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Day 9

I’m a little over a week into my Day Zero Project goals and I haven’t exactly hit the ground running. On the first day I started two thirty day challenges, one a beginners squat challenge and the other being to floss every day for thirty days straight. I am still going strong with both of those, despite my back acting up and having a bad day.  Beyond that I have not made too much progress towards my other goals. One of my goals is to go a whole day without saying anything negative seven times. I have tried that several days in a row now but it’s hard for me to judge if some things are negative or not. That goal is proving to be more difficult than I expected. One of my favorite goals on my list is to have 20 friends each recommend a book and read them all and I have been collecting those recommendations which is sort of progress. 

I want to try to improve my handwriting and the only way to do that is to write more. I reached out on Reddit to try to find some pen pals. I have lined up a couple and have even received my first letter. My mood has been turning dark and the thought of opening that letter and writing a few of my own right now is a bit daunting. 

I started this project off in a very positive mood but that has never stopped the depression from creeping in and this week was no different. This past week I have had two of the most difficult days I have had in a very long time but I’m trying to shake that off. One of the goals that I see as the least achievable is to lose weight. I decided on my way home from work today to buy some chicken even though money is tight so I can eat properly tomorrow, I’m sure wallowing in junk food isn’t doing my emotional state any favors. I’m hoping this will also kick start going thirty days without eating out. 

I wish I had made more of an impact first week but this is only the start

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Day 0

For far too long I have felt detached from life, like I had lost control of myself and my world around me. It’s time to change that. After a dear friend told me about the Day Zero Project it’s something that I’ve thought a lot about. I have come up with a list of 101 goals that I want to accomplish in the next 1001 days starting tomorrow, the 27th of November. This project feels like a good fit for me. I have always been the sort to make lists, and now I have a list that will be the rudder I so desperately need when the Depression and Anxiety become overwhelming. Consider this obsession to be a new form of self medication.

I am hoping to use this blog for multiple reasons. Primarily I want accountability for myself. I have a lot to do between today and August 23rd, 2020. I want to keep myself honest about my failings and recognize my achievements. A small part of me hopes to some day motivate someone else to take up this mantle as well. Once I finished the list of goals I want to accomplish I found it both daunting and inspiring. 

I’m not alone on this journey. Two friends have come up with their own goal lists and we are all starting down this road together to support and help each other. I don’t really know what to expect with the coming months, either in terms of the goals or this blog, but I do know that we will have each other to help support us through until the end. 

For far too long I have let myself be a slave to my Depression and Anxiety, accepting the feelings of worthlessness and inevitability. 

I’m changing everything. 

And, a final note,to satisfy everyone's curiosity, here are the things that I am trying to achieve. 

Life:

Say “yes” to something I normally wouldn’t Keep a “My day in 6 words” journal for 6 months Learn a language to conversational level Make a “100 things that make me happy” list Don’t say anything negative for a whole day, 7 times Get better skin Improve my posture Improve my handwriting Complete the 36 Question Experiment Dance in the rain Get a professional tarot reading Spend a day in silence Make a list of 25 things I like about myself Become better at putting on my make up Host a murder mystery party Donate blood 5 times Get a passport Whiten my teeth Watch the sun rise and set in the same day Join a volunteer organization Floss every day for a month

Finance:

Pay off all debts Go a month without buying anything that isn’t a necessity Save up a $500 emergency fund Leave an obnoxiously large tip Go a month without eating out Complete the 52 week money challenge

Physical & Fitness:

Reach my goal weight (140) Complete a sprint triathlon Complete C25K Ride a horse Ride a tandem bike Increase my flexibility Play lazer tag 10 times Play paintball 5 times Complete 5 “30 Day” workout challenges Go snowboarding Go swimming in an ocean Take a dance class Join a sports team Learn how to skateboard Take yoga lessons Rock climb 5 times Kayak in 5 different waters

Travel & Adventure:

Sleep under the stars for a night Go white water rafting Ride a jet ski Tie a note to a balloon and let it go Travel to 5 new states Climb three mountains Travel to one new country Jump out of a plane Go to a Leafs/Sabres game See Montreal Bungee jump Visit 10 new museums Go on 10 new roller coasters Have a picnic in the forest Kiss under a waterfall Go up in a hot air balloon See a whale Go on a cruise Visit central park Go to a casino See the northern lights Ride in a hot air balloon Visit the House on the Rock Cosplay at a comic-con Stay at a 5 star hotel

Reading & Literature:

Ask 20 friends to each recommend a book and read them all Learn my favorite poem by heart Read 5 banned books I haven’t read yet Read a book from the year I was born Read 26 books I haven’t read yet each starting with a different letter of the alphabet

Artistic & Creative:

Take a picture for each letter of the alphabet Complete a sudoko book Complete 100 Days of Happy photo project Learn to knit Start and finish a cross stitch

Music & Movies:

See 25 bands live that I’ve never seen before Learn to play 5 songs on the ukulele See 26 movies I have never seen, each starting with a different letter of the alphabet Sing five different karaoke songs Go to the drive in 5 times Choose 10 countries and watch a movie from each of them Watch a movie from the year I was born See 10 classic movies I haven’t seen before

Food:

Open a cookbook to a random page and make whatever is on it Try a new recipe every month Eat at a 5 star restaurant Try 5 new food trucks Go vegetarian for a week Try 5 new fruits Visit 10 new restaurants

Gaming:

Beat ten video games Play 40 new board games Complete pandemic legacy Play through SUSD’s Top 50 Earn 5 Amtgard awards Solve a rubiks cube Learn to juggle