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tbh i haven’t thought about my tc for a while and i thought i was over him, but i remembered that yesterday was his birthday and i started to miss him so much and i just wish he was my teacher again 😭

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i was the time 11:11 in my exam and wished to be skinny before i even wished to pass 😔

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hasn't even been a week since he went home for break and i'm already obsessively checking my email to see if he's reached out to me (he has absolutely no reason to) (no i will not email him first)

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IM MARRIED! (platonically to my best friend and romantically to my teacher)

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im so tired of feeling like this i just want him to love me

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tumblr is like dark web but for teenage girls

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me: it's unethical and gross to prey on young girls even if they're legal, especially if you're in a position of power me when I see my tc: except for you shawty bae you get a pass

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i searched up something to do with teacher crushes and youtube directed me to the samaritans help line 😭

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why is this actually me 😭

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he’s been ignoring me whenever i’m by myself, but i’m just convinced he’s finally got his moral intacta and is resisting his love for me 😔

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visual representation of me during the autumn and winter months

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my new roman empire is that my phone broke and this document wasn’t backed up so it’s gone forever 😭

not even exaggerating when I say I have a 39 page doccument detailing every interaction I've had with him since october.

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Saw him today whilst with my friends. Asked how i’d been and as he walked away out his hand on my shoulder 👀

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in all honesty i would tell him how you feel and ask for him to distance himself (that is if he doesnt do that on his own) and just treat you like a very very regular student. yea, that hard, but if you genuinely want to get over him as quickly as possible he has to be the one to initiate it.

from a crushing student's point of view nothing is more intoxicating than their tc. like personally no matter how hard i personally would try i could never just get over him unless he stopped being so nice to me. then again, i have bpd and he's my fp so take this with a grain of salt

Hey, thanks for this!

Him not being my teacher anymore has definitely helped. You're so right about our tcs being the most intoxicating thing. Seeing him was like a drug and the more I see him, the more I want to. I haven't talked to him in a while (hence why i haven't posted much. I've also been avoiding tumblr so I don't see content that makes me dwell on my feelings.) I no longer have daily interactions to ruminate on so I think slowly and surely I'll get over him, but the distance is killing me. I miss him so much :(

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not even exaggerating, I saw him yesterday and as he came into the room he saw my friend, who I was behind, and smiled politely, but when we made eye contact, he smiled even brighter, like he was genuinely happy to see me.

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