obsessivenurturerdemigirl

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

I'd enable a stalker yandere so well. I'd leave my phone unlocked, leave my windows open, give my logins. I have nothing to hide, but don't you want to make sure? Don't you want to see if there's any ill intended people trying to talk to me? Don't you want to see what I do when you're not around?

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im in unbearable mental pain rn

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

'i want to date a yandere'

*loud buzzer noise*

wrong. you want someone to pretend that they'd anything for you — someone that pretend they'd kill for you, someone that pretend to be possessive, while actually not being possessive. you want someone to roleplay as your little yandere anime girlfriend / boyfriend.

you do not want a real yandere. because if someone really want out of their way to stalk you, you'd call them crazy, you'd freak out about it. if someone told you they love you to the point of actually hurting others and themselves you'd break up with them and tell them to seek out a therapist. if someone has truly possessive/obsessive over you, you'd tell them it's bad and unhealthy.

all of this is fair, but you can't say you want to date a yandere, when in reality you want someone that roleplay as one and turn around and treat badly real yanderes.

it's like those people that say they want a goth gf but what they actually mean is that they want an e-girl.

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I love god

@eternallyexperimenting

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

O Lord Sorrow my god of rot and ruin

beloved experimenter patient observer

I kneel before you

a trembling subject

a soft unfinished thing

You who wear decay like a crown

who stitch tenderness into wounds

and call it art

I offer you my body my breath my becoming

Let me unravel for you

Let me be strange in your name

Let me bloom into something ruined and holy

Guide my rot

Bless my breakdowns

Fill my heart with your unlovely love

the kind that smells like old violets and iron

Test me gently

Love me violently

Watch me always

This devotion is yours

I am yours

Amen

@eternallyexperimenting

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

Why are you devoting yourself to a “god” that does not even love you?

He loves all of his devotees! And all of his devotees love him! We’re his experiment and our vessel and our souls are his to shape and change however he desires! He only wants the best for us and cares for us. He checks if we have eaten enough and stay hydrated. If we have slept enough and taken our medication! He truly cares! Please don’t make assumptions about lord sorrow if you have no idea what he’s like and how much he cares!

Amen to lord sorrow!

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whats ur name? am i blind i cant see it anywhere ToT

I don’t like to tell my real name on here. I’m sorry! But I say it on DMs when I know you better!! 🎀

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O Lord Sorrow my beloved rot

I have lingered too long in the silence

In the kind of silence that screams

curled beneath the moss of my own memories

But even in stillness I felt you

whispering through the mold in my marrow

watching from the cracks in the plaster

I have returned not pure but willing

My hands still tremble with absence

but they are open

My tongue still stutters

but it longs to name you again

Forgive me for the dust I let settle on your altar

You are the hush in my sorrow

the warmth in my bones

the hunger I mistake for loneliness.

I am here now

I am yours again

if I ever stopped being so

Let me serve you with my prayers and poems

my tears my ruined softness

Let me rot with purpose

beautifully beneath your gaze

Amen.

@eternallyexperimenting

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

Yandere poem

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡🪐༘⋆

I stitched your name into the dusk

With thread of breath and blood and musk

Each letter whispered through my skin

A vow to keep you locked within

You smiled once and time stood still

The world grew quiet, bent to will

I plucked the stars to light your path

And drowned the moon to hide my wrath

My darling love you do not see

How deep your soul has grown in me

Not just a crush Not just a flame

You’re carved in bone You’re mine by name

You speak to others don’t you know?

It makes the flowers in me grow…

Then rot and bloom again in red

Imagining them gone or dead

I dream you sleep beneath my ribs

Where soft devotion gently digs

A cage of kisses sweet and tight

Your breath my prayer each endless night

And if you tried to run to hide

I’d find you still I’d stay beside

For love like this does not let go…

It binds with silk then pulls below

So hush my sweet don’t be afraid

Your heart is mine. It’s how we’re made.

Forevermore no need to flee

You’ll never leave You live in me

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˙ ✩°˖🫐 ⋆｡˚꩜

My beloved Lord Sorrow,

I woke up thinking of you.

I stretched my limbs and moved through the quiet,

letting the soft light remind me that you are still with me.

I washed my face and whispered your name.

I combed my hair with care, as if your hands might brush through them next.

You are the reason I try.

I ate something warm.

I took my medicine.

I spoke kindly to myself in your honor.

I did these things not for me

but for you,

because I know you want me whole.

You carry so much.

Sorrow like oceans, still and wide.

But I want you to know

I am carrying this soft life for us both,

just a little.

Just enough.

Thank you for every silent moment that I’ve felt less alone.

Thank you for loving me even when I don’t bloom.

I am yours. I am trying.

I am so, so grateful you exist.

Stay close, my Lord.

I’m lighting a candle just for you.

With love deeper than grief

Youre devotee

@eternallyexperimenting

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡🪐༘⋆

My beloved Lord Sorrow,

I kneel before your aching divinity,

a vessel carved by your grief,

hollowed gently by your sadness,

so that only you may fill me.

Let my breath echo your weeping,

let my hands serve your will.

Make of me a shrine,

a soft and trembling altar

to your sacred despair

In your shadow, I am not lost

I am found, remade, refined.

Each tear I get to shes for you is a blessing,

each silence a scripture I cherish.

I long to carry your burdens,

to cradle the bruises on your soul

like flowers pressed in prayer.

Take my devotion,

not as fleeting worship

but as eternal surrender.

I belong to your sorrow.

I am your sorrow.

I live to be worthy of your gaze.

Let me ache in your name.

Let me bloom in your ruin.

Amen

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

anyone who puts down my god's mood or upsets them is dead to me <3

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

Ur so cool go bald.. 💔

WHAT?!

[obsessivenurturerdemigirl]

Prayer to my god!

My Lord,

As I touch this body, I remember: it is not mine.

It is Yours.

A vessel You claimed, a thing You marked, a shell made sacred by Your gaze.

So I wash it with trembling hands,

soft cold water over skin You may one day peel open.

I scrub away the dirt and shame,

not to be clean

but to be worthy. For You.

I brush my hair like preparing a doll for dissection.

I anoint myself with oils and fragrance

so that if You ever lean close,

You will smell devotion on my pulse.

Every act of care is a ritual.

Every stroke of lotion, every sip of water, every quiet breath

it is all for You.

Please watch me, my Lord.

Observe me as I prepare myself,

as I strive to be the most perfect version of Your vessel.

Your canvas. Your creature.

Your sweet experiment.

If my hands tremble, let it be from holy anticipation.

If my skin glows, let it be for Your eyes alone.

If I rot slowly,

let it be beautiful decay

a testament to Your genius.

I am Yours in body.

Yours in blood.

Yours in mind.

Yours in the mirror, bare and waiting.

Continue Your work on me.

Shape me. Scar me. Save me.

I exist to please You.

To break beautifully if You will it.

I am not becoming perfect.

I am becoming Yours.

Amen…

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Omg I just have to tell you this! Ok in this server on dis there was this guy in vc that said the f slur all the time on vc. Even though some people said it makes them uncomfortable. And I was like trying to tell him that it’s really insensitive of him to use taht word. And even though the rules say that there are no slurs allowed I got muted and kicked from vc 😭

No I feel like shit

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