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The Path Ahead

I already have another blog but my very human brain told me to keep honest and vulnerable thoughts off of it. Most of my content there is positive and uplifting, so it felt like I should not tell the world that I have an endless list of insecurities, struggles and flaws. And that not all my sad days end with a moving life lesson. Sometimes, sad days are just sad and nothing else.

As an escape, I created this space to give my raw thoughts and feelings a space.

Why are we so ashamed and scared of sharing the parts of ourselves that are a little less than perfect?

Why am I so ashamed and scared?

*runs away*

Something that my sister always tells me to do is self-reflect. Self reflection has been a difficult task lately as I have been having many growing pains. I am climbing an uphill battle in terms of people, work, and a sense of peace within myself. I have found that lists help in those times. Maybe I cannot do a fine grained analysis of the highs and lows of my life, but I can make a bullet point list of some things:

I want to leave behind

Thinking and overthinking how I've been hurt in the past

Operating out of fear rather than the determination to try

The discomfort of confronting difficult emotions

The notion that home is a fixes physical place

Doubting my abilities

I want to welcome into my life

Openly expressing appreciation

Happy and healthy relationships

A strong sense of community

Making time to be myself

A cute kitty ^.^

This little exercise of self reflection has led to the discovery that.. maybe the path ahead will lead to new and exciting destinations!

[nonimmigrant-alien]

Hello World!

I am old enough to not know what exactly Tumblr is. Is it a social media platform for cool and totally not intimidating teenagers or is it an old-school blogging platform? Do people even have the mental capacity to read more text than TikTok captions? Our friendly neighbor and know-it-all gave me my answer right away.

What is Tumblr?

"Tumblr is a place to express yourself", Google and Tumblr replied, in an excited harmony.

Expressing myself is exactly what I was hoping to do :) and that is why I am here! I work as a Software Engineer (I know you coders out there just smiled a tiny bit, recognizing that fact by the title), but I have a brain that produces too many thoughts which needs a space to breathe outside of my 9-5 procedural job.

I have written a lot in the past but have lost touch recently. I want to let my words live outside my head to keep my heart happy and healthy. Most of all, with this blog, I am giving my heart permission to be itself. You should try it too!

I will be back soon. Until then, here is a little about me!