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Unwanted Dreams

Unwanted dreams invade my restless nights, Uninvited guests, casting shadows and frights. They twist and turn, replacing cherished memories, Leaving my heart caught in a storm of unease.

I wake with a heaviness, a weight on my chest, Unwanted dreams, they won't let me rest. In these slumbering hours, I am not in control, They paint pictures of another, stealing my soul.

I despise these dreams, they're a cruel charade, Playing with my mind, like a twisted arcade. They replace the moments we've shared together, With an illusion, a phantom, causing my tether.

My love, please understand, they're beyond my reach, Unwanted dreams, a torment I beseech. They don't define the love we've built, so strong, For in reality, it's with you I belong.

Let not worry consume your tender heart, For my love for you, it will never depart. Together, we'll face these unwelcome dreams, With trust and faith, our bond redeems.

For in the light of day, reality will shine, Chasing away the illusions that intertwine. Our love will conquer, resilient and true, And unwanted dreams will fade, as we renew.

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Jealousy of Unwanted Dreams

In the realm of dreams, a shadow appears, A figure that stirs my deepest fears. Jealousy creeps, whispers in my ear, The man in your dream, I cannot bear.

I see his presence, a flicker in your eyes, A haunting vision that makes me despise. Insecurity takes hold, like a bitter storm, For in my heart, I fear I may be torn.

But remember, my love, it's just a dream, A phantom that lingers, not what it seems. I hold you close, my trembling heart, Afraid of losing you, torn apart.

Yet in this darkness, I find my way, To trust in our love, come what may. I'll fight these shadows, conquer my doubt, For you, my love, I'll never live without.

So let jealousy fade, like the morning dew, In your arms, my fears subdue. Together we'll weather the storms that may come, Our love stronger, our bond never undone.

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Valentine's Day

On the eve of the fourteenth of February, I went to the mall to buy a gift for you, my dear. Though we were just friends, and nothing more, My heart was full of feelings that I couldn't ignore.

In the group study, we worked side by side, But my mind was elsewhere, my heart open wide. I wanted to surprise you, to make your heart sing, So I bought you a stuffed toy, a small token of my feelings.

On the day of love, I went to school, With the paper bag hidden, trying to play it cool. But my heart was racing, my mind in a daze, Hoping that you would like my little display of affectionate craze.

As the clock struck ten forty, I made my way down, To leave the gift and note for you to be found. "Happy Valentine's Day," I wrote, with all my heart, Hoping it would make your day a little more sweet from the start.

After class, I saw you walking with the paper bag in hand, My heart filled with joy, knowing my message was clearly planned. I may not be your valentine, but this little gesture I hope you see, Was just a small way of saying, you mean so much to me.

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— Shimigekii

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The weight of a notification

the ding, a heavy beat in my chest, a sound that puts me to the test, my heart races, anxiety creeps in, the message I'll see, I just can't win.

my mind's a mess, emotions run high, cowardice, a trait I can't deny, a weight that I can't seem to shake, with each notification, my heart breaks.

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Fear of the unknown

the notification, a ticking time bomb, in my hand, so close, yet so calm, hours have passed, but I'm still so scared, to open that message, I'm just not prepared.

I feel like such a fool, it's a real shame, my cowardice, I just can't explain, the unknown, it grips me with such fright, but I know I need to face it tonight.

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Lost in the crowd

Lying here in the crowded space, My mind a prisoner, my heart its cage. Burdened by thoughts that haunt and tire, I'm here in body, but my soul's in the mire.

Staring into the abyss, I feel so lost, In the sea of people, at what cost? The ceiling above, a blank canvas, white, Reflecting the emptiness of my sight.

The noise of the crowd, it fades away, As I drown in the thoughts, I can't escape. A leaf caught in a whirlwind, I am but small, Lost in the crowd, I stand, lost and tall.

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Timid love

you are the sun, illuminating my days i am the moon, reflecting your light in every way i tell my friends how much i like you, how much i love you but when it comes to expressing it to you, i am mute my words are like stars, hidden behind a cloud unable to shine for you

But my heart speaks louder than words, and it sings your praises every day I watch you from afar, like a constellation, mesmerized by your ways I want to tell you how much you mean to me, how much I want to be a part of your world.

But until then, my silent adoration will have to do. I'll keep shining for you, and waiting for the day when my words match my feelings and I can express how much you truly mean to me.

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sweet distraction

sitting in the room, i hear your laughter beside me, like a melody your sweet, cute voice melts my heart like a warm summer breeze

every time i'm around you, my heart can't stop pounding like a drum in a parade

exam week is here, and i should be reviewing but you keep occupying my mind like a storm cloud on a sunny day

so i said to myself, why would i study when the only thing that will be stuck on my mind is you, my sweet distraction.

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Midnight Musings

3 am, and my mind races with thoughts of you, a storm brewing within, as I lay here, awake and blue.

You're the reason for my restlessness, the cause of my sleeplessness.

I've confessed my feelings, but the answer is sorry, my heart aching like a wilted flower, feeling oh so hoary.

But I won't give up so easily, I'll fight for you, my dear, you'll see.

Around you, I'm shy, afraid and calm, my usual loudness, boldness, and charm, all gone.

But I'll try to be more confident, starting next week, after exams, I'll be resplendent.

Like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon, I'll let my true self shine, and you'll see me bloom.

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unpredictable waves

my emotions are like a pond, sometimes calm and serene, but when triggered they become unpredictable waves, crashing and surging, uncontrollable, like a wild sea

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falling for you

i was a closed book, never to be opened by anyone. but then you came along, with your words like a key, unlocking my heart and my world.

i was a puzzle, never to be completed by anyone. but then you came along, with your love like a piece, fitting me together and making me whole.

i was a bird, never to fly in the sky by anyone. but then you came along, with your love like a wind, lifting me up and taking me high.

i never thought i would fall in love, but with you, i am falling. thank you for being the one my heart chose.

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Addicted to your smile

you're smile, a hit of a drug my heart races, like a wild stallion being in love with you, an addiction i can't kick, no matter the willpower

even in the classroom, my mind drifts to the thought of you, my addiction my focus hazy, as if on a high because darling, you are my drug of choice

Your laugh, a sweet melody that my heart sings along addictively I am captured, under your spell forever yours, a love-sick fool willingly

I know i should probably quit but darling, being with you is it I'm addicted, to the way you make me feel Forever chasing this love high, it's all too real.

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lost for words

you make me feel like a bird,

fluttering my wings, trying to take flight.

but my tongue gets tied,

and my words take flight.

i want to tell you how much i love you,

how you set my heart ablaze,

but the words escape me,

leaving me tongue-tied and amazed.

i try to find the right phrases,

metaphors to convey my love,

but it's hard to express,

with words alone, how much i'm thinking of.

so i'll have to show you,

with actions and deeds,

how much you mean to me,

for words alone cannot meet the need.

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Distracted by love

sitting in the room, waiting for you my heart races, anticipation true you walk in, and suddenly i'm spellbound mesmerized by your presence all around

we're supposed to review, but i can't concentrate my mind keeps drifting, it's hard to relate to anything but you, my seatmate so bright every time i look up, your face is all i sight

the whiteboard's a blur, my focus is shot i can't even think of the questions i've got all i can do is sit here and stare at the beautiful face that's seated over there

so while the others review, i'll just sit and sigh thinking of you, my seatmate, and how i can't deny these feelings that have taken over my heart you're the one i've been waiting for, right from the start

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Unrequited Love

i still see you, in my dreams at night, your face is clear, in the morning light.

i tried to tell you, how much you meant to me, but you just smiled, and said we could be friends, you see.

i'll take what i can get, i'll be by your side, hoping one day, you'll see me as more than just a guy.

i'll be patient, i'll bide my time, till you realize, that i am worth the climb.

unrequited love, it's a cruel game, but i'll keep trying, just the same.

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Rejection?...

days have passed since you rejected me, and though I try to push it from my mind, the pain lingers like a wound that won't heal. I don't want to lose you as a friend, but it's hard to see you with someone else, especially when he's one of my own.

we were never a thing, just a fleeting crush, but the feelings I have for you run deep. I'm willing to wait, to make an effort, to show you that I am worthy of your love.

we were never a thing, just a fleeting crush, but the feelings I have for you run deep. I'm willing to wait, to make an effort, to show you that I am worthy of your love.