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Give me the strength to let her go.

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Yep.. happened to me......again

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Yep... that what happens to me every time.

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It's been awhile since I posted. But I thought I would post something today.

So I got lucky enough to have a early shift so I got off work early but instead of going home I decided to go for a hike and when I was walking I started talking to the gods. I wasn't asking for straight or anything like that but I was just talking to them and thanking them. Anyways when I got back to my car. I saw a ravin sitting on the park bench that was next to my car and it was just watching me. Odin, all father..... thanks for listening.

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Well. Living with a broken heart is hard. But its nothing I cant handle. I did see a raven and I know Odin watches me.

Odin The all Father. Give me the wisdom and your son Thor give me his strength?

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Well. Assassins creed Valhalla is out and everyone loves vikings and Norse gods. Come on people

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This a girl in my life I want to send this to. But idk if I should or shouldn't

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Time to let go of the past and look to the future. I may have a broken heart. But in time it will heal.

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3 more day till my birthday and I think about everything that has happened. Now I hope this year is better then last year. Laster I had my heart broken and then the only person I really care about is homeless. I realy hope this new job I about to start can help me grow and I hope this year the girl of my dreams finlay finds me.

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So I honestly feel lost, alone. Even more now then when I was a Christian. I really cant put how I feel in to words.

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So I am still talking to that girl I'm crushing on. She is one of my closest friends and I have slowly starting to come to the realization. She and I would probably never be a thing. Yes we text and flirt but I know she would never leave her husband and yes I feel like an asshole talking to a married woman. But she is my Valkyrie. She is one of the strongest people I know and I hope one day she will give this modern viking her love.

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This week had been crazy. With city's being shutdown, people panic buying food and clearing out the shelves in grocery stores all because of a virus from China. It feels like the world is falling apart and now it feels like my personal world is falling apart and now it feels like my personal world is falling apart. You see with so much uncertainty going on out there. I was 100% certain that my partner or should I say my bf. Broke up with me. The same person who texted "I love u" just 4 hours early. Honestly I feel more lost then ever. A party of mr actually Hope's the world dose end.

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Dream Girl. Pt2

This is a pt2 to my last post and honestly i am more confused. I really like this girl and even though she is married a part of hopes she says yes when I jokingly say "run away with me?"

Maybe one day she will. After all she did say "I love you."

Idk maybe I'm just looking to too far into our friendship / relationship. Still lost. Still confused.

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So there is this girl I like. I like her a lot and she likes me the same way. When I talk to her I smile. She is like my own personal Valkyrie sent by Odin himself.

Only one problem is that she with someone else and it sucks and hurts alot. More often after we talk I go from feeling good to being down.

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So I took the first couple steps can't prove it myself. Myself out of this pet I am in. I reached out to my sister and she help me find a therapist. I also started working out again on a regular basis. I'm just trying to keep myself busy and pray to the all father but he continues to give me strength.

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Getting help

So I saw a doctor today and we talked about my depression and he's putting me on antidepressants. I just want to thank my friend who is in my hema class. He talked to me and convinced me to get help. "He said no viking never won a battle alone" and that's what I was attempting to do.