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The one thing that sucks about having inner monologue is that you can have fights within your own head that havent happened yet.

You can pretty much hear the words the person you fight with is going to say. You hear what you are going to say back to that person and then by the time its over you are mentally and emotionally exhausted.

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Chapter 42 here --New 4/20/24

Summary:

With Armie heading out to fight the wildland fire at Murphy Creek, Timmy faces some uncomfortable truths about what loving a firefighter really means, and makes promises, to himself and others, about how he'll make sure they never end up in such a mess again.

Excerpt:

Timmy reached up and brushed a finger over his medallion, the piece of Armie that had hung around his neck since that very first night. Life had somehow brought him back here, back to Armie–the man who made pancakes laced with vanilla to celebrate 3-month anniversaries, who touched both his body and soul in ways no other person ever had. The man who unlocked hidden desires, tied deft knots, and matched Timmy round for round–the noble man who cared so fiercely and, though he’d never said so in so many words, made Timmy feel loved.

He’d wobbled at the worst possible time, and now Armie was far away, facing danger. Timmy brought the medallion to his lips and pressed a kiss against it, sending a prayer to the universe for Armie’s safety, knowing he needed to be strong. He couldn’t fall apart, not now–not when Armie needed him to take care of the things he’d had to leave behind in the face of duty.

Or start from the beginning here.

Hello! I know it's been a while, and I'm sorry. But hopefully this will have been worth the wait. I sincerely appreciate each and every one of you who has hung around and is still reading--thank you from the bottom of my heart, truly. I was recently reminded that this story has been going on nearly 3 years now and isn't finished, and that it's a lot to ask people to keep reading after so long. And I get it, I do. There's more to come, but if you ever want to stop reading, just know that these boys have a happy ending, so you can step away with a happy heart.

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Killing Stalking Thoughts

Today I finished reading Killing Stalking for the second time since the first time I ever read it in college when I was a freshman.

The first time that I ever read killing stalking was when I was a freshman in college and loved it despite the gruesome subject matter of abuse, childhood trauma, and the pure toxicity of the relationship between these two characters. But I truly did not understand completely, yet I couldn’t put it down, even when I wanted to put it down and walk away I couldn’t completely. 

Now that I am in my 30s and can fully understand everything, I decided to pick back up again and read it for a second time. And I have to say that both Sangwoo and Yoon bum deserved so much better than what they got as children and being abused by the people who said they loved them. Is heartbreaking to me, it is something that I personally can relate to but not to the extremes that these two had gone through. 

The thing that made it hard to read was the multitude of emotions I felt during reading this story. The pain, the sadness, the intense anger of Sangwoo, and the tears, anxiety and fear of Yoon Bum. During the entire time it was like a rollercoaster going up and down, just as it was when I read call me by your name for the very first time. 

I personally love crime stories I am pretty sure that's obvious by now given the few fanfics I've done. But going back through it, I realized a lot more than I thought the first time.

so Spoiler warning for those who wish to read it. I say do so with caution and if you are easily triggered by any of the subjects that is involved with the Manwah then don't read it at all for your own mental health. if you cannot handle it.

1st- The ending pisses me off and tore me up the most because I do understand completely are aware that this relationship was not normal by any means and shouldn't be seen that way. However, I do not believe that what the people did to Bum with hiding the fact that they cremated Sangwoo without telling him. Much less allowing him to see him one last time.

I am not okay with that at all, he should have been able to have the closure he wanted. He should have at least been able to give Sangwoo that ring he was wanting to give him. Even if it meant that he was moving on with his life and possibly towards better things.

2nd- Everything that Yoon Bum went through made me want to hug this poor guy. I literally thought that no one would give this guy any type of kindness. Along with Sangwoo.

Yes, I realize that he is a shitty guy and does horrible shit, I am not saying I agree with the things that he did to everyone. In fact, I believe that the way he died, was in some way due to my sense of humor comedic justice with the old lady "shutting him up" because he was being too loud and wouldn't shut up. X'D

At the same time It does break my heart since Bum was one of the people in his life to show him any kind of kindness. And the fact that both of them, were calling out each other's names was sad.

3. The parents should all be smacked in the heads and have child protective services called on all their asses. speaking of parent, I want to know how in the world that Sangwoo's mom could look as she does being dead for 4 to 5 years!!!!! you think being in that wall all that time, she would be a skeleton!

anyway, those people should have never been allowed to be parents much less gradians. The part where Sangwoo kills Bum's uncle, I had a moment of daja vu when Keller kills most of Schillinger's men who went after Beecher's family. and the whole "Don't you see I did what I did out of love?" though the uncle deserved it in my personal opinion the piece of garbage! I digress.

4. I do believe in my heart that Sangwoo and Yoon Bum would have been good together. Hear me out! IF they would have gotten their shit together and gone to therapy respectively and worked through their own childhood traumas and other issues that was going on with them.

why? Because in their own fucked up way they understood each other very well.

Koogi explains that she put the song "Killing me softly" in the story because she heard it and love it! While in the story itself Sangwoo hates the song.

But by looking at the lyrics myself it does make sense to me that it could be told from Bum's perspective and his infatuation/ trauma bonding with Sangwoo.

We might describe ‘Killing Me Softly’ as a bittersweet song about a number of opposites: the softness of Don McLean’s vocal delivery versus the power of what he is singing; and the way he appears to ‘get’ the woman, to understand her pain and her experiences, and yet he doesn’t even know she exists.

After all, towards the end of the song, he appears to look right through her, because to him, she’s just another face in the crowd. He appears to understand her, personally, but the singer of ‘Killing Me Softly’ has mistaken a universal emotion for a private feeling.

They understand one another because they have a shared trauma and talk about their traumas together.

5. Something else I tended to notice that I didn't the first time I read it was the fact that Yoon Bum was watching The Fantastic Mr. Fox. A movie which I personally have watched and loved it! so I thought that was really cool!

6. The "tender moments" the moments between Sangwoo and Yoon Bum, where he is being nice to him, taking care of him, tending to his wounds and all that. I realize was manipulation tactics for Yoon Bum to stay with Sangwoo. This part messed me up, because I found those moments to be very sweet, while at the same time I had to remind myself, "this is toxic, he is using him for his own gratification." which is also very heartbreaking to me.

Sangwoo and Bum's relationship reminds me a lot of Beecher and Keller's relationship from OZ. On many many levels which is crazy because I love those actors who play those very messed up characters as well.

However, when it comes to Yoon Bum and Sangwoo, I know there are many people who ship this two together. But, without dumping on anyone, I personally do not ship them together because I see Killing Stalking for what it really is and what it was meant to be in the beginning.

Which is a cautionary tale of what can happen when mental illness and trauma of any kind does not get resolved and worked through by going to therapy and working on yourself. And I do hope that someday, Koogi gets her dream of having Killing Stalking become an animated series or something of that nature. I would definitely watch it for that reason, the person who was in the middle of animating it stopped due to not having enough funds which kills me! Because the animation was AMAZING!

So with the story ending as it did, I think at some point down the line I will be writing, playing with these two characters. In a fanfiction, that is going to heavily deviate from the toxicity and try my hand at what I think their relationship would look like if they actually got their shit together and seeing what a healthy relationship with these two would look like and how they navigate through the mess that happened between them.

I not sure how this will be done yet, but the idea is been floating around in my head for a while since reading this story. So if you want to read it when I start doing this then you are more than welcome to.

If not thats cool too either way, this story will be written because I do believe these two deserve a much better ending. However, they did promise each other that if one of them was to die, the other would follow suit.

so do I believe that Bum is dead? well, that remains to be seen we shall never know from the manga. But part of me doesn't want to believe that he is but, with how lost Bum looked and felt another part of me thinks he kept the promise.

I also realize that there is foreshadowing of what would happen to Bum during the taxi ride to the hospital when the driver tells him,

"Standing in the middle of the road like that is just asking for an accident."

That's just my thoughts on this crazy, amazing story. Do I recommend it? YES. 100000% for only those who enjoy a good psychological thriller story. it is worth the read.

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So I started watching the Grand Cayman show that she who I will not name is in. And I will say that I do like the fact that at least two of these people on this show are not dealing with her and her bs story.

And one of them has been backing up the fandom with what a lot of us has been saying from the time this stuff all began. Courtney, I believe her name is (not the Courtney from the disgusting documentary) a different one who ex accused of being one of Armie's girls.

She (Courtney) backs up the fake accounts that this woman created to start messing with Armie.

Personal opinion this Courtney person is alright in my book. I'm only watching this to see more of the truth come out.

Because in my eyes Armie's ex wife deserves to have everything and anything taken away from her. It's not right that he had to suffer all that crap and have his career ruined over a woman who has to play victim, over a woman who is as evil and fake as her.

May karma bring the justice, Let Armie rise and let this woman fall and stew in her own mess that she created. She does not deserve to be called or use the Hammer name anymore!

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need to have back him and all of this.. nothing's longer the same here without him. 💙

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"I was completely won over once I saw everything from a different perspective from my own."

(Armie about his feels playing Oliver's character)

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*slowly peeks from around the corner slowly raising hand unsure of what to say*

Reblog if you're a charmie 💪 let's see how "small" is this fandom 😎

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Desert Rose Chapter 9

Desert Rose (2023) - Chapter 9 - olivereliocorcordium1983 - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]

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It's called chemistry

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Never forget…The things that matter

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SPOILERS IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN DUNE 2!

So I watched Dune 2 yesterday and it was beyond amazing. Firstly let me say that if I could have a baby sandworm that would be so cool! and I would keep it in my backyard in the dirt to let it eat bad people that would try to get me. XD

Secondly, I thought the fight scene with Baustista and Paul's master could have been longer than just a few hits. I honestly think that if someone was wanting revenge, it would be more of a bigger fight.

Than just a few whip whacks and a stab with a knife. I know that it's not a huge part of the story (I'm assuming)

I do not like Paul's mom at all, she just rubs me the wrong way. I do not hate her just to simply hate on this woman. I don't like the choices that she made. just making that clear, even though I love the actress that plays her.

The kiss between uncle and nephew, I was like DAMNNNNNNN okay they are that kind of family. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 and then I understood why then was like "okay that explains it."

Sandworm riding oh man! watching Paul ride the sandworm had me feeling like I was gonna drowned in sand just from watching it. But it was really cool to see makes me wanna ride one too! But I know I would lose my balance and fall on my face.

The walk cool I like how "graceful" Chani and Paul looked doing it together.

Some parts were hilarious to me, the baby talking to Paul's mom was kind of trippy as hell.

I feel horrible for Chani having to watch Paul take the Emperor's daughter for his own. That kind of sucks to see someone you clearly like/love have to choose someone else for the sake of power and political reasons.

the reunion of teacher and student was sweet it make me smile.

Now the one particular part where Paul is walking with his hood over his head to talk to the group as a whole. It gave off very serious Anakin skywalker's switch to the darkside vibes very heavily, and Order 66.

Now I don't just say this because I am a starwars fan but only (1- 6) not the new ones. Anyways, I say this because it was a serious parallel for me to physically see it happening on screen that sort of slow decent type feel to it.

The biggest shock to me was to find out that Paul and that nasty Baron Harkonen were related! that felt like an ultimate betrayal to me for some reason, I guess it was because I loved the relationship between Paul and his father Leto. But I was literally like

"Okay, you mean to tell me, that Paul has been related to this guy the entire time! so initially he is killing his own people?! WTF type of twisted shit is this! Jessica, you have some serious issues woman you need some therapy! "

The other witch woman, that also shocked me that she was the one who actually planned the whole thing with the death of Atreides. That was... I have no words for that one.

Rautha was creepy as hell but in a good bad guy sort of way. And his knives oh man, as someone who collects knives and loves knives myself.... I want his knives!

All in all I loved the movie sadly, though where I watched the movie did not have the sandworm popcorn bucket. so no sandworm for me, but that is okay it was still worth going and still worth seeing.

Well done Timmy I am proud of you again for making something brilliant and being a revolving master of your craft. Kudos to you sir. This one is a MUST see.

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Happy to see that Olivia got to reunite with the little girl she rescued in SVU as an adult. I love happy endings.

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".. we walked into this beautiful palazzo in Italy that was Luca's. It had beautiful wrought-iron fence and a beautiful courtyard with blooming flowers and sunshine. Then I heard this piano music wafting in and Luca said, "Come, let us speak", and I said, "Ok!".

So we go up and there he is. He's sitting there at the piano with this Italian composer and they're playing, and it was like something out of a movie."

"We definitely.. we definitely keep in touch, we're definitely.. we're definitely close. It`s.. it`s great".

".. to get to experience that, and live in that, and breathe that for two months, was one of the greatest gifts I've been given in my entire life."

"..another.. you know.. level."

it’s all here.

the real reason for all that.. and it's so clear and loud.

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here's the full scene! ( requested by @cmtcahrule )

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In the 90s my mom and stepdad used to watch Dallas all the time when I was growing up and yesterday, they were watching it. Which intrigued me to watch it and never really payed much attention to it. so ive been bingeing it and the amount of shit that the Kardashians go through is NOTHING, and has NOTHING ON THE EWINGS!!!!!! of the show Dallas.

Jesus christ bro these people be backstabbing left and right, Jr being a MASSIVE HOE and the amount of people getting into each others business is enough to drive me crazy! Seriously, these people have no sense of privacy at all and I thought my family was bad!

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Fated 24 - Forever Isn't Enough - Dune Fanfic - Armie x Timmy

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by @jaydenthorne​

Fandom: Dune (2021/2024), Charmie

Relationships: Paul Atreides/Mike Stevens (Timothée Chalamet/Armie Hammer)

Characters: Paul Atreides, Mike Stevens (OC), Stilgar, Chani, Lady Jessica

Additional Tags: Dune Crossover, Original Character(s), Timothée Chalamet as Paul, Armie Hammer as Stevens, Slow Burn, Angst, Relationships, M/M, Enemies to Friends to Lovers

Chapters:

Ch 24: Forever Isn't Enough

Ch 23: I Must Not Fear

Ch 22: The Rock that Holds Back the Wind

Ch 21: Revelations

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Ch 1:  Disturbances in the Night