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I have thought about writing several times but I feel frozen and I can’t get words down.

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I have these stomach flutters that won’t go away. It’s anxiety. The truth is unraveling that my boyfriend has been actively trying to hook up with all sorts of girls. Some I know. Some I don’t. It’s been going on for years. We share a lease and he is refusing to leave because he “loves me”. I don’t have the money to move right now and it’s keeping such a giant open wound in my life. I can’t heal. I feel so trapped and like I’m wasting my life. I would usually drink this away and it’s so raw being sober. I feel used and dirty and stupid and disgusted and betrayed. I just want to heal 😞

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This is scary and it’s so true it’s eerie!

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I’m having a really hard time kicking this depressed fucking feeling I have. My son that I lost had his surgery 9 years ago. Doesn’t feel that long ago. It still feels fresh. He will have lived 27 more days until I took him off life support. I could barely get out of bed today. I just don’t have anywhere to put this pain I feel.

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The other woman has rarely ever been the only person I think it is. It’s usually multiple and 100x worse than what I imagined.

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I hate the intuition of knowing that your significant other is cheating on you.

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This is so important

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Reblogging so I can find this and read it every day

The mindset of a woman who loves herself:

• Journals instead of oversharing online or with the wrong people

• Ends relationships that don’t align, instead of changing herself

• Says 'no' to anything below her standards

• Steers clear of drama

• Prioritizes self care, health & growth

• Avoids jealousy & competition with other women

• Makes time for creativity & hobbies

• Values quality over quantity

• Responds with grace, not impulse

• Boundaries

• Long term goals not instant gratification

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letterpress postcards by Pottering Cat, Japan

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New York City

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