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Maybe your tone of voice or what you say? Like if you're insulting, most people don't take to that too kindly. Or if you're belittling. I mean, you're not someone I consider mean so, I don't really know. I do think you can be a little self-entitled though. 

Well, because what else could it be?

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Really? That's such a relief. It's always nice to know you're never alone. It makes life a little bit better. You never sleep? That's not healthy. Do you have insomnia Marisol? I see. 

A few people actually had no idea what they were, you’re not the only one, don’t worry. I am, I never sleep, so I’m very dependent on caffeine.

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But why would you want to be bruised? What if Aspen comes and burns you to a crisp? Who did that? Oh Mar, there are things. 

I know, I know. I think I can handle a few bruises, I mean, I’ve literally had my tongue ripped out of my mouth. Nothing can top that.

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Don't you think freezing their pipes was a bit premature? Unless this parking space had your name on it, I don't see how it was yours. 

Somebody stole my parking space.

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I'm not one for revenge, but I would assume so. If you're goal wasn't to hurt them and just cause them damage that would cost them a bit of money, then I'd assume so. What happened anyway?

Would freezing the pipes in someone’s house count as slow and righteous revenge? I mean, it took them a while to realize their entire plumbing system was the fucked up.

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Really Mar? You're totally asking for it with that statement. I really hope no one beats you up. 

God, it’s been so boring around here. I kind of wish a fight would go down.

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Oh! I was confused about what the whitening tray was, but that makes so much sense. Are you a coffee addict?

Whiter teeth, I drink way too much coffee, so I need a little help.

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Well I suppose I'll have to try them before I die then. Like, they can go on my bucket list. That's not good, have you taken him to a vet? 

They do, and they’re delicious. He’s alright, just a bit ill.

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@sexysybil: i really wanna like...buy a state...can u do that??

@jansreflection: @sexysybil it would probably cost way to much, but i don't see why not...

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I think I chewed too much cinnamon gum and burned my mouth. That's possible right? Because it's a bit agitated and when I drink water, it kind of stings a bit. 

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Nothing at all? You just sat there and stared at nothing?

Wow. What a hard day of doing absolutely nothing.

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Oh. I take it you aren't a fan of who Gossip Girl is then?

Gossip Girl.

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I'm afraid I can't really comment until I know what show you're actually referring to.

That was probably the most disappointing series finale I’ve ever experienced.  

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I'm not quite sure. I mean, I can go anywhere I want to go, which is nice. I can watch others--although that sounds stalker-ish. 

Is there even anything to do in a mirror?

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But how do you know you will? Can you predict the future? Everyone suffers hurt Chase and I'm not a stranger to it. Really, you will? Good. Don't you think it's about time I try to do something dangerous? Personally, I don't see anything dangerous about me helping you from losing your life, figuratively speaking. Don't let me be collateral damage then. You won't hurt me--at least I don't think you will. But, Enmity could and I guess it's a risk I'll try to take. I'll be honest Chase, I'm scared, but I also want help, if you want it. Don't make me waste my time. But it's a problem that you can't solve alone; not everything can be done on your own. So you're saying I don't help? Chase, can you please just be clear and tell me if you want me around or not. Like I said, please don't waste my time because I don't want to get hurt for nothing. Obviously--if you thought releasing emotions you've bottled up for years is easy, then you're wrong. It's out of your comfort zone. Well I'm glad I make you feel because it means you're not a monster. You're not a mess. This is new and you're learning. Stop putting yourself down, trust me, depression is not a place you want to go. 

I wasn’t— finished. When I said I don’t want to hurt, I had not finished — I don’t want to hurt you. January. If you are so willing to help as you say, I will — let you try. But it is dangerous, I can’t say it any stronger. You could be hurt. By them, or — me. I do not want you to become… collateral damage. Do you understand me? I know you are willing, but I do not want you to be. You shouldn’t be. This is my problem, no? That is why I don’t want you to be near me, you — cloud it further. You make me feel — but I said, it is too much. I feel so much that I struggle to breathe. It’s unacceptable — fucking ridiculous — I am a mess.

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So do I and I try my best not to read too much into first impressions, but they are pretty important. But, they can also be deceiving since everyone knows they are. How can you be so sure?

I wish it wasn’t so. It probably is the way I speak.