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[noturprettyboy]

just boys being boys kissing at the skatepark

[noturprettyboy]

we play iphone games does that mean we are in love?

[noturprettyboy]

i guess im just a body to hold when your cold.

[noturprettyboy]

i can’t see the road ahead in the pouring rain

but please rest your little head and i’ll take the blame

and when the cops ask why i didn’t turn on the windshield wipers, i’ll explain there was a spider in the window.

and i gave him a name.

how was i supposed to just wash him away?

-rmb

a poem about a spider, but more about the way i put others needs before mine

[noturprettyboy]

hey so yknow this quote ???

yeah. so heres a poem based on this quote about my trans-ness

“an ode to the girl i killed who has my eyes

god. i’m so sorry i killed you.

just a girl, face hidden in her hair,

long legs and soft hands,

insecure but brave and kind.

i’m so sorry i twisted you up,

crumbled paper in my hands.

i’m so sorry i threw you out,

bags of hair and bits of who you used to be.

i’m so sorry i killed you.

your family must be so upset.

i see the missing signs,

your face plastered to their facebook pages and living room walls.

they love you a lot you know.

they keep showing me pictures,

expect me to smile and say i miss you too. i don’t, but,

i’m so sorry i killed you.

your smile used to be so wide.

your cheeks pink, eyes bright.

but over the years they got smaller, paler, dimmer.

you used to dig through the internet, through other peoples backlog,

looking for anything that looked like you.

you found yourself over and over and over again,

until you found me.

until i grabbed your hair in a harsh grip and sawed it off.

until i ripped every pink bit of flesh that you had left, changed it, hid it, buried it in my backyard so no one would ever find you again.

until i painted over your pink and purple walls, threw away every dress that didn’t fit me right, every pair of heels that didn’t scream that you were dead. all your art hidden in a box, everything you wrote under my bed.

i’m so sorry i killed you.

i live in your life.

a voyeur on the love and happiness you should have had.

your mom calls me her child.

your brothers call me a name that’s not yours.

i read your old books, wear your old clothes, listen to your old music.

i love in your life.

i date who you would have loved.

i kiss who would have never kissed you.

my friends never knew you.

the ones who did don’t show it.

i wonder if they care.

i wonder if they miss you too.

i’m so sorry i killed you. “

[noturprettyboy]

i wanna feel important

and you make me feel important

so i’m here for the ride

i’ll push my feelings aside.

let’s go for a drive

i’ll stick my head out the window

til i start to cry

from the wind in my eyes.

you say i have a perfect body

but that’s not what i see

you say i’m such a pretty lady

but that’s not who i want to be.

[noturprettyboy]

the transgendered are promoting evil harmful ideas such as LIKING YOUR BODY and NOT WANTING TO KILL YOURSELF

[noturprettyboy]

IM TOO EXCITED HERE'S A TUMBLR EXCLUSIVE LEAK OF ONE OF THE SONGS WE'RE PUTTING OUT NEXT MONTH HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

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each day i put on my makeup, thinking of how much i’ve changed

but the blush i put on my face, i stole from the store in 11th grade.

-rmb

[noturprettyboy]

i can’t sleep so i’m listening to this on repeat until i cry myself to sleep

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[noturprettyboy]

you noticed that no matter how i dress

i wear the same shoes

how their worn but used to looked so cool

they’ve been falling apart at the edges

since before i even met you

they were never new

and now your gone but i still wear the same shoes

-rmb

a poem about my shoes, but really a poem about missing you

[noturprettyboy]

I love you tiny local bands, I love you barely legal, self managed concert venues, I love you micro labels, I love you diy recordings, I love you weird instrumental pieces with bizarre instruments and strange scales, I love you 20 mn songs, I love you musicians who play for fifteen people in a bar in some remote town, I love you trad music of all countries, I love you music made by minorities and marginalized people, I love you songs with no recognizable chord grid, I love you any music that was not engineered by an army of lyricists and producers to appeal to the largest audience possible and make the biggest profit out of people’s emotions and sensitivity.

[noturprettyboy]

a doodle a did where they are looking at u but also at each other and they are both fools with broken hearts who can’t love each other

[noturprettyboy]

looking for someone who is as passionate about 2014-2017 girlpool as me to share this life with

[noturprettyboy]

this song means the universe to me