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Lately I’ve been trying to figure out whether or not romantic connections are the most important in MY life specifically. I value friendship SO much and I’m SO grateful to have some amazing friends that I count on being in my life for many years to come. The idea of growing up, growing old, surrounded by these platonic partners makes me so warm inside, I don’t know if I have the space in my heart to fully submerge myself in a romantic relationship the same way IF the person I’m seeing doesn’t feel like a FRIEND, also. I need that platonic connection in order to progress into something more physical. I need that someone to run stupid errands with me and sing karaoke in the car while I’m driving before I can see them as someone whom I can trust fully to understand the real me. I hope I get to develop those connections at my pace. Even if my relationships don’t work out, I know I have people that cherish me in my life, that see me, understand me :-)

That’s all, I’m feeling sentimental <3

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I could never tap into the clean girl aesthetic side of life as I enjoy freebleeding too much

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and it’s funny how even though it’s used clothing I am still contributing to consumerism at its finest ……… i am very strict with myself when it comes to buying new things and haven’t bought anything fast fashion in like TEN YEARS (but I MAINLY wore used shit my whole life because of financial difficulties anyway?), but i go crazy when it comes to thrifting and it’s NOT HEALTHY!!!! it’s still overconsumption!!!!!!! i need to contain myself just because it’s 10 bucks does not mean i need to have it…… downsizing soon and posting shit on vinted again <3 maybe I’ll make some money

got influenced and bought the american apparel disco dress….. to be honest i fell into a vinted trap and have been scrolling for two hours KNOWING that i only wear like four articles of clothing on rotation ….. all started with a jacket i had saved getting discounted for really fucking cheap and now im out here sending offers lowballing the fuck out of everybody

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got influenced and bought the american apparel disco dress….. to be honest i fell into a vinted trap and have been scrolling for two hours KNOWING that i only wear like four articles of clothing on rotation ….. all started with a jacket i had saved getting discounted for really fucking cheap and now im out here sending offers lowballing the fuck out of everybody

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still not over it this is sooooooo sexy

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got hoes lined up in different countries. One for each continent. (Manifesting)

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forgot to take my medication for a few days in a row and suddenly i have my ability to come back

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dhl lost my ethel cain merch

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watching twin peaks … need it to consume me entirely

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Anne Michaels, from her novel titled "Held," originally published in 2003

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Mary Oliver, "From The Book of Time." Devotions

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the ear nose and throat being all connected is so heinous

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thought so much about it we made out