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Tw; rant

I'm really sad that BTS went on a break but I feel guilty for feeling sad because yes obviously they deserve it and I shouldn't feel guilty for being sad because it's normal human nature and I can't control what I feel. I am sad and I wanna embrace it because I'll miss them so so much together. It's gonna be for more than two years I already know, and things are gonna be really different if they ever decide to come back. Like 2 years from now idk where I'll be who I'll be. I wanna be in this bangtan shit forever but I'm just, really sad and scared that I might never get to see them together again.

Some acquaintance of mine put up on her story how she doesn't get why everyone's crying cos it's good for BTS to take a break and stuff, the fact that she clearly told me 2 days ago that she isn't into the stanning business anymore and didn't even listen to proof. Like bro for fucks sake don't comment on what other people from a fandom are going through if you don't get it? And if you aren't a part of it? People are so dumb and insensitive it burns my body

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Vincent Giarrano on Instagram

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“Never make fun of someone’s passion because that’s the thing that saves them from the world.”

— Unknown

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Ahhh so prettyyy maybe I'll try recreating this as makeup or an edit someday

I like you, your eyes are full of language.

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I don't know what's happening. I feel like crying the whole time. And I do cry the whole time. But it just feels like it's coming back. All over again. I'm crying as I'm writing this. I'm experiencing all of it again. The ignoring, the one worded replies, the tension, the lies.

Let me tell you. The first time didn't prepare me. It's not easier this time. I don't want it to happen. Please God please. Please don't make it happen again.

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My page is so toxic lmaoo😂😂😂

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Where do broken hearts go?

Do you realise that this song is so fucking sad. Like really really sad. But they put real beats into it. Damn that is talent. I feel like crying so much now. Like soooo muchh. Because first strong came on, then this, and then right now. Fuck. Do you want me to be sad all my life? Damn I can't listen to these songs. ESPECIALLY NOT RIGHT NOW (The song).

maybe That's why I listen to BTS. at least because i cant understand half of the lyrics i dont have to dwell and cry in pain. They're like my safe haven. Didn't think I would say the infamous phrase “BTS SAVED ME” but I guess here I go. BTS. You save me. Thank you. I'm so grateful. I love you.

I love one direction too.

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This. Just. I don't have words. I have goosebumps all over my body and chills running down. Damn and listening to one direction while reading this. Beautiful. Sorry I shouldn't write anything because it'll ruin it's beauty.

Growing up a lesbian is such an odd experience. You know you're a little bit different to most of the other girls in your class but you don't exactly know why. You know that girls kiss boys and in turn boys save them from towers and dragons and evil witches who live deep in the woods and snatches little girls away (you couldn't help but feel like maybe the witch wasnt as evil as the stories made out.) You knew in swim class that boys leered at your growing body and you knew you didn't like it, but you could also feel your own eyes trailing in the locker room towards soft skin and the gentle dip of hips before you quickly averted your eyes with a hot shame deep in your belly. You knew when he kissed you behind the building, his lips harsh and breath smelling of the cigarettes he had snuck to school that you were supposed to be giddy and fireworks should go off in your mind - but instead you walked home with puffy eyes and an overwhelming sense of nausea. You could still feel his chapped lips against yours, no matter how many times you scrubbed at the skin.

By the time you got to high-school you knew there was a word for girls like you; lesbian. Lesbian, lesbian, lesbian. You wanted to repeat it over and over again to make sure it was real, that it was there to stay, that it wouldn't suddenly disappear and you'd be left just as the odd girl. Other people had other words for it, of course - dyke, carpet muncher, faggot. You didn't think much of it, they were usually just whispers anyway, no one quite brave enough to say it to your face.

The first time you kissed a girl was as close to those ridiculous romance novels as you could get. You were both god-only-knows how many wine coolers in and her lips tasted of the sweet drink she had been swigging for the past hour, her bare shoulders sparsely covered by the spaghetti straps of her dress soft beneath your fingers. She was your first girlfriend, not your last, but your first lot of things.

Twenty years later, when you're looking through old photographs with your wife, you stumble upon a picture of your first girlfriend, young and beautiful and cheeks flushed.

You smile and hope she's as happy as you are.

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“you hurt me and i said sorry”

- bbadgyal

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I'm scared of cats

So I've seen so many cat videos and it's safe to say that cats are satanic and I'm so freaking scared of them. I get chills down my spine at the word "CAT" not even KIDDING or exaggerating. Like I'll all be like "aww it's so cute" and take it in my arms but I swear when they get mad Satan himself gets into them it's so scary.

Don't believe me? Try watching angry cat videos.

Not lying I've even bathed a cat, which is like the hardest task. Damn I know it was torture for her and it was late December so I don't even know how she survived it lmao but yeah. They're cute tho. I like all animals.

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Yes i was looking for a post about bts not being nominated for the Grammy's. I mean wtf? You nominate overrated songs like señorita and stuff but not give any nomination to the ones who actually have the biggest fan base and impact the youth just by their songs? That's not fair. Im Disappointed. Everybody's just jealous and scared because if BTS comes in the picture they know they won't be able to win much.

About BTS not getting nominated for the Grammys this year...

it just comes to show that as a fandom that we need to STOP GIVING AMERICAN AWARD SHOWS CLOUT. I've been seeing a pattern of them using us by mentioning BTS and giving us empty promising only to fuck us over at the end. VMAS didnt let BTS in any of their major categories, People's Choice Award didnt care about our votes and give the award to someone else. And even with records, views, sale numbers, the impact on young society and impacting music... the Grammy didn't give us not even ONE nomination. In 2020 and in the future, we need to STOP giving clout and focus on the boys only. Yes continue to vote and collect these bags for BTS ... SILENTLY but dont rt shit, don't watch their shows, dont help them promote shit until we see RESULTS. this is all XENOPHOBIC as fuck & not being WHITE and IM TRIED! BTS DESERVE BETTER. I hope BTS doesnt take not being nominated by heart, I hope namjoon isnt crying himself to sleep tonight cause he stayed up with us. Just like Drake said last year at the Grammys, You dont need a Grammy Award to show the world that you made it. YOU ALREADY WON! if you have fans coming from the depths of hell to attend your concert, if you got the money and fame, if you got all these records under your belt, if you seriously know you made a huge impact in music....YOU FUCKING MADE IT. Armys, please continue to support BTS, & dont give attention to the Grammys and haterz. Kill them with kindness and let's move on!!! Let this be a lesson when it comes to dealing with the music industry in america. Fuck the validation!

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5 months since you left and I've been speaking to people but none of them is you. I'm scared I'll never get over you or like someone else as much as I liked you, and I hate it.

-19/11/19

14 months since you left and I was in bed with a guy who isn’t you for the first time. I let him hug me but I couldn’t bare to do anything else with him. When he left I sobbed because whilst his arms were around me all I could think about was you and I’m scared I’ll never stop comparing everyone to you.

-28/04/19

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Not fake now?

Wowwww so you think you're not fucking fake anymore? You don't fake laugh at your friend's jokes now? You don't fake smile to people who don't give a shit bout you? You don't be with ugly people because they make you feel like yourself? Like bruh because they're ugly and I'm too so they probably won't judge me.

Bruhh.

You see? The problem was ALWAYS in YOU. YOU. you were the fucking problem, and the problem maker.

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Wait. There's this Indian gold medalist 100m 200m athlete DUTEE CHAND and thats the exact same thing that happened with her. She was disqualified because of high testosterone levels, and if she still wanted to play they asked her to play from the men's side and undergo sex changing surgery. But she fought against this and won. So they changed the rule for 100m and 200m races, but not for 400m, 800m and so on.

This is not fair. Damn it makes me so mad. Damn it it's not her fault she has hyperandrogenism. And energy suppressing meds? I don't know dude.

This is unbelievably cruel and unjust.

@TIEDR on twitter

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And thats why i can do anything i want like ranting. Bruh.

being on tumblr is literally just straight up vibing. no one knows who you are. no one knows what you look like. just vibes.

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So many photos but no instagram

Dude i have so many aestheticc photos that you cant even imagine. Like if I had Instagram you would stalk my account and go all “damn how are her photos soo aestheticc and how is she so pretty”

BRUH.

Damn i really need an instagram account. I dont know what to do with those really good photos damn. I dont wanna put them as my WhatsApp profile because then they would be seen ::::(((((((((((((((((

I'm sad :(((