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Did you know birds eat rocks Noelle

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Thinking about doing a Snowgrave comic

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the gavin brothers are so fucking petty and funny like, yeah it's really tragic and they're doomed siblings but you know for a fucking fact that phoenix witnessed a heated argument at some point between klavier and kristoph, expecting it to end in tragedy if some sort, and klavier shouts "that's it! i'm telling herr wright! i'm telling the world your secret!" and kristoph reacts like the world is actually about to end and phoenix feels klavier grab his shoulder and klavier says "Sometimes, Kris puts ketchup on his steak!"

And phoenix, a man who eats steak with his bare hands, could not care less about this or about what social rule that breaks, but Klavier looks so triumphant like he won and Phoenix turns to see if Kristoph is going to ask why he's acting so high and mighty - but Kristoph looks like he's just had his goddamn soul ripped out.

and when he finally regains his footing he snaps back all haughty with "Klavier, I didn't want to do this to you in front of Wright. But, I know about how you don't use the proper utensils to eat crab." He idly keeps filing his nails.

and klavier is fucking . devastated. phoenix is still confused, hasn't reacted once. he's eating potato chips and didn't ask to witness this.

the siblings start slipping into arguing in german and phoenix is even more lost that he was before. He overhears one english word and it's "charcuterie" and pieces together some other words that sound similar to english. Klavier just told Kristoph that his charcuterie boards 'don't have enough cheese to compliment the meat.' kristoph flips his braid over his shoulder and lands the final blow of, "The potpourri you chose for the living room doesn't even smell warm and inviting."

Phoenix feels like the energy in the room got darker. Klavier is in tears, and runs away like Kristoph just insulted his entire existence.

Phoenix is still eating potato chips and licking the salt off his fingers.

He doesn't know what potpourri is.

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I understand why people think Manfred would be bigoted but honestly I think it would be significantly funnier if he just. Wasn’t. Someone calls him homophobic in court and he’s immediately like “I?? The great prosecutor Von Karma, blinded by the biases of lesser men? I fight only for justice and the holy fire of retribution, how dare you insinuate that I am beholden to the fallacies of the wretched” and everyone immediately tunes out his self-aggrandizement bc they’re just flabbergasted by von karma supporting gay rights

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doodle of baby maria + rosa

shes thinking of mamamagic

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Kris fake crying for attention vs genuinely going through it

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[remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health] YOU should kill yourself

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It happened you can't prove it didn't.

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kanon is also so crazy if we just take him as like an individual character who doesnt have sayos knowledge. Like he just truly believes hes incomplete as a person without really knowing why. he fully believes hes furniture but doesnt know what furniture means and why he was created. Like that is how it is presented in ep7's storybook that the characters Do Absolutely Not know whats going on in greater sayoland. like i think his rage and frustration is so much more real when you consider that. Goes absolutely insane

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it's so hard to put into words my thoughts on kanon but it's like. it fucking sucks that he's right but for all the wrong reasons

it seems to be the case from early episode 2 that george and shannon's relationship started in some capacity while kinzo was still alive. before sayo knew everything. by the time she found out, shannon couldn't (and likely didn't really want to) cut things off without having a reason she could explain. george feels, to shannon, like her surest bet at a real future. so she buries what she knows about her parentage, buries the fact that the expected 2.5 kids and a dog will never be a possibility for her, and hopes against hope that it will all just magically work out if she is good enough at being a girlfriend and fiancee and wife. it's a doomed path, and sayo is clearly aware of that, but on some level it's all she really has to cling to. shannon can't afford to acknowledge the reality of her situation without giving up on the closest thing she has to a chance at a "normal" life where someone loves her

and then jessica comes in and complicates so many things. kanon clearly did develop feelings for her at some point and resents that he can't un-ring that bell. he is the harsh reality to shannon's pretty dream. he can't just put everything he knows into a box and try in spite of it, despite shannon's encouragement. pursuing jessica would jeopardize things with george, and despite being acutely aware of how much things will not and should not work out with him, sayo can't let go of that hope easily

it largely goes unsaid, but on top of everything else, being with jessica would also most likely mean staying on the island, forever. being with jessica would mean openly becoming the head of this family and being responsible for its continuation and financial success. kanon can't be a "proper husband" any more than shannon can be a "proper wife", and while the social consequences for a man would be far less dire, they wouldn't be nonexistent - in fact, it's quite possible that jessica would be the one to shoulder the social consequences of infertility, if natsuhi's situation is anything to go by. i don't think this is lost on kanon.

but because he's kanon, because he holds all of sayo's rage and self-loathing and cynicism along with her realism, he can't say all this. jessica asks him to be himself around her and to share his feelings, whatever they may be, and he can't tell her it would be wrong, impossible, and miserable for them both. he can only articulate all of the tangled mess in sayo's heart by saying he's less than human, incapable of love, a lost cause that jessica needs to give up on already

and like. it just sucks that he is right to reject her, he is right not to put them both into the mess it would create for them to be together, but actual honesty is no more an option for him than it is for shannon.

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my beautiful evil wife 👓

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the priest’s favorite lamb

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lets make this the year of yuri

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Natsuhi Umineko would have had such a beautiful life as an unmarried lesbian

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Hey on ur list of aa zines there's one called transition and turnabout but there dosent seem to be any links to it?

That’s a new one! It’s in the creation stage, but i was able to put it on the sheet super early bc i know the mods :) here’s a link to their twitter!