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THRONES AND DOMINONS

 There is no once upon a time

The story’s beginning sinks before all of creation

Swallowed by the eternal

That was before stars shone.

  Do you want to know?

From where we had met each other?

Do you want to remember?

When it was we knew each other?

Do you want to feel?

What it was that made us

Who we are today?

  The coil time back to its beginning

And when the crocus blooms

Sink back into the…

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TRANS LION’S STAINED MANE

TRANS LION’S STAINED MANE

This summer’s heat has rolled in

On the waves of so many others

On the very course U.V. rays

Cut memories like that fibre glass rash

Or as soft as falling petals

Of daisies, roses and apple blossoms

  Then the sun has drifted down

From the afternoon curtain of light

The early afternoon sounds

Of lawn mowers, hedge trimmers

And the wisp of propane barbecue

Trails unseen smoke signals

Read by those…

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SEASONS OF TRESPASS

Seasons of trespass

In the autumn of a life

The sullen sky

The damp lain on our shoulders

Like blankets hidden sorrow

Fear grow and disdain

Aches in a child’s gut

Far away from the house of trust

  In a mile of woods

Where all the colors sunk

In the hearth’s season’s gloom

Wraps its talon into the heart

That makes childhood stuff safe

That lone child’s soul trapped

In the bones of this season’s…

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VERSES FROM 2013

VERSES FROM 2013 These are related to the dissociation and dysphoria that still plague my life although much less until I see the man in the mirror

I think of one of these

Long stretches of highway

You know where the trees reach

So high you’d swear

The leaves were blue

And the clouds make them

Sway as they pass

I look at you

And you bring me back to now

I think of your life

Somewhere in the world

The place you occupy

Fits in your own way

You wear the day

With a dark pride

You let its shadow

Spill over you

As your own waltzes

With concrete…

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Letter to Nina

  Now I’m waiting for august firefly

Under a heavy July

Humidified atmosphere

Pressing the breath out of me

Like the weight of you

Looking down with that smile

August firefly and autumn flame

It is that feeling again

Past meeting present

Together forging tomorrow

It kills me not to share the secret I keep

Of one cared for in such a short time.

In this universe of mine

Sister gone to the winds of…

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I WISH

I wish you would call

I have not the strength

I’ll give in to you is all

Never ever mind times length

Since we last spoke

You thought only lies

Come from the old man broke

And torn stunned and cries

The truth is worse than the lies

The lie is still preferred

The fallacy gives cause to cry

The truth a malignancy inferred

And the weight of it

Crushes my breath, my tears

With mental bargain and fits

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Sometimes you just want a little something out of life

Sometimes you just want a little something out of life

just a little to create and let grow but there the quiet ones who loose confusion just something to take away from the work you strive for in a garden rich in soil with seeds to sow the pretend farmers and the quiet ones sow confusion and rejection    the cold shoulders to ignore makes you stand alone  the oppression by speaking aver your ideas and dreams the prevention of decimating knowledge or…

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In the Land of the Back sun.

In the land of the setting sun

whence the ages one by one

died and were born again the peace weathered sweetly

compared to an eternal spring

and the midnight sun

smiles fondly upon us all

remember even the seasons change constantly

and in their constance

furrowed rows of growth and bloom

for us to uncloth the from the womb

as we wrench the day close to our hearts

and step by step in our oath

we…

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Spring is here

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Paintings

Painting helps me focus and not think about depression or other things

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Something new

https://www.behance.net/ninagisele9d30

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IN THE LAND OF THE BLACK SUN

In the land of the black sun

Where men have big guns

And women sleeping pill

We must keep our head

As not to be blinded by the moon

And the dark light it spreads

Turning you within full of dread

Keep your head on straigth

And perhaps the sun will shine bright is it does in their world.

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Words of denigration

Words of denigration pass through me like ultraviolet light.  It makes me burn like insulation fibre rubbed into your skin.  Looks of disgust are sharp with ignorance those who may place high in the world negatively transcend into their hatred.  Against light and nature’s joyous variety.  Nobody wants to be like you.  I certainly do not.  Oh to have such a burden of hate.  you wear the yoke of…

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These Days 

​These days ive known too well suck the life out of you.  The heavyness of this torpid accident of the universe can go and fuck itself.  Where the beauty drains from everything and every moment are tied to the dead dragging the weight of their dust behind you.  When looking ahead whats the use the only sight is the fog’s inundation of all ideas.  No more complexe revery on the canvas or on the…

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Lastly It Comes Unheard

​I want to sleep turn around into the deep

Leave the said unheard for the crowded and the bleak

Heavy as the dead heads bobbing from the dark fluids surfaces

The waters fathomless booty stir the ‘magining of ugly faces

Turn me round and let me sink into the dark and madness I know so well

It Is to me a sickening comfort hated an presumed a never ending swell

A crush from the years I’m used to it…

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Rejected

Rejected dejected into the space between heart beats.  you think this is a cure for what happenned.  I’ll garantie it isn’t. ive prooved it.  not willinglingly but by chance of  event and emotion churned till you can’t put the cap on it.  it’s so easy for you I watch you calm and I envy the moments when you are in control.  it’s not a learned behaviour for me.  it’s a self preservation program…