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Hi all

Been a minute and I apologize for disappearing out of nowhere, but yesterday I found out I had some medical issues which will unfortunately put a stop to me gaining for the foreseeable future.

Im pretty bummed and don’t really know how to handle it. And I really don’t think I’ll be able to be active on this account much because of that.

Hopefully in the future I can get to a place where mentally I am able to handle being in feedism spaces, because as much as I want to be here and support yall, it truthfully makes me want to gain more too which is not ideal atm.

I hope I can be back because I miss being here. It just sucks right now :/

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Here it is!

I think I might make another blog today or soon

Just for non-feedism stuff

I love tumblr and yall are the coolest, but I def am not doing so well body image wise and I think feedism is playing a big part into that.

Idk def wanna keep the connections and also keep this blog because I love feedism, but just idk kinda not doing well.

I’ll post the blog once I make it!

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I think I might make another blog today or soon

Just for non-feedism stuff

I love tumblr and yall are the coolest, but I def am not doing so well body image wise and I think feedism is playing a big part into that.

Idk def wanna keep the connections and also keep this blog because I love feedism, but just idk kinda not doing well.

I’ll post the blog once I make it!

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People being annoying about fat people exercising are going to turn me into the Joker I swear

"Weight loss happens in the kitchen, not the gym! Stop working out so much and focus on your diet" Ok but I'm not trying to lose weight, you asshole, nor did I ask.

"Idk if you should be doing that much cardio at your size, your joints..." I have a lung condition, you fuckwit, and cardio is part of managing it. Do you know better than my doctors now?!

"Don't bother lifting until you lose some fat, it'll just build up under the fat and make you look bigger" wow it's almost like becoming a muscle chub is the whole fucking point

"If you overeat after your workout you're wasting your time / ruining all of your progress" fuck all the way OFF. Why is it so hard to believe I like working out AND eating tasty food. You can rip my pizza and ice cream from my cold dead hands. But good luck because I'm probably stronger and definitely heavier than you.

I'm not trying to be thin, I'm trying to be big and strong in every sense of the word. I don't want to be toned and hard I want to be fit and soft. I want to be the brave strong protector and the world's coziest human pillow all at once. I want strong arms to hold someone with and a big soft tummy they can rest their head on. Keep your diet culture cult bullshit AWAY from me.

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I'm attracted to all genders but trans women / fems hold a special place in my heart

You want to be a pampered, worshipped princess and I want to be an overly chivalrous knight in shining armor

I think we can help each other 👉👈

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i know you like treating me like your prized office pig but i really think we've taken things too far…

you knew my weakness when it came to sugar and, my god, you exploited it!! you knew those daily boxes of a dozen donuts in the break room would be way too tempting for me!!!

now look at me! even after all this; after outgrowing my work clothes from a year ago! after pushing my weight to such extreme heights! you still wanna push me even further down the obesity rabbit hole?!?

seriously tho, now you’ve got me chugging these post-work “health shakes”?? call me crazy but i feel like i’ve only been getting heavier since you got me on this new routine 😮‍💨

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Leelah Alcorn’s blog was deleted and posts about her are being removed. Don’t stop spreading this. Reblog everything you can, post everything you can. 

These are her pictures

here are some of her drawings

this is her note

Don’t let this die.

Not this.

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Uk peeps!! Let’s get this going! 🏳️‍⚧️🇬🇧

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the epitome of health n wellness :3

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🎀 at rest 🎀

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She do be a bit artsy tho

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Oh no! A squishy girl belly on your wholesome skinny blog? How vulgar!

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ok adding my two cents to this whole tumblr feedism censorship business just in case it needs to be said- fat sexuality kept me alive. my body changed whether i liked it or not, and finding out that thousands of people on the internet found my new body not only okay but desirable was part of the reason i am doing okay after such a life-altering injury. is this self-harm? is my body healing a sign of disordered eating? is it for anyone else? this new policy demonstrates that my body is "harmful" or "harmed", that showing off my curves and bumps and scars and rolls wrong and shameful. they've been doing this to our communities for years- especially to black women, to trans women- and this is just another hokey version of their attempt at ontological erasure of those who they consider undesirable. you know what is harmful? not letting me see myself as beautiful, skewing my perception of beauty to only include thin cis whiteness, and a prohibition on expressions of sexuality. we all know it never goes well. hey those of you contributing to censorship- has that ever gone well in the past? how do we remember those who censor? have fun thinking about that one!

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ok adding my two cents to this whole tumblr feedism censorship business just in case it needs to be said- fat sexuality kept me alive. my body changed whether i liked it or not, and finding out that thousands of people on the internet found my new body not only okay but desirable was part of the reason i am doing okay after such a life-altering injury. is this self-harm? is my body healing a sign of disordered eating? is it for anyone else? this new policy demonstrates that my body is "harmful" or "harmed", that showing off my curves and bumps and scars and rolls wrong and shameful. they've been doing this to our communities for years- especially to black women, to trans women- and this is just another hokey version of their attempt at ontological erasure of those who they consider undesirable. you know what is harmful? not letting me see myself as beautiful, skewing my perception of beauty to only include thin cis whiteness, and a prohibition on expressions of sexuality. we all know it never goes well. hey those of you contributing to censorship- has that ever gone well in the past? how do we remember those who censor? have fun thinking about that one!

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I love fat people and hate fascism

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going absolutely feralllll i want to be as fat as you badly, literally look like your before pics atm, maybe a little skinnier even, how do I get fatter without spending an absurd amount on food?? :')

Aaaaa you’re so sweet thank you!!!

I’m going to be completely honest. I don’t know 😭😭😭 I’m the wrong person to ask on that I had a ton of money saved up and I blew through about $2,000 on takeout and fast food when I was stuffing nightly. I only started to slow down on spending once I got some people to sponsor some stuffings and then once I realized I probably didn’t want to spend much more. But one thing that did help was getting apps for fast food places near me, as I got a ton of rewards which added up quick. And also do not use food delivery that eats up so much money :’(