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Oh, you eat animal products? Isn't it hard? Where do you get your fiber? Do you take supplements? Yikes, I could never do that. I had to buy organic free range meat and eggs for someone who's on an animal product diet once and it was sooo expensive, it's definitely only something for rich people haha. My uncle was on a strict animal product diet, you know? Yeah, he died. Colon cancer. It's a risky thing, this trend, you have to know what you're doing and really make sure you get proper nutrition, but most people go on it thinking it'll make them healthy but then they just eat junk food and wonder why they feel bad and are constipated all the time. Not everyone has the time and energy to learn how to safely prepare meat, and it's so bland too! Do you ever crave a tasty, well-seasoned seitan steak? I actually tried cow's milk once, it was so weird, I'd rather have the real stuff, straight from the plant like nature intended. My mom was on a carnivore diet for 3 months and she felt so bad, her doctor actually told her to stop. It's definitely not for everyone, but I guess you have your reasons. Did you know it's like really bad for the environment? Yeah, uses lots of water, poisons lakes with poo, and they torture the animals to death and workers get PTSD from it. People think "animal based" means natural but actually most of it comes from factory farms. Just thought you should know, you probably didn't think of that when you decided to start this diet. I could never deny myself plants like that, must take a lot of restraint. Most people don't last long. Are you sure you don't want the chickpea curry? Not even a little bit? Haha, just teasing, you meat eaters are so sensitive.

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guys i really like katydids, did u guys know that i like them? did u guys know? did u guys? did u?

little big green buggie hehee

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Thai Peanut Noodles Recipe

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The politics of wild: where do Alberta’s wild horses belong?

An Alberta wild mare nuzzling her foal. Most foals are born between late April and June.

Sandy Sharkey

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Peach tree blossom 🌸

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I love the idea that Dorian and Solas crossed paths in Minrathous while Rook was stuck in the Fade prison.

Dorian: Did Rook deliver my message?

Solas: Indeed. Your talent for evocative imagery remains as vivid as ever.

Dorian: Did you take it to heart then?

Solas: Are you asking if I penetrated myself anally with a powerful arcane weapon?

Dorian: Would do you a world of good, I think. Of course, you’d have to remove the stick you normally keep up there, but surely the poor thing deserves a break.

Solas: I have missed you, Dorian. And for what it’s worth, you have my apologies.

Dorian: Yes, well, you can shove those up your arse as well.

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Ik everyone says that Blackwall is a bit of a redundant character when you have Solas who has a similar twist to his character as Blackwall but just…. better, frankly. But I was thinking about Mythal and Solas and how Solas goes from respecting Blackwall to seemingly really betrayed by the reveal of who Blackwall really is and what he did. And like, idk why but I never really questioned WHY solas was so mad at Blackwall about the reveal, I just sort of chalked it up to “Blackwall did a bad thing so Solas is chastising him for it” but then. Veilguard happened (yike lol) and we got a little more context for Solas and Mythal’s relationship, and specifically Solas’ view of their relationship, and now it’s making sense to me.

At first Solas sees himself in Blackwall, they’re both soldiers who have seen a lot of shit and done a lot of shit in the name of things/people they believed in. Then the reveal happens, and I think Solas is triggered because he realizes, unconsciously or not, that Blackwall isn’t like him. He’s like Mythal.

Like Mythal, Blackwall had a place of authority over the men under his command, they believed in him and trusted him as their commander, just as Solas believed and trusted in Mythal. Like Mythal, Blackwall ordered his men to carry out heinous orders—things these men otherwise would probably never even consider or want to do—because they had faith in their commander and respected the chain of command, as Solas did for Mythal time and time and time again.

And like Mythal, Blackwall wasn’t there for the fallout of those heinous acts. Obvs Blackwall voluntarily peaced out and evaded justice and let his men take the fall while Mythal got murdered, but regardless, in both these instances the person responsible for giving the orders is conveniently absent—forcing the men who were given the commands to deal with the entirety consequences.

Not saying the men given the commands are devoid of blame, but I imagine the betrayal of trusting a commander so fervently that you are willing to do horrendous shit purely because you believe in them, just to be the only person left when the dust settles to deal with the fallout of decisions that you weren’t even privy to making must feel immense. And I think that’s partially how Solas might feel about Mythal in a way, because even though she’s long dead Solas is Still having to pick up the pieces of decisions she made, decisions that we know he was in objection to but did anyway because, well, it’s Mythal. His best friend. He trusts her. Trusts her vision for the People. She must have her reasons, right? It will all be worth it, right?

Wrong. She’s dead and now Solas is the only person left to bear the guilt of what she did, because he did it too, even if for the “right” reasons at the time. Solas never wanted this. He didn’t want to be a soldier, he didn’t want to fight, he didn’t want to be a monster, but he trusted his commander. No wonder Solas has trust issues fr. Imagine having that much faith in a person, doing reprehensible shit in their name, and then they’re just… gone. And it’s like, what now? What was the point? How do you live with the things you’ve done when the person who gave the command isn’t around to? How far does “I was just following orders” get you when no one’s left to share the blame?

Blackwall did to his men what Mythal did to Solas. I think Blackwall’s backstory maybe serves as a bit of context for what Solas and Mythal’s dynamic was (and tbh does a better job of it than anything in Veilguard but don’t even get me started). Solas knows he did terrible things, but when you no longer have the cover of “I did it for the greater good” because said “greater good” is now dead and gone, how do you cope with that?

In Solas’ case you cope with it by doubling down with ur own vision of a better world for the People and continue to do bad things but hey nobody is perfect!!

…jk hes my perfect princess huh what who said that???

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Sisu Refuge

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Y'all she tried to eat the dog. Through the glass.

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Lindis Valley, Otago, New Zealand

More about me & prints: https://linktr.ee/steven.sandner

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Who is there??

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i've spent remarkably little time thinking about how the original prison would be for the evanuris....

but like.... it doesn't seem like the original prison was any kind of, idk, upsetting? like ofc it was imprisonment, but unlike the prison solas was making for them, i don't think there was anything unique in the first prison that would help keep them there

so, like.... when they got tired of trying to get out or whatever, what did they do.... were the evanuris just sorta shooting the shit with each other? do you think they gossiped about solas?

my pov is that the evanuris had sex with each other and that it was just pretty casual, and that solas was some kind of involved. do you think, if that's the case, they told each other about the sexual escapades they had with solas? probably not with any fondness 😂

other stuff too ofc. they'd rage. they'd try desperately to get free. they'd plot. they'd theorize. they'd fight amongst themselves. but when none of those things were happening, what else happened? how did they pass the time?

oh god. did they play little mental games? like the type you play on an airplane or in a car? "i'm thinking of an emotion. one i DIDN'T destroy. go."

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 Hot-blooded and cocky

not wednesday WIP

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Maybe there’s some kind of Nutrient in there

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Just Survive Somehow.