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[nursejessie625]

My #tattoo is not done yet but it's coming along have to schedule #roundtwo this is in memory of my #JONNYDANGEROUS @ogabel #lostlove #tilldeathdouspart ❤️ and I only trust the very best #tattooartist in the industry @tkt_nyc no ink will touch this body if it isn't done by him. More photos upon completion. #iloveyoujonny #4eva 🙏 https://www.instagram.com/p/CLBKpqznb59ri58aclUKsl4F415sw4sbAkkPeY0/?igshid=1okx91bnlfzek

[nursejessie625]

I'm sorry I could not save you... No matter how much I want to be wonder woman.. I'm fucking not.. I guess we were both selfish... I wanted you here with me... You wanted to go.. Now I have save Chris.. And myself alone.. By the grace of God.. We will make it through.. Because God knows my heart... He sees my pain.. And he will not let us drown.. 🙏🙏😔 ##letgoandletgod (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ-jalon59mmZd3DFftbEhvUP0qIWjNGItsIfg0/?igshid=17kugnyhbovwp

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Because I was his #wonderwoman ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CJqUGCVnw_CsXV7La29Pc0DRHhxIjAHeEwq-Ts0/?igshid=19ife9zxswqpw

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Thank you to my dad... And my baby sister for helping me feel normal for one very important night.. and my daughter @throughbrowneyes #photocredit for dragging me to Staten island "guilting me" though Jonny was there in my heart in my mind in my tears at midnight... Family will always have you and distract you. #iloveyouall❤️ (at Staten Island, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJh52e4nwuWIwB7LyEWJtMkLyfq5arrqzNL2740/?igshid=1n0tb4bwcc8od

[nursejessie625]

My resilience my strength lives here. https://www.instagram.com/p/CJhBeO_HTX52A3dEuaIoWzqxQwHFhwn-pxW4GQ0/?igshid=1amtgl5h9uxge

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I don't want our story to be over... I don't want to start a different chapter. I want to go back to last new years eve. When I had everything I wanted. My children my husband my new job.. NO DAMN COVID.. I miss you so much Jonny. I love you so much.. This is so fucking hard.. I'm trying to get through this day.. #godhelpme 🙏 (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJdz6DznaKg3O3twZWjmJlMvz3oSENQWejJxDQ0/?igshid=h8gwvzly1u3h

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With everything that has happened to me this past year.. Especially losing my husband @stonybrookmedicine has been the most supportive place I have ever worked. I tell everyone working in the Emergency Department I have found my second #family #myhomeawayfromhome ❤️ the place that makes me feel my purpose in life. May we go into 2021 #strongerthaneverbefore #weareinthistogether #wearethebest Have a #blessedandhappynewyear may we remember all that we lost, all that we gained and all that we still have. #stonybrookmedicine #ernurse #nurselife #mylife #stayfocused (at Stony Brook Medicine) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJct5yLn5pvV017TY5wfzAO4DoBNG6dpiVE9FI0/?igshid=o3p90surde30

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Merry Christmas my love. Your final resting place for your earthly remains has arrived. I feel so so empty without you.. I hope you love your motorcycle urn. I know how much you loved your bike. I know how much I loved our rides together. My pain feels as though it will swallow me whole.. I'm trying to get through.. Just remember to breathe... Just hold on day by day. I love you Jonny 😔😪 (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJNgKjwHodaIyMSA7sloluIZ4jom-XUFFS_6Lc0/?igshid=1jwf8wk4fl4r1

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People are running around Christmas shopping and the only thing I want will not be under a tree. I don't have the tree up. Christmas is not Christmas to me this year, it may never be again.I wake up every day wishing it was all a dream. It's not getting any better.. My heart just feels worse.. God please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change... 😪🙏 (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJJABQDn7-hF19tKJehoWjq6FAz-TWjncp7fSo0/?igshid=1c6dvymoze170

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#warwithgrandpa great movie with my Lil man. A much needed laugh. #happybirthdaychris ❤️❤️❤️ #13 (at AMC Dine-In Huntington Square 12) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJFKIg3HdaJeLNCzQshPKEddqRNknq6MdpZZ0o0/?igshid=c3b4dewo929t

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Wonder how many surprises I will keep finding from you. A note, A picture, A Poem, and now these. I will wear them like the rest of my armor. #illalwaysbeyourwonderwoman #youllalwaysbemysuperman My #Husband knew me better than anyone ❤️💙💜 #WonderWomanreeboks #reebooknanox #alwaysmakesmesmile 😊 #ernurselife #wonderwomanlife The devil is working hard in 2020 to try and take Our Hope, Our Faith, Our Belief. NO MATTER WHAT IS THROWN AT ME. #iamthestorm 🌪🌀🌩☄️ (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CI_Bdvonf45trkrdCYu-enaQRLQq8wjwONoGtQ0/?igshid=3sqx4w62dp9b

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My first day back to work since you passed on Saturday. I know it may seem like it is too soon.. I know that people probably think that I am not handling this correctly. But this is all I know... Being a Nurse, Helping people, it's the only certainty in my life of who I am. And now I know more than ever that I can work extremely well under pressure.. Thta I can detach if need be. I keep you in my heart, my mind my soul... Where I know you are telling me what you always did.. I'm the strongest Woman you ever met.. #iamthestorm #youralwayswithme #iwillneverletyougo (at Stony Brook Medicine) https://www.instagram.com/p/CI7QX8OnhfVMQfFZ1naYxKTDb7dxo2KjJb6Xyo0/?igshid=rk25mq2cxwtv

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#numb (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIvgwHbHT42LHvnHfhfigT67QC__7QIwW37wOA0/?igshid=t0faoq4dop5h

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"E.R. nurses are a different kind of creature. We condition ourselves to roll with the punches..no matter how brutal..you roll. Somebody's life depends on it. Our eyes see the unfathomable...sights that would keep a "normal" person awake at night...but we roll. We condition ourselves to not feel it...not take life too seriously...we know how fragile and brief it is..we are reminded every time we swipe that time clock...every time...and we roll. I picked a young lady up off the floor this morning after she walked out of the room where her daddy died. She dropped to her knees...she wailed..she cried out for her dad...and without batting an eye, I knelt beside her and helped her the best way I could...death had won again. We become numb...our hearts don't feel things like the hearts who are protected from this type of consistent and repeated defeat...we cope..and maybe too well. Maybe we come off as cold and emotionally unavailable. Maybe we aren't approachable. We come off a little bossy...because we have to be good patient advocates..to be the person our patient needs. Be patient with the ER nurse/EMS/PD/FD in your life. Your eyes have not seen what theirs have. You haven't felt it...you haven't battled death as much and as hard as they have. You could never see their world through their eyes...because if they love you..they wouldn't want you to..they will protect you from it. Be patient and kind with your ER nurse...you never know what battlefield they just walked off of." #LoveWhatMatters Credit: A. Thomas (at Smithtown, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CItXb0LHcswQnUCqsnZLNGWrea8VdzGf2juSWU0/?igshid=1a55cpefm9geg

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Remember that these times are not only difficult for us, they are difficult for all the children. Talk to your children, hear their concerns. Depression and anxiety are on the rise for both adults and children. #GIVETHEMAHUG #listentotheirconcerns https://www.instagram.com/p/CIl56-pHpSMRk1dULsXHzQq9FR00exmBEncFwk0/?igshid=aylroyb8nzyx

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@exoticsnacksli Got my #munchies on #yummyyummy #exoticsnacksli (at Stonebridge Country Club) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIjmpNsnjv1V8lZ8LpH7AXcNUyDTcBfxcOuCJc0/?igshid=aq7325b5egc3

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#daysoffmeancooking #goingbacktomyroots #greenbananaswithchickengizzardsalad if your #puertorican you know 😊🇵🇷🇵🇷 #puertoricanfood #puertoricannurse #daysoffbelike ❤️️💥❤️ (at Stonebridge Country Club) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIjUXA-ngmhOMTBvyqH-WSYzOq3iTaKYIYYeKs0/?igshid=1ezrvbgaka2bx