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You know I will.

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Minsan naiisip ko, kung mag-isa lang siguro ako sa buhay, walang makapipigil sa akin from ending it.

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It’s been over a year since that happened. I thought I was fine already, until I saw something the triggered the memories along with the emotions I had that night.

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Hi. So, ayon, tapos na first sem ng first year. Di ako masyado nanibago sa college life. Sanay naman na kong may times na walang gagawin tapos biglang tambak gawain, ganon. Di pa kumpleto grades ko pero wala naman akong bagsak, I think.. lol

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Nakatutuwa si Mars. Kahit ayaw nyang sabihin, ginagawa nya naman. May progress na nga sya ngayon e. Nakakaproud. 😊

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Nasa labas na ko ng bahay nila Mars kanina at i-chchat sana sya na lumabas nung nag-decide ako na sundin nalang sya. Kasalanan ko naman kasi nagpumilit ako kahit ayaw nya. But in the end I chose to respect his decision. Let him be him.

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I loved you. I loved you when the skies are clear and the sunlight is brightly shining upon our faces. When the heat from the sun went through our body and through our hearts, I loved you. And I still love you. I still love you even now when the sky turned black and it's raining hard. When the winds stopped whispering sweet words on our ears and instead came with the storm and crashed in, I love you. I love you and I want all the sunny days with you. But I'll stay when there are storms, and still be there when the rainbows appear. I love you, Adrian.

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Mahal pero hindi mahalaga

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Pagod na 'ko

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Our Philo teacher told me that it's a good thing that I can still feel.

It hurts so much tell me how is this a good thing

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We don't always get what we want.

We don't always get what we deserve.

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Masakit mabalewala ng taong pinakamahalaga para sa'yo. Pero wala namang magagawa. You can't force someone to give you the importance you crave from them.

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Mahalaga ka sakin kahit hindi ako mahalaga sayo.

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"...matalino ka naman, kaya mo na yan"

Hindi. Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko na kaya. Why do you always expect me to be strong? Why do you do this to me? You hurt me then expect me to understand why you did. I can't even breakdown for your sake, what kind of shit is this? I can't stand tall all the time, it's exhausting.

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My curiosity destroyed a family.

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Basag na ako

Wag mo na akong durugin pa, mahal

At baka mabubog ka

-⭐

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May 4, 2018

My father tried to kill himself. I pushed myself onto a tiny hole to open the door so my mom and grandma could stop him. After opening the door for them, I just sat infront of the TV.

I didn't cry. I know Maya, my cousin, is checking me to see if I'm okay. She's looking at me to see if I'm crying.

I'm not okay, but I did not cry. Until now I haven't shed a single tear because of him. I can't feel anything.