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the type of love that leaves you lying on your back smiling at the ceiling.

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if i hadnt changed i wouldve died, things that do not evolve, die.

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I lock myself in the bathroom stall 15 times a day not to smoke not to piss just to think and be away from everyone and everything just for a minute

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but when i look back at the life i had before , i am happy and proud of all that i have done to get here , as there was a time where even 15 felt close to impossible

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at this point, i've accepted i will never find the love that my heart yearns for, i just dont think what i have in my heart is able to be recreated by another, no one can make me happier than myself as no one could ever know the love i want and thats alright

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finishing the year off surrounded by people that love me, a caring boyfriend, good grades, mentally healthy, physically healthy, and i love the world around me

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when every single part of my being is exhausted and in pain but its Monday tomorrow

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im still that red-haired silent kid in the back of the classroom overthinking life being overlooked and ignored and part of me will never leave that corner

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terrified of how i’ll be seen if the numbers go up

no matter how much I pretend not to care deep down i still do

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i am a false being living a false life that is not mine

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the person i am is not the physical person you see and know

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if this bf makes me crash out like the last im done

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My 2 sides

Me n who??

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ive worn white pants the past 2 days while on my period

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ive found a way to live with my sadness

Or maybe it really has disappeared

i am numb, all of the feelings i once realized i would never live without, i can still feel them pushed far back but they aren’t present up here.

you wouldnt know.

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feminine beauty is so pure and powerful

I love being a woman i love being a girl i love having girl friends i cant wait to be a mom