nobodyisalone111

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This is the only problem..

I NEVER NOT ONCE SAID ANYTHING ABOUT Wanting fame or even money. Tbh if y’all wouldn’t have showed me that my beats were good I would have never known how much. Even then, I never even called myself a producer I would say beat maker. I never once had any kind of cockiness about it nor anything. I don’t care about being in the music industry. I never did. Music is therapy for me and if all this…

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Sick and tired of the constant continuous abuse and leis of these people

Fair warning I’m on one today. Proceed with caution because I am saying the hard truths that people don’t like. Not only do I have my own personal issues but Ive seen too much other significant events that are relatable and being silenced. First and foremost not everyone I have a problem with is a narcissist BUT AND I WILL POST THE VIDEO OF THIS THERAPIST SPEALIZED IN NARCISSISTISM. And she said…

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Set up

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Court dates?

September 2020 I went to jail for the first time in my life while in jail Ben called my family saying he was coming get the kids. To prevent him from doing so they went get an ex parte (temporary custody order) in the papers I was served was a certified letter from the lawyer stating with “good and worthwhile reason” he would not notify him of the order because his drug use, physical violence and…

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*warning uncomfortable situation”

This is the video of Salem showing me where it made her uncomfortable when her daddy touched ber. She is 4 she should know to be awkward in these areas. I couldn’t use this video as evidence because I ask her in the end “here” and it’s considered coercion After the second visit with their dad Salem through the red flag to ask her if her daddy touched her. Since she was born he never bathed her…

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Where’s my justice

Where’s my justice Since 2019 I haven’t seen any justice for me or my daughter. So is now I’m going to be for our justice. I hear all these domestic violence cases and I never seen a court room. Yes I got a life time restraining order but it doesn’t help he’s never stayed in jail longer than 4 days. My daughter was molested by him and the cops closed the case because lack Of evidence cause she…

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Have you ever met a monster?

When violence is okay. In this blog is a bunch of Ted talks about trauma abuse and everything in between.

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Because of my anxiety

Because of my anxiety, I take everything personally. If a friend takes a little too long to answer a text, I start making assumptions.They don’t want to talk to me. I’m annoying them. They’re ignoring me on purpose. They don’t like me. They hate me. I dread sending the first text because there is a chance of rejection. Knowing that someone saw my message and decided against answering it makes…

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Holding the light

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September is Suicide prevention month.

My story is a real one with real mental health issues and abuse. In 2008, I was 18 I started going to doctor for anxiety and depression and months later out of no where late in the afternoon an ex triggered me bad. I felt like I was drowning and I didn’t have anyone to turn to. Growing up with narcissistic parents talking about your feelings, validly never happened. I have always been an outsider…

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No need to play

Petty game on lock, I’m the king with the crown.I’m the one they envy, the talk of the townUnshakable and strong, I hold my groundNo need to flex, my presence speaks volumesNo need for validation, I stay true to myselfNo need to front, my aura commands crowdsAuthenticity is my weapon, cutting through like a knifeI’m the truth, cutting through all the liesIn every battle, I come out aliveI’m the…

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Something I cooked up

Checkmate my adversaries, watch their egos unfold I rise above the noise, my story yet untold I paint my truth on beats, watch my story unfold Like a phoenix from the ashes, my spirit will never be sold Guiding lost souls, shining with pure light I write with passion, my pen is my fight In this world of chaos, I’ll be the one to ignite In the darkest of nights, my fire burns…

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Requested

Starting this time last year I got in this dark place where empty is the only way to explain the feeling. Well in November I started being friends with this young girl full of life experiences that I didn’t want to taint with my negative experiences so when she was around I didn’t think negatively or anything like that. She didn’t even do anything purposely. I gave her a safe place to be herself…

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Raw

Let me be raw . I come with depth, you’ll never know me if you keep it superficial. Don’t let the depth scare you. I wouldn’t let you drown. Don’t think of it as water. Dig deeper find out more explore. Im an open book. (Caution some chapters are vial)

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Bpd

For my friends who ask me what it’s like having borderline personality disorder, it’s like bi-polar on a roller coaster with a splash of crack and sedatives, in a maze all at once. I literally had and have to relearn everything! How I think, How I see, how I feel. How I react, when I react, if I even should. Learn proper social behavior, learning to correctly identify emotions and myself. Of…

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I’m not okay

Tonight the monsters in my headAre screaming so damn loudBut I built walls so highSo they never even make a sound It’s a mask, it’s a lieIt’s the only home I’ve ever known‘Cause being who I really amHas only left me more alone I am not okayAnd I need you to see itI have so much to sayAnd no one to hear itThe reason I keep quietWith so much at stakeI always feel like a burden, let it silence…