler.

⇢ cackling can be heard from heaven, as ugly realities you’ve spent your life refusing to face come at you with a tenacity that rivals that of haikyū’s greatest defense specialists...

tagging @carumens , @marewriteblr , @nikolae , @santinas , @vandorens & @writemares !

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queen noticed me 🤲👌🦶

🖊🖊🖊!

omg okok I'll do this for wrdtw characters bc I haven’t talked about that wip NEARLY enough

starting off with ur local himbo ivan petrovich

tall. blond. stupid

what more could you want? he's just trying his best

youngest of three brothers and kinda a brat

really good with a bow !! if only his mind was as sharp as his aim 😔

he’s got FRECKLES and SQUISHABLE CHEEKS

supposedly a prince but man you would NOT want him to become tsar

though tbh his older brothers suck even more so like??? picking the less incompetent evil??????

his last name is voronin which basically means crow, which is fitting bc the moment he sees anything pretty or shiny his brain immediately short-circuits

and yes that applies to people too. complete bi disaster

gives great hugs but also deserves them

now vasilisa evgenievna!!

taller than ivan by one (1) inch, 6′1″ vs 6′

lesbian. so, so super gay

gets a MAGICAL SWORD

crippling case of resting bitch face but like in a regal kind of way

tries to act super knowledgeable and distinguished but she's just a rural small town girl that’s got no idea what’s going on

kind of??? the chosen one????? she has a lot of responsibilities on her shoulders and is trying her best to not let them weigh her down

extension of previous point: always stressed. always

would like very much to take a nap on galina’s lap

down to fight anytime and anywhere, and has gotten her nose broken several times as a result

legitimately super smart

and ig the last one will be koschei?? time to try and desperately avoid any spoilers

sticks m’leggy out real far

disgustingly pretty

no one:

me: koschei has LONG EYELASHES and LONG LEGS

tragique™ backstory, deserves better

kinda a manipulative asshole but unlike some OTHER manipulative assholes (COUGH) he’s got his reasons, not that they’re particularly great reasons

has no idea what he’s doing

also disaster bi but too busy trying to complete the quest given to him to think about it

high int low wis king

has a poor relationship with malachite (the rock)

and finally I will leave you with this (yes this is a toch @nikolae callout)

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do u know where aneleh went??? i think she deactivated or something... :(

hi i’ve gotten a couple of asks about this so i’m just going to answer this one and hope whoever is curious and keeps coming back figures it’s out. ana deactivated because it’s her final year and she wants to spend her all for it and not get swept apart in online drama. please respect her choice of not leaving a messsge before she deactivated. she’s okay, she’s just doesn’t have the time for this.

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leslie for marie claire taiwan mar. 2020

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WRITEBLR INTRO 

ryškus— [in lithuanian] meaning striking, bright, vivid, pronounced. a [writeblr] sideblog for my original works because my main devolved into a personal blog. i follow from @overlap. 

ABOUT ME 

hey! call me dominic. he/they pronouns, please! i’m bi, a minor, mixed race, and a phoenix wright kinnie [just kidding. kind of]. i love writing, linguistics, daydreaming about learning languages, and piano. here’s my carrd, navigation and mobile navigation.

WORKS 

note: i am consistently creating and abandoning works. please bare with me. there are more of my works [unlisted here] on my wip page. 

summer silence — when bodies start to turn up in town, two music majors lives’ become more and more intertwined in ways they do and don’t know. stories unravel, but are those stories are true? 

mud saints — six young, queer teens connected by catholic school navigate life, relationships, mental health, and catholic guilt in my extremely self indulgent young adult, slice of life novel. 

tagging a few mutuals + friends ! @nangua @linariouswrites @halcionic @warmshallows @nikolae @noteaboy @kryskakikomi 

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hi hello ily, just wanted to drop by to say that calla lillies is, as expected, incredible (i seriously haven't stopped thinking about it since i saw the intro omg) and that i hope you have a wonderful day!! *mwah*

AAAAAAAAAAA AZKA i have only one thing to give u and it’s all my love. thank u so much oh my god. it’s another wip i’m not thinking about at the moment and instead sprinting to write something w my punching bag oc but i’ll return to it over n over again as long as it takes because these were my first self discovery characters and really? the one closest to my heart. 

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“We are both girls, true, but it’s like saying that a nectarine and a watermelon are both fruit. She’s a little tart rolling over the tongue, creamy; I crumble in the mouth, wet and rough.”

— Daphne Gottlieb, Everything She Asks of Me

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coats aren’t enough, it’s too cold

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Holy spaces

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Guilt, plaster fragment

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Stephen Dunn, from “The Waiting”, The Insistence of Beauty: Poems

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“I thought I’d die / from being loved like that.”

— Marie Howe, from “Annunciation”

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nanowrimo 2020: week two. SOLARIS DESCENDED.

THE CONVENIENCE STORE THREE BLOCKS EAST.

identity, misplaced. childhood, forgotten. a liminal space halfway between motion and despair. the train stop on the way to a terrible ending.

Keep reading

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w r i t e b l r  /  i n t r o

— yang. they/them. minor <18. this writeblr is an attempt to commit to finishing my nanowrimo wip at least one of these years.

— i write about family drama, complicated relationships, and people who hurt each other a lot emotionally. 

— current projects that i’m working on

— ‘no less than blood’ (supernatural. a generations long family drama takes a deadly and irreversible turn after the turning of one of their own. nanowrimo wip) 

— ‘a killing sound’ (sci-fi. takes place in the same universe as ‘no less than blood’ but features a different protagonist. the process of grief is long and arduous and usually made worse by the presence of the person they left you for, before their death.) 

writeblrs that inspired me to make this writeblr: @atelierwriting @nikolae @whorizcn @acrimoneous @dearival @ryskus

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“On the Verge of the Event Horizon” [Experimental Photography; 2020]