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Maybe I was asking for a return. That eyes never wondered, I know that those eyes were only to turn me down. I was never good, I was introduced as the girl who stole your precious treasure. I think it's good for me to no longer show up in there. I wish I was welcomed, the very first day til the end of the line.

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Uhm, I just want to say I'm living an unreal reality. I'm still daydreaming, and unhealthy. I wish I could discipline myself. I wish there would be a healthy change. I'm weak. I keep on telling sorry to myself, I cannot compliment my own physiques. You know how it was hard for your body to endure all the hate coming from your own soul. I was like, I'm sorry, I don't know how to take care of things consistently that I am already jumping into a conclusion that maybe I can't love myself at all. When will I love myself? When will I genuinely praise myself if all I could do is fill it up with white lies.

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Has been giving signals but end up learning the signs

Was about to tell what I feel yet all I can give was a sigh

Too afraid for our chats to begin in an awkward Hi

I hate the feels, I hate what I see in your eye

Caressing my hand, please tell me to hold it tight

Redundancy, please make me dance with your goodnight

Some swords were creeping in my sleep for a while

Between my lungs was dustin', she hates being fragile

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That dream had theme of purple

I can't understand why this man keeps on popping up in my asleep mind. We were acting as if it was 2012 where those hands are free to hold us both. I know I'm not missing something from you, I just know that there are things on me that have changed yet I still can't accept. You wanted someone else, I know. I'm not good enough, yes I am. Since I have loved you, my insecurities didn't try to break away from me. You have those fragments that is needed to complete my unreal life. We have different paths now, I don't love you, I just regret something that I did on you. I want to say sorry for leading this to a regretful memory.

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That dream had theme of yellow.

It was considered a normal day, and I'm hanging out with my unusual friend that popped up into my fantasy again.

I need to unnamed this guy as his identification was too loud. He's 1 ft taller than me, had wavy light brown hair and always had his smiling eyes.

We were roaming around the hall saying flirty stuffs that might get us into dangerous relationship. I don't like guys putting their hand on my shoulders but if it is him, i did feel safe. From what I remember, I'm asking him to let both of us disguise as couple then he did laugh as hard as he can as he subconsciously hiding me on his broad shoulder. this flirt

Can't say I'm not falling into his trap because he's too precious to be with. I love protecting him. I feel safe with his embrace, the warmth was just right for me to spend my whole life on this.

I love this dream that I thought it was real. I wanted this man to be mine but he is too far from reality.

And I need to cue myself for waking up.

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That dream had theme of darkness.

I am with a bunch of high school kids whose 10 centimeter taller than me. They were having good time in that museum and so was I with a man that I know is forbidden to be with. While all of us were about to leave the place, a strange security girl stopped us. I did not remember her face but I think her body was somehow chubby. She tried to explain to us that to be able to leave the place we must open the gate without being tracked by the human censor device or else blood will run all over the place.

Everyone was trying, not until him who tried his very best out of frustration and end up getting slashed from his back causing his shirt to tear and fall down. That moment, I did not know he was already in my arms making sounds which was obviously in pain.

This beautiful man wasn't crying but scared for me. I hugged him tight and feel his warmth as I wrapped the wounds up with his remaining clothes. He is way too heavy for me, but as his companion I need to carry him away from this place.

Someone had the answer by turning off the electricity to disable the censor, and manually open the gate that made people get away from the said museum. We did passed through the gate and I'm still carrying him.

The next thing I remember is that we were in the same room lying in the same bed. He was still in pain, I know cause he was showing his back from me. The sun had risen, it was peeking from the window reflecting from the glowing skin of this shirtless man.

I know this is a dream so it is my cue to already wake up.

#KJ #1712

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Happy Birthday Namjoonie 💜

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Is it possible that I am being generous for the price? I am selling it for 20 pesos per head without charging the time I consumed and the talent fee every artists rightfully had. And I even saw a comment saying, what's the sense of putting an eyeglasses if someone is faceless. Lol. I am just a beginner but these words degrades me.

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Chubby cheeks check 💜

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Happiest birthday Jungkook!

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"I still love you and will love you and will love you in the future too."- 🐥

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Stop staring at me when I'm walking past you.

Stop thinking about me late at night, I can't stop dreaming unexpected fates.

You make me think of running away.

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I made it, a commissioned one. but I used reference because I cant draw a proportioned body. Thanks to my reference. ♥️

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I love chivalry

But it seems u know nothing of it

I love being childish

But you mentioned you hate people like that

I love the love languages

But u dont have time to learn of english language

I love you knowing me

But I guess I am just nothing to be known for

I love talking,

But it seems you are getting sleepy

I love fantasies,

But u blame my favorite movie genres

I love daydreaming,

But you always think I am hungry

I love provoking you,

Because you can't understand me.

I'm hearing the same words all over again.

I am not hearing the words that I wanted.

And the sad fact is, you never know me.

You just know what makes me happy but never ever knew what makes me sad.

fin.

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The cruelty of life

is starting to devour me

The darkness I left

is currently staring at me

Do you think I deserve to stay

In this story where I stand alone.

I thought I could gather more

With memories I have kept inside

But Im starting to love being forgetful

As people take me as convenience

Do I not deserve to have one cristina

Well, maybe they cant have me in their future

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I dreamt of Jimin.

We exchange messages.

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Sanji's Going Merry