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anyone remember when the combination kfc/long john silvers in my hometown just fucking exploded one night

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It's the last day of April

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Remus is the reason I got into therapy. This series has literally saved my life several times over. Seeing a character embody intrusive thoughts, and seeing that be an inherent piece of a person made me realize that my Intrusive Thoughts were trying to communicate with me about things I needed to deal with, that deep down, they loved me and were trying to help me. There are many ways in which this series saved my life, but Remus is absolutely one of them.

No one will ever understand how much Remus Sanders means to me

He's my muse, my platonic soulmate, my best friend, my safe space, my comfort, my god, the air I breath, the ground I walk on, my everything

If he ever stopped existing, I would probably sob and cry and explode

Remus Sanders is everything to me

He brings me so much of my joy every time I see him

He's literally me, and I'm literally him

I adore him dearly

I love Remus Sanders, I love Remus Sanders, I love Remus Sanders-

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Here you guys go !!

I’ll do the reaction of the others as a mini comic.

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I love when Remus does this little peek over objects with just his head and hands visible. He's such a sneaky mischievous little shit, I love him so much 💚

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Remus made himself and his best friends ever matching friendship bracelets!

For @darksideweeks's prompt "Childhood Friends".

Coming up with ideas of what Janus and Remus wore as kids was hard at first before I started looking through a list of Disney Villains and decided to base Janus' outfit off of Honest John from Pinocchio and Remus' off of the King of Hearts from Alice in Wonderland.

Of course Virgil was a good boy and got an oversized hoodie<3

Image ID below the cut.

[ID: A digital illustration of Virgil, Janus and Remus Sanders as children with a brainlicking.tumblr signature.

The three are wearing matching friendship bracelets that are striped with yellow, purple and green.

Virgil is on the left, wearing an oversized black hoodie, black trousers and purple socks. His is looking at his friendship bracelet on his left wrist with a happy expression, the undersides of his eyes are sparkly purple. There is a small speech bubble to the left of him that contains a single purple heart.

Janus is in the middle, holding his right hand to his chest where his friendship bracelet sits over his glove. He is wearing an long cape with a gold button, a yellow dress shirt with a black cravat tucked into the collar, black trousers and boots, and with a tiny floating top hat with a yellow ribbon over his head. He is smiling and looking at Remus. There is a speech bubble above him that reads, "I hate it. I'm going to throw it in the trash so I never ever ever wear it again." The words, "hate", "throw it in the trash" and "never ever ever" are in yellow, showing that they are lies.

Remus is on the left and is wearing a simple silver crown and black royal robe with green trim. He has a wide grin on his face and is coming out from behind Janus, with his right arm stretched behind the other side and his left arm resting on the end of a large mallet. His friendship bracelet is on his left wrist. There is a spiky speech bubble to the right with the words, "You're welcome! You two are stuck with me forever!" With the word, "forever" highlighted in green.

There is a transparent, black oval shadow beneath the three. The background is dark grey with lighter grey diagonal stripes.

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Some Koki love and appreciation

I love drawing hoodies/ pullovers recently

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WORLDBUILDING RULE NUMBER ONE: PUT A FUCKING EQUATOR IN YOUR WORLD MAP

WORLDBUILDING RULE NUMBER TWO: IF THERE ARE POTATOES IN YOUR WORLD THERE MUST BE AN ANDES FROM WHERE THEY CAME FROM

WORLDBUILDING RULE NUMBER THREE: PUT. A. FUCKING. EQUATOR. IN. YOUR. WORLD. MAP.

WORLDBUILDING RULE NUMBER FOUR: ANY PLACE SOUTH OF THE EQUATOR CAN AND MUST BE AN ARGENTINA EQUIVALENT

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Is this performance art?

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I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety

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Remus in a skirt in this pose

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the worst part about ocd and ocd-like tendencies is that you think hyper-analyzing your thoughts and constantly psychoanalyzing yourself will fix you but that's actually part of the disorder. it's the disorder. disordering.

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The last two weeks have been...a lot. We were run off the road and while there were no injuries and the car damage was very minimal, it still...it caused a lot upset internally. We were met with a lot of support from our roommate's family and everything was settled pretty quickly, but it was genuinely an overwhelming amount of support. And. Not exactly in a good way.

All these moments kept playing through out mind. Being scolded for not calling the police when we were hit in a parking lot (no one had taught us what to do in case of an accident), being scolded for the mechanic not putting the new two new tired needed on the right wheels, being scolded for calling after my car stalled in a busy intersection during rush hour. All these little moments when dealing with car things wasn't safe. When it got us scolded and berated, left us feeling...inadequate and stupid and just...like low hanging fruit for the class bully to pick on. And we kept waiting to be scolded. To be told what we should have done, payed more attention, panicked less, all these things that we felt sure we would have heard back home. And none of it came. And we couldn't cope with that. Kat couldn't cope with that. And now we've been trying to cope with different system structure. It makes me sad that...not getting yelled at has caused so much disruption.

I've been trying to write. I thought...maybe getting back to some fics, getting back to a hobby would help, and I just...can't seem to connect. I spent a good portion of this morning reading through our Star Trek fic files and irs not just that I can see our writing has improved, but that it...genuinely feels like it was written by someone else. These stories don't feel like they're mine to tell. I don't feel connected to them.

There are a lot of little things that...make us less covert irl, things that our roommate has noticed, voice changes, and posture changes, and cadence changes, all these little things that add up to be not very covert and still sometimes, there I'd a creeping feeling of doubt about what we've recognized, what we've been diagnosed with.

This I can't deny though. I was cohost until the accident, so I know from bleed through how much these stories meant to Kat, meant to us. They were what we thought about and talked about to fall asleep, I remember staying up late to finish a scene or a bit of dialogue, and I just...can't seem to find that spark.

I'm thinking about.. maybe posting some of what we fo have done, at least here on tumblr, to kind of give myself a clean slate. A little refresh.

I want to continue writing, but I also want to feel like...I'm actually writing, that I'm telling my stories, that I'm using my own voice. I do want to finish these fics up, it only feels right to do, but I'm also struggling a bit because as much as I'm familiar with our fics, with how they were written, what the plans for them were, I'm realizing how little I actually was involved in all this myself as a part. And that's kind of a sucky feeling.

I want to get back to writing, I just don't really know how to.

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a writing competition i was going to participate in again this year has announced that they now allow AI generated content to be submitted

their reasoning being that "we couldn't ban it even if we wanted to, every writer already uses it anyway"

"Every writer"?

come on