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And there is a silence so soft, it’s only memory,

Like the way your voice always sounds when you sing to me,

But I can’t hear it now

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trying desperately to find a face claim for harellan and i have so many CLOSE options but no winners yet, pls swing your best suggestions my way

closest option so far has been adelaide kane, her parents’ face claims are julianna marguiles and johnathan rhys meyers

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i have many thoughts about the article yesterday, as do we all, here is the only post i wish to put out there

the following statements can all co-exist and none of them nullify the others (not exhaustive):

- “i actively and strongly do not like veilguard” and “the team should be proud of what they accomplished given the circumstances”

- “i have real and valid criticisms of veilguard” and “it isn’t fair to blame one individual team or person for these issues”

- “i strongly believe the writing was bad and ruined the entire experience/my favourite character” and “the team did the best they could with the time and resources they had, and despite how badly they were treated”

- “veilguard was the biggest media disappointment i have been through and has broken my heart as a long time dedicated and supportive fan” and “i support the devs, believe they endured development hell, and hope they find somewhere soft to land and show off their true talent. i am excited to see what they might create next in a positive and nurturing environment.”

- “i need to be vocal about my disappointment and find community in that to be able to process this because it is important to me” and “it is only a video game and there is a wide line between valid criticism/pain and harassing devs/being rude”

- “i mourn what i know veilguard could have been” and “i take what enjoyment i can from it and choose to leave the rest behind”

- “this article doesn’t change any of my criticisms about the issues veilguard had and the places it fell short” and “this article sheds a lot of light on how capitalism and horrific management can ruin a game, and devs in this industry deserve better”

- “i am so hurt by this experience and this is really hard for me” and “the devs were more hurt by this experience and i acknowledge that their mistreatment is more important than any disappointment i feel about a video game”

Ultimately: there is room for pain and anger, but also compassion and understanding. Criticism doesn’t have to be an all-or-nothing stance. And loving the game doesn’t make the criticisms invalid. But most importantly - stop prioritising a video game over real people. ✌️

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“There’s power in stories, though. That’s all history is: the best tales. The ones that last. Might as well be mine.”

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Inquisitor Harellan Lavellan, reporting for her fit check 🫡

((Solas already has matching fits for WE&WH and post-VG canon but the temptation to do one for the post-VG AU is strong))

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Thank you for finally making it happen 😭😭😭💚💚💚

a little birthday gift for ma vhenan @nvthedasmode🥺🥰

a healthy dose of much needed catharsis tbh

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Wise men say only fools rush in.

Continuing the mural learning curve with a Solavellan mural because I simply do not value my mental wellbeing.

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Sleep in the casket you made; you’re gone, sucker

Inspired by Sucker from the Arcane soundtrack, ft. a Dark Solas variant. Not perfect by any means but I am still learning 👉👈

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Another watercolour practice with Solas because I refuse to get a personality.

(Found the reference shot on Google, holler if it’s yours!)

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this is illegal actually

damn. just realized that there is a repeated visual motif of solas bent over in physical agony representing the crushing weight of his guilt and shame throughout his murals

which is later reflected during the culmination of that same cycle of regret, with the same exact body language, even grasping at his chest or head in the same way as his depiction in the murals

and then i remembered the full meaning of "solas"

and in the end, bolstered by the inquisitor's words, he does

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More Solas sketch practice 🥺

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1 hr watercolour study.

Reference pic by Fenrelmercar.

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This is five minutes of my life I am never getting back.

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The Din'anshiral

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Sketch vs watercolour.

(I have no idea what I am doing!!)

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Times other people discussed Solavellan + Times Solas and Lavellan talked about each other (dav)

"I've seen how you look at him. You're in it" - Sera

"Is it my imagination, dear, or have certain... lingering looks passed between you and our Solas?" - Vivienne

"You're real, and it means everyone could be real. It changes everything, but it can't" - Cole

"The two of you were close. Perhaps he had no choice? He might return at any moment" - Leliana

"How have you been? It seems ages since we've spoken. I know you were cruely disappointed when Solas left" - Vivienne

"Are you hoping for word on Solas? I'm sorry, Inquisitor. I'm afraid I have nothing" - Leliana

"I've been meaning to ask... Solas hasn't come back? Sent word? Anything?" - Thom

"Oh, and Inquisitor? Feels weird, but I'm sorry Solas never came back. Well, no, I'm not, but... I'm sorry he left you." - Sera

"I am not a god, Charter. I am prideful, hotheaded, and foolish, and I am doing what I must. When you report back to the Inquisitor…. Say that I am sorry.” - Solas

"Maybe it's gullible of me, but I know the Inquisitor feels the same: Solas isn't too far gone to bring back" - Varric

"Solas was... important to me. If this statuette helps you understand him, if it uncovers something that... Honestly, I don't know. I wish I did. But this feels like a part of him, and whatever he and I once were... I think... I-I hope... it might help you" - Lavellan

"And when I served the Inquisition, I tried to avoid entanglements" - Solas

"Except for Inquisitor Lavellan" - Rook

"I said that I resolved to do so, not that I succeeded. She's a good woman. Growing close to her was... selfish of me" - Solas

"Do you regret it?" - Rook

"I live with countless regrets. Some of them I have grown to cherish more than my victories" - Solas

"Solas took this path because he thinks he has no choice. But the Inquisitor believes there is another way for him. For them. She could save him, if he would just let her" - Harding

"God of Lies, Dread Wolf, Fen'Harel. They're titles he earned from enemies, followers and fractured history. He and I shared another name: Vhenan" - Lavellan

"You've spoken to him in your dreams. You've felt the power of that mind. His love could burn against me like a bonfire. He seemed so kind, and wise, and sad, and looked at me as if I somehow mattered more than anything around us. For a time... I thought I would have followed anywhere he asked me to" - Lavellan

"Or maybe I'm the prideful one, imagining his broken heart so that I never have to face my folly. That I loved someone who made such grave mistakes. That I might love him still" - Lavellan

"He really made you happy?" - Rook

"Yes, he really did" - Lavellan

"Harding... I am sorry" - Solas

"For what, Solas? Betraying the Inquisitor and breaking her heart?" - Harding

"Is there any chance - any chance at all - that he would listen to reason?" - Lavellan

"Speaking from the heart, Inquisitor?" - Morrigan

"With Elgar'nan and and Ghilan'nain dead, and the Inquisitor finally reunited with her true love... it looked like one of the biggest stories this world had ever seen was finally drawing to a close" - Varric

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Learning how to watercolour.