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what do you mean you havent used mindfulness techniques to accept the state of the torture labyrinth as is yet. its like youre not even trying

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what’s it called when you’re so disconnected from reality that cold water doesn’t feel like anything and you can barely taste food anymore

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I WISH IT HAD ALL BEEN DIFFERENT!!!!!

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They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time

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Time to be depressed again!!!! I got accepted to a PhD program and it’s hitting me that I’m going to have to write papers and theses again and there’s a good chance I’ll fucking hate it and try to kill myself!!!!

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if i cant kill myself i guess i just have to make art and cook good meals and listen to music and dress up pretty and hope it will be all worth it to be doing something to distract myself forever

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trying to feel any emotion after the sun sets is like Oops! all guilt!

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Love when I go on Tumblr and it shows me stuff seemingly specifically designed to annoy me

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I’m not *really* suicidal anymore (thank god) but I also don’t know how to deal with strong negative emotions without immediately going to “hate myself? hurt myself? kill myself?”